Please help me

[Jesus_ist_König]

yeah i love terry he was the goat
sadly his life ended in tragedy too
very gifted man

but yeah with regards to your meds you’re in an unfortunate situation. drugs will interact weirdly with psychosis and stimulants can absolutely make it worse.

The thing why i doubt that i have psychosis is that my adhd meds have made it better, im more in touch with reality with the meds. without meds its worser. But the meds -regarding them elevating my dopamine levels, bettering the chances for psychosis- should help induce psychosis, but in my chase they dont -i think.

these episodes are get are only when im alone or when its dark. Im so scared of the dark, a lot of things have happened in the dark i dont like the dark

Newton had bipolar, he had long periods of manic depression and then periods of insane productivity.

Was that officially documented?
I only knew that he was so obsessed that he never slept for mulitple days and that eventually he good a nervous system attack or smth from insomnia

Maybe not the same as being schizo but a lot of your symptoms do seem like mania which is common in psychosis.

Out of my knowledge

Geniuses are often insane because psychosis in a way allows us to access cognitive abilities we normally don’t have access to

This dude, he just played chess all day, no social contacts, nothing but chess and chess and chess. But he was severly paranoid. He didnt play a single official match for 20 years because he was scared that the soviets were spying on him and wanted to kill him if he were to go to an official game. Truly insane
i dont have that obsession kick in me, like somewhat.

I have phases. I get heavily obsessed with topics for around 3 months and only think about them and after 3 months i completely lose interest, and no i cant chose the topic i get obsessed with.

. Unwavering motivation and productivity for days on end, abstract thought processes that hold solutions to mathematical problems, compulsions and inclinations that end up being prophetic etc

You really just need to point yourself in the right direction such that you use whatever periods of brilliance you get to create something wonderful, and have enough of a support network around you to stop yourself ruining your life when things get bad

I dont have friends

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

John Nash, schizophrenic nobel prize winning mathematician

Crazy...

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

@vigor what am i supposed to do now? I wrote my new psychologist, that I only know since 1 meeting cuz i dumped my old one. I have an appointment next week with her.
the problem is that she already told me that she barely knows anything about psychosis... so i might need to find a new one, i really liked her though

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

John Nash, schizophrenic nobel prize winning mathematician

dude i cant believe that i actually have psychosis. This shit is self induced. When i was off medication i fucked around and made one imaginary friend and then sudddendly i started hearing more voices that i didnt create.
in other words if i never would have created that one imaginary friend, then i would never come to this shit or what???


it just sounds so disney like. a few months ago i wanted to have psychosis for the title and the award and now i actually have it?
anyways until nothing is diagnosed imma shut my mouth i just want my problems fixed and not do some stupid shit

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

i have no idea

'm sorry you're going through this. What you're describe is not something I'd consider a typical side effect of ADHD alone, and it deserves prompt evaluation by a medical professional.
Some possibilities (not a diagnosis) include:

• A psychotic episode (or psychotic symptoms), which can involve hearing voices, seeing or sensing people who aren't there, feeling intensely paranoid, and having difficulty distinguishing what's real.
• A severe anxiety or panic episode with dissociation, where someone may freeze, stare, cry, make involuntary sounds, or feel detached from reality. However, this alone doesn't usually explain voices or vivid visions.
• A medication-related reaction. Stimulants like Vyvanse (called Elvanse in many countries) can, in some people, trigger psychotic symptoms, severe anxiety, or obsessive intrusive thoughts—even at prescribed doses. This is uncommon but well recognized. Guanfacine is much less likely to cause these symptoms by itself.
• Another psychiatric or neurological condition that needs assessment.

A few things stand out in what you wrote:

• Feeling like someone is around the corner wanting to kill you sounds like paranoid thinking or a hallucination/illusion.
• Wanting to talk to voices or imaginary people, even if the voices are silent, is something a clinician would want to know about.
• Biting your hand, collapsing to the floor, staring for long periods, and making meaningless sounds could happen during periods of overwhelming distress, but they also warrant medical evaluation.
• You also mention strong urges to do things that go completely against your beliefs. Those could be intrusive thoughts (which occur in conditions like OCD), but because they're happening alongside the other symptoms you listed, they shouldn't be assumed to be OCD without an assessment.

What I think would help​

• Contact the doctor who prescribes your ADHD medication as soon as possible (today if possible, or the next business day). Tell them exactly what you wrote here. If these symptoms started after starting or increasing Vyvanse/Elvanse, tell them that too.
• If this is happening right now, or if you think you might act on the urges, or the visions/voices become more convincing or frightening, go to the nearest emergency department or call your local emergency services immediately. This is something that should be assessed urgently.
• Until you've spoken with a clinician, try not to be alone if you're feeling very frightened or worried you might lose control. If there's someone you trust, let them know what's happening.

Can I ask two questions that would help narrow things down?

1. Did these episodes start before you began Vyvanse/Elvanse, or only after starting it or increasing the dose?
2. During these episodes, do you still know that the person behind the corner and the voices probably aren't real, or do they feel completely real at the time?

Even without those answers, I think the combination of paranoia, voices/imaginary people, extreme distress, and unusual behaviors is enough that you should be evaluated by a healthcare professional promptly rather than trying to manage it on your own.

if this is a joke you're a terrible person. if you're serious you are retarded because op also has access to chatgpt.

So did I bro I went to church on my own. Nobody in my family is religious. I got baptised by myself. I worship God went to church every Easter the whole day.

Until two weeks ago I realise there is no God and to just live your life to the fullest.

Big leagues calling nigga.
The fucking new psychologist even responded my email and is super kind even though its fucking saturday
old psychologist brutally mogged

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Big leagues calling nigga.
The fucking new psychologist even responded my email and is super kind even though its fucking saturday
old psychologist brutally mogged

okay no wait wait wait, she contacted my parents because she was concerned... no...

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

Big leagues calling nigga.
The fucking new psychologist even responded my email and is super kind even though its fucking saturday
old psychologist brutally mogged

Do you have an therqpist? I have an question. Can you get like hugs from frmale therapist and maybe even kisses or hold hands

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

okay no wait wait wait, she contacted my parents because she was concerned... no...

O shi thiw is why i dont want a therapist

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Do you have an therqpist? I have an question. Can you get like hugs from frmale therapist and maybe even kisses or hold hands

no they could face jail or smth dude
bro fuck my parents already wrote me on whatsapp im cooked chicken dude

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

O shi thiw is why i dont want a therapist

i wanted to get into detail in the email but i didnt im glad

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

no they could face jail or smth dude
bro fuck my parents already wrote me on whatsapp im cooked chicken dude

I wont snitch js a hug

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

i wanted to get into detail in the email but i didnt im glad

Idk im not gonna ask fora therapist but recently my dad has been saying hes concerned w me and stuff. Idk if i want one or not. Means i have to tell why i wanna go to the terapist to my parenta

 

[yyk117]

tag me if you're going to write an update with what your parents say vro

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Idk im not gonna ask fora therapist but recently my dad has been saying hes concerned w me and stuff. Idk if i want one or not. Means i have to tell why i wanna go to the terapist to my parenta

tag me if you're going to write an update with what your parents say vro

I’m locked in the bathroom my mom is saying that my psychologist wrote a long and worried email
She is dead serious I’m scared dude
She is about to crash out

I’m so fucked

They took my pc for not talking for the rest of the summer for not talking

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Shit dude this is bad I’m so cooked

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Dude @yyk117 I will never open up to a human body ever I think my own psychologist slimed me

 

[yyk117]

Dude @yyk117 I will never open up to a human body ever I think my own psychologist slimed me

bro i thought it was fucking illegal to tell others what your patients tell you. wtf that bitch

 

[yyk117]

I’m locked in the bathroom my mom is saying that my psychologist wrote a long and worried email
She is dead serious I’m scared dude
She is about to crash out

I’m so fucked

They took my pc for not talking for the rest of the summer for not talking

bro could they check your org or see shit you watched on your pc or would they not go through it?

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

bro i thought it was fucking illegal to tell others what your patients tell you. wtf that bitch

Not if you are going to harm urself or others
She thinks that I will harm myself because of the previous cuts from voice 1

 

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[Jesus_ist_König]

bro could they check your org or see shit you watched on your pc or would they not go through it?

They don’t know my password nor my browser password and I don’t have a browser history

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

nigga , dm me rn ill try and help

Help me here I’m feeling good I’m eating ice cream

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

bro could they check your org or see shit you watched on your pc or would they not go through it?

I think she just freaked out because my psychologist put suicide hotline’s in the email

But yeah, supposedly I won’t have my PC for the whole summer, but I think it’s gonna be one week

 

[yyk117]

I think she just freaked out because my psychologist put suicide hotline’s in the email

But yeah, supposedly I won’t have my PC for the whole summer, but I think it’s gonna be one week

bro wtf is she retarded. causing so much problem for no reason. ofc its a foid aswell

 

[yyk117]

Help me here I’m feeling good I’m eating ice cream

vro howd you go from being locked in the bathroom with your mom crashing out to eating ice cream

 

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[Jesus_ist_König]

bro wtf is she retarded. causing so much problem for no reason. ofc its a foid aswell

I mean I get her, imagine I actually do smth and she goes to jail for 30 years for not contacting my parents

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

vro howd you go from being locked in the bathroom with your mom crashing out to eating ice cream

I control. Wasn’t good that I left the knifes lying around and the scissors for self defense

But again they are narcissistic
“Come out or ur pc is gone for the rest of the summer” wonderful

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

i

think hes an actual schizo

Dude u barley know me but yeah might be

, parents are told not to get into fights or scare them but instead make them feel comfortable

Thank you
Mine don’t do that

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

you said you felt like crying on vyanase , thats pretty common with adhd meds as they fuck around with your dopamine receptors

I don’t usually cry
Just when I get these waves

 

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[Jesus_ist_König]

vro howd you go from being locked in the bathroom with your mom crashing out to eating ice cream

Okay dude we need to think. The psychologist already wrote my parents that I’m too much for her and she doesn’t know about psychosis or smth so I guess I will change her????

Anyways I have lost the desire to tell any psychologist about what goes through my mind. Next session next week I will just sit there and answer and not story tell I’m sick of it dude

I only need God

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

I’m locked in the bathroom my mom is saying that my psychologist wrote a long and worried email
She is dead serious I’m scared dude
She is about to crash out

I’m so fucked

They took my pc for not talking for the rest of the summer for not talking

fukkk over

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Niger you said you hear voices , i mean i hear voices but i dont see stuff that wants to kill me. though if you think about it theyre not real no mater how scary they appear just low inhib maxx and geniuenly go and stand infront of them and scare the living shit out of them know that your unbeatable and unbreakable

I carry one knife and one scissor around to kill monsters at night I go hunting

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

Okay dude we need to think. The psychologist already wrote my parents that I’m too much for her and she doesn’t know about psychosis or smth so I guess I will change her????

Anyways I have lost the desire to tell any psychologist about what goes through my mind. Next session next week I will just sit there and answer and not story tell I’m sick of it dude

I only need God

Ya bro later on today i need to talk to my dad on whatsapp why men are better then women and shi and more

 

[yyk117]

Okay dude we need to think. The psychologist already wrote my parents that I’m too much for her and she doesn’t know about psychosis or smth so I guess I will change her????

Anyways I have lost the desire to tell any psychologist about what goes through my mind. Next session next week I will just sit there and answer and not story tell I’m sick of it dude

I only need God

you should maybe try one more session to see if shes really bad. i dont think its right to go to the next one because of one mistake. anyways im happy that you're chilling now. i will go to sleep because i need to wake up at 3:30 for a flight

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

Ya bro later on today i need to talk to my dad on whatsapp why men are better then women and shi and more

my dad said said do you think women should like obey men or smth and i said maybe

 

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I carry one knife and one scissor around to kill monsters at night I go hunting

You are aware theyre not real though ? , why are you trying to kill something that isnt real

 

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[iwannasleeponurlap]

keep me informed this seems fun , say theres a reason why theyre incapable of doing anything on their own

ye im gonna provide studies too. Dad said women hsve it hard cause they get raped and over the years they have becone mentally stronger and they are mor empathethic

 

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[iwannasleeponurlap]

is your dad married by any chance , and always sides with your mom during an arguement and always assumes that your in the wrong?

Hes married but my mom yells to him and shi and he doesnt yell back so i said to him to fight back because he is the man of the house and he said but women and men are equal and i said hmmm

 

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[Jesus_ist_König]

my dad said said do you think women should like obey men or smth and i said maybe

Doooooodd

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

You are aware theyre not real though ? , why are you trying to kill something that isnt real

One day I can chop them into pieces trust

 

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[Jesus_ist_König]

Im gonna be honest bro , this really sounds like larp

Ok

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

somehow i already knew , dm me and add me on discord ill send user in pms i want to talk

ILikeoof124

 

[Noriju]

I’m going to attempt to answer your question as If i were in your situation with the knowledge i have.
I currently am on 50mg vyvanse so my perspective will probably be of help to you.

First of all.
1. Going to your therapist and laying all the specifics out might be a good idea. But remember, you are definitely not an eloquent speaker, neither am i, thats why i know when things get explained by us, it’ll sound delirious. -> psych ward.
2. Get your priorities straight. Your mental health is shit right?
Well, what about your other “health’s”?
If i were you, i would firstly blame my problems on lifestyle issues. Rule those out before looking towards other interventions.

Most people don’t really understand HOW important sleep is. For me, 7 hours vs 9 hours of sleep is the difference between dogshit retardism and superhuman intelligence.
Exercise. Do it, it improves sleep because you’re more tired.

3. Brainwash yourself.
This might sound “crazy” but this works for me. And i’ve observed active changes in my mentality because of it.
> your mind recycles 90% of your thoughts from the previous day. This is why the saying “a thousand lies said 1000 times becomes the truth”.
The key here is to just lie to yourself. Screw youe integrity. I keep telling myself i’m handsome, smart, intelligent etc. and i believe it.
I’ve also believed it when i told myself i was a fat ugly looser with no friends.

> basically fight fire with fire.
You hear voices? No i didn’t.
I must be going insane! -> thats not right, i’m a perfectly normal, genius intellectual guy.
Etcetera.

Takes about a week or two for your mindset to change lol.

If it all fails brah just tell your therapist.