
Zesto
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My Chinese friend girl got the highest grade in the class (class average was 68) and she got 99.
Then everyone looked at her and started clapping (I remained silent, didn't even glance).
She didn't even ask how I did or tell me how our studying helped.
I feel like such an idiot I only got 84.5
Dear God someone please tell me I'm going to make it, what have I done to deserve this.
This girl is better than me in every single way, is a LoL gamer, likes anime and manga, and has taken 4 years of Japanese.
Please I cannot take being m0gged by this girl anymore I don't know what to do.
There's a voice in my head that keeps telling me get back to the gym and burn all the pain away. Crack open those never opened Japanese instruction books to make the pain go away. Sleep more to make the pain go away. Spend less time on forums to make the pain go away.
But how do I follow that voice when I'm so depressed over being m0gged to hell and back by this girl (who is the only girl that has ever been nice to me but keeps m0gging me and making me feel worthless).
I can't handle knowing the fact this girl is smarter than I am and is everything that I want to be.
I don't know what to do!! I was thinking of meeting privately with my teacher and telling her how embarrassed I am that Angela scored higher than I did despite the fact that we studied together and how I'll be going to her office hours to make sure this doesn't happen again.
Dear God I wanted to score higher than her on the final but just realized class will be over by the time we get our grades back and she will never know.
I will never be able to mog her back. She gave me my only date in my life (a study date) but I wish I never met her so I wouldn't be in all this pain right now.
Then everyone looked at her and started clapping (I remained silent, didn't even glance).
She didn't even ask how I did or tell me how our studying helped.
I feel like such an idiot I only got 84.5
Dear God someone please tell me I'm going to make it, what have I done to deserve this.
This girl is better than me in every single way, is a LoL gamer, likes anime and manga, and has taken 4 years of Japanese.
Please I cannot take being m0gged by this girl anymore I don't know what to do.
There's a voice in my head that keeps telling me get back to the gym and burn all the pain away. Crack open those never opened Japanese instruction books to make the pain go away. Sleep more to make the pain go away. Spend less time on forums to make the pain go away.
But how do I follow that voice when I'm so depressed over being m0gged to hell and back by this girl (who is the only girl that has ever been nice to me but keeps m0gging me and making me feel worthless).
I can't handle knowing the fact this girl is smarter than I am and is everything that I want to be.
I don't know what to do!! I was thinking of meeting privately with my teacher and telling her how embarrassed I am that Angela scored higher than I did despite the fact that we studied together and how I'll be going to her office hours to make sure this doesn't happen again.
Dear God I wanted to score higher than her on the final but just realized class will be over by the time we get our grades back and she will never know.
I will never be able to mog her back. She gave me my only date in my life (a study date) but I wish I never met her so I wouldn't be in all this pain right now.