Starboy219
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made this a lot small bc u mfs cant read:
My whole life, I’ve felt out of touch with social situations and have often been the punching bag in friend groups. In middle school, I tried to fit in with the popular kids by being funny and doing whatever they told me, thinking it would earn acceptance. Instead, it got me bullied. When a new student arrived taller and better looking he did the same things I did but was accepted and even dated my crush. Looking back, I realize I was seen as the weird kid because I was slightly neurodivergent and lacked the halo effect. By high school, I accepted that no matter what I did, I wouldn’t be taken seriously.
Now I’m in college, and despite looksmaxxing since 2022, spending over 1,000 hours on the gym, skincare, and self-improvement, I keep running into the same reality. Yesterday, I opened a dorm door and saw a 6'5 Chad with NOT TWO, NOT THREE, BUT FOUR OF MY CAMPUS CRUSHES. Another time, I watched a 6'3 HTN walk my crush into the room across from mine, AND I COULD HEAR HIM FUCKING MY CRUSH. NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I WILL NEVER COMPETE. Some people are fine not being the best looking guy in the room, but every time I get mogged, it feels physically painful and ruins my entire week.
My whole life, I’ve felt out of touch with social situations and have often been the punching bag in friend groups. In middle school, I tried to fit in with the popular kids by being funny and doing whatever they told me, thinking it would earn acceptance. Instead, it got me bullied. When a new student arrived taller and better looking he did the same things I did but was accepted and even dated my crush. Looking back, I realize I was seen as the weird kid because I was slightly neurodivergent and lacked the halo effect. By high school, I accepted that no matter what I did, I wouldn’t be taken seriously.
Now I’m in college, and despite looksmaxxing since 2022, spending over 1,000 hours on the gym, skincare, and self-improvement, I keep running into the same reality. Yesterday, I opened a dorm door and saw a 6'5 Chad with NOT TWO, NOT THREE, BUT FOUR OF MY CAMPUS CRUSHES. Another time, I watched a 6'3 HTN walk my crush into the room across from mine, AND I COULD HEAR HIM FUCKING MY CRUSH. NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I WILL NEVER COMPETE. Some people are fine not being the best looking guy in the room, but every time I get mogged, it feels physically painful and ruins my entire week.
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