dstivvy
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I still can’t feel the difference, I’m still the same retard I was before, I honestly am just gonna vent about some things that may be a little cringy, so you may want to leave this forum or just the classic “dnr” for reps.
I have lost 10kg. Some of my old trousers no longer fit me, not even with a belt. “dstivvy, oh you should be happy and shiieeeet you should be proud and shiieeeet you made progress”. My mother was worried for the longest time that my teachers or classmates would pick up on it and question me. The most I ever received was a joking jester on the stomach, as a joke to spite me, as my classmates love to do to me, and he noticed I lost a little weight, asked me about it, and once I gave him a simple answer never talked to me about it again. People just don’t care man. It is just so brutal to realise that you would need to literally make huge differences that are indisputably evident like losing 10kg, for it to only give you one interaction(mind you it wasn’t a female I was talking about). My motivation has always been paper thin, and I always feel like I’m walking backwards, no matter how much more I learn, or no matter how much more people educate me. So what even is the point of this thread. It’s not actually my usual complaining thread. I am trying so hard, as a man with one of the worst bases in the forum, living in a single parent household, I am prepared to make my life better. Everything that I have done up until this point has been inadequate. So I will strive to be better. Even if the whole thing turns out to be pointless, it doesn’t matter because at least I gave it a shot, instead of cowering back into my little cave. I am a man, not a bitch who can go whine and complain about things when it doesn’t go their way. The brutal reality about this life is that nobody is inclined to care about you. You have to give them a reason to. Or else you might as well continue to rot. I am still young, still young enough to not throw in the towel yet. I will not give in to porn again. I will not give in to the calling of the devil. This is simply because I cannot. I must become neurotypical. For me, looksmaxxing has never been about some sort of female validation, but acceptance to society.
Let me clear this account up
• I harbour no hatred in my heart towards homosexuals/homosexuality, they are just doing what they do on impulse, it’s not their fault.(I am straight male though don’t get it twisted)
• I harbour no hatred towards females, it’s not their fault for abusing the hypergamy or anything, and deep down you know this is true because you helped create that hypergamy. Whether it was because you were beating it to some kinky porn, or giving that 3/10 a little too much confidence, I am highly confident that you contributed to it
• I harbour no hatred towards my own race/any race at all. Yes, this includes every race. African, Asian, Caucasian and other ethnicities. Every race has a chad. We are all united in some ways more than we are disconnected. I am recovering(or trying to)from the feeling of self-hatred. If you are a self-hater, please re-consider things. It is not worth it to hate yourself over something you can’t control, you just have to mirror the reality that you would like to create. I want a world where all mankind are connected and equal. That is what I truly want, a childish desire, but a desire lots of us wanted a long time ago.
I have always felt neurodivergent since the day I realised my mannerisms were not normal, but I as far as I know, was never diagnosed with something serious. So I will no longer blame it on neurodivergence or any external factor. I will no longer spend hours stressing about my ugly looks. I will improve myself. Just look at my eyes and tell me:
What can I improve?
Seems pretty simple what I can do right? “Oh bro just improoooooove bro just improooooove
” improving is more than just trying to get better habits. And I realise that now. I know that I do not have the privilege of having a good base like a lot of you, and my African parents did not give me an eating habit worth praising them for. Infact, they seem to think eating lots of food=healthy. I thought that reducing my eye lines would be so simple, as easy as walking or even breathing. It’s been a month and it has only gotten worse. The truth is that you are nothing without a goal, a way of getting there, and a good reason why to. I had only one of these, which i couldn’t even motivate myself to, because of how much of a pussy I am jfl. I have no goal, and I don’t know how to do half the things I need to in order to reach my goal. Not only do I need to fix that, but I need to fix my feminine ahh eyebrows. “Oh just keep improooooving bro you will see results” No improving for retards. So do I need to educate myself better? Yes. I do indeed. Alright. Now. What do I do once I have better eyes. The first thing I said in this thread is that ”I still can’t feel the difference” and the same applies to my eye area. Sure it may look better, look more entrancing but I am a quiet kid in my school, in my own home and pretty much every where I go. Unless Iook like the perfect human it may as well not be enough. So what do I do? I have been looking for something that will occupy me, a skill that I am actually good at, with minor success. I am still looking but I fear I may have no natural talents. Due to my iq, my bad reading skills despite the fact I was a book-worm when I was younger, I can only imagine one reason for this. I am low iq. So i need to increase my iq, increase my looks, get a more sociable personality, and some good motivation. There is no sympathy for people who get left behind in this world. People will mock you for having weak will, for not being resilient, for not being strong, when others around you are doing all of those things with no difficulty(even though their genetics allow them to do so easier than you).You have to understand that nobody here is chad. People here have had easier lives than others sure, but nobody here is chad. That is because chads are isolated from the grounds of this world. Not just chads, but anyone who wins the genetic lottery. Not just someone who looks good, but someone who can rise above the rest. Those people are the people I desire to join one day. You are short sighted if you believe in only lookism. Lookism is only one part of the genetic lottery. Talents, knowledge, strength, and every other attribute adds towards whether you won the genetic contest or not. If you have nothing of substance, it’s over. If you look like a chad but you are unintelligent i WILL laugh in your face. You will never experience life on the flip side if you don’t get that life from day 1.Stop using looks to try and justify your bad genetics. Looks are nothing but makeup at the end of the day. It will eventually fade away, and I’d rather live 10 years as a genius than 100 as a chad, who will fade away with his looks. I am not blue or red pilled by any chance, i just no longer care so much about superficial things. Although i am forced to care about it because others are wrongfully judging me upon those who things. I would prefer it if i had the genetics to be better without trying to hard, but i clearly don’t.
Lmao as you can see i clearly drifted away from the original format of this vent post. It’s because i want to talk straight from the heart, so i could bond with the people reading this the best i could. Honesty does speak volumes in my opinion. I’m not even trying to get sympathy from anyone, so don’t feel forced to say “my condolences bro” if it ain’t coming from the heart. I uhh, I hope that this thread gave you some enlightenment on things, it probably didn’t tbh. If you want to vent feel free to under this thread and i will respond(or at least try to). We will not have each other at the end of the day.
Thank you brocels for reading, or for not
- dstivvy
I have lost 10kg. Some of my old trousers no longer fit me, not even with a belt. “dstivvy, oh you should be happy and shiieeeet you should be proud and shiieeeet you made progress”. My mother was worried for the longest time that my teachers or classmates would pick up on it and question me. The most I ever received was a joking jester on the stomach, as a joke to spite me, as my classmates love to do to me, and he noticed I lost a little weight, asked me about it, and once I gave him a simple answer never talked to me about it again. People just don’t care man. It is just so brutal to realise that you would need to literally make huge differences that are indisputably evident like losing 10kg, for it to only give you one interaction(mind you it wasn’t a female I was talking about). My motivation has always been paper thin, and I always feel like I’m walking backwards, no matter how much more I learn, or no matter how much more people educate me. So what even is the point of this thread. It’s not actually my usual complaining thread. I am trying so hard, as a man with one of the worst bases in the forum, living in a single parent household, I am prepared to make my life better. Everything that I have done up until this point has been inadequate. So I will strive to be better. Even if the whole thing turns out to be pointless, it doesn’t matter because at least I gave it a shot, instead of cowering back into my little cave. I am a man, not a bitch who can go whine and complain about things when it doesn’t go their way. The brutal reality about this life is that nobody is inclined to care about you. You have to give them a reason to. Or else you might as well continue to rot. I am still young, still young enough to not throw in the towel yet. I will not give in to porn again. I will not give in to the calling of the devil. This is simply because I cannot. I must become neurotypical. For me, looksmaxxing has never been about some sort of female validation, but acceptance to society.
Let me clear this account up
• I harbour no hatred in my heart towards homosexuals/homosexuality, they are just doing what they do on impulse, it’s not their fault.(I am straight male though don’t get it twisted)
• I harbour no hatred towards females, it’s not their fault for abusing the hypergamy or anything, and deep down you know this is true because you helped create that hypergamy. Whether it was because you were beating it to some kinky porn, or giving that 3/10 a little too much confidence, I am highly confident that you contributed to it
• I harbour no hatred towards my own race/any race at all. Yes, this includes every race. African, Asian, Caucasian and other ethnicities. Every race has a chad. We are all united in some ways more than we are disconnected. I am recovering(or trying to)from the feeling of self-hatred. If you are a self-hater, please re-consider things. It is not worth it to hate yourself over something you can’t control, you just have to mirror the reality that you would like to create. I want a world where all mankind are connected and equal. That is what I truly want, a childish desire, but a desire lots of us wanted a long time ago.
I have always felt neurodivergent since the day I realised my mannerisms were not normal, but I as far as I know, was never diagnosed with something serious. So I will no longer blame it on neurodivergence or any external factor. I will no longer spend hours stressing about my ugly looks. I will improve myself. Just look at my eyes and tell me:
What can I improve?
” improving is more than just trying to get better habits. And I realise that now. I know that I do not have the privilege of having a good base like a lot of you, and my African parents did not give me an eating habit worth praising them for. Infact, they seem to think eating lots of food=healthy. I thought that reducing my eye lines would be so simple, as easy as walking or even breathing. It’s been a month and it has only gotten worse. The truth is that you are nothing without a goal, a way of getting there, and a good reason why to. I had only one of these, which i couldn’t even motivate myself to, because of how much of a pussy I am jfl. I have no goal, and I don’t know how to do half the things I need to in order to reach my goal. Not only do I need to fix that, but I need to fix my feminine ahh eyebrows. “Oh just keep improooooving bro you will see results” No improving for retards. So do I need to educate myself better? Yes. I do indeed. Alright. Now. What do I do once I have better eyes. The first thing I said in this thread is that ”I still can’t feel the difference” and the same applies to my eye area. Sure it may look better, look more entrancing but I am a quiet kid in my school, in my own home and pretty much every where I go. Unless Iook like the perfect human it may as well not be enough. So what do I do? I have been looking for something that will occupy me, a skill that I am actually good at, with minor success. I am still looking but I fear I may have no natural talents. Due to my iq, my bad reading skills despite the fact I was a book-worm when I was younger, I can only imagine one reason for this. I am low iq. So i need to increase my iq, increase my looks, get a more sociable personality, and some good motivation. There is no sympathy for people who get left behind in this world. People will mock you for having weak will, for not being resilient, for not being strong, when others around you are doing all of those things with no difficulty(even though their genetics allow them to do so easier than you).You have to understand that nobody here is chad. People here have had easier lives than others sure, but nobody here is chad. That is because chads are isolated from the grounds of this world. Not just chads, but anyone who wins the genetic lottery. Not just someone who looks good, but someone who can rise above the rest. Those people are the people I desire to join one day. You are short sighted if you believe in only lookism. Lookism is only one part of the genetic lottery. Talents, knowledge, strength, and every other attribute adds towards whether you won the genetic contest or not. If you have nothing of substance, it’s over. If you look like a chad but you are unintelligent i WILL laugh in your face. You will never experience life on the flip side if you don’t get that life from day 1.Stop using looks to try and justify your bad genetics. Looks are nothing but makeup at the end of the day. It will eventually fade away, and I’d rather live 10 years as a genius than 100 as a chad, who will fade away with his looks. I am not blue or red pilled by any chance, i just no longer care so much about superficial things. Although i am forced to care about it because others are wrongfully judging me upon those who things. I would prefer it if i had the genetics to be better without trying to hard, but i clearly don’t.
Lmao as you can see i clearly drifted away from the original format of this vent post. It’s because i want to talk straight from the heart, so i could bond with the people reading this the best i could. Honesty does speak volumes in my opinion. I’m not even trying to get sympathy from anyone, so don’t feel forced to say “my condolences bro
” if it ain’t coming from the heart. I uhh, I hope that this thread gave you some enlightenment on things, it probably didn’t tbh. If you want to vent feel free to under this thread and i will respond(or at least try to). We will not have each other at the end of the day. Thank you brocels for reading, or for not
- dstivvy
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