houstatlantavegas
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idk why but like for 6 years I've had acne, and it sucks because I literally go above and beyond, I dont drink or smoke anymore, I use silk pillowcase and chagne it 2 times a week, I dont cook with seed oils, I dont eat processed sugar or processed foods, I have a good enough skincare routine with azelic acid and niacinimide,, I have no clue why I even have this problem. It's always been this huge issue that is a main insecurity of mine, everytime I go out I always think everyone is judging and laughing at my face, growing up my friends have teased me about it, but overtime I thin they just feel bad now because I've had it for so long, some of them genuinely just dont even make fun of me and start trying to give me advice, but it annoys me when someone does that. What else do I possibly need to do for clear skin? I remmeber when I first got azelic acid, my skin was clear for a week, and I was happy as shit going out and feeling confident, and then boom! I broke out again.
lThis happens so often, my skin is clear --> confidence rises --> 4 days later I breakout again and then insecurity starts again.
I just hate the fact that given my lifestyle and what I do, if you give it to the average person they'd be the sexiest mf ever with the clearest skin best hair muscle gains and then I have shitty skin despite checking off all the boxes. Is this fate? Like is this just how natural selection occurs? I even think spiritualy, I'm not a bad person I dont harm other people, I'm nice to everyone, so I question everyday: "why do I deserve this?".
I've went through entire high school without experiencing love because of my insecurity, I've never approached a girl or had a girl approach me ever and I always have this fear that I might actually die alone. I'm not even asking for girls, I just want to be able to walk anywhere without worrying if someone is judging me based on my skin and I just want to go out and feel confident. I see people in my school get acne for a couple months and then it clears up, despite that I still see them eating junk food and processed sugars while I avoid those and still have acne, what else do I possibly need to do for clear skin? I sometimes question why I'm even trying anymore, like why do I even try to eat healthy and do a good skincare routine and switch up my silk pillow cases if I'm still going to get acne, this is the type of stuff models do to have their skin looking above and beyond, but then you got me who does all this just to still have acne. I can't even focus on my other goals because of my skin struggles.
lThis happens so often, my skin is clear --> confidence rises --> 4 days later I breakout again and then insecurity starts again.
I just hate the fact that given my lifestyle and what I do, if you give it to the average person they'd be the sexiest mf ever with the clearest skin best hair muscle gains and then I have shitty skin despite checking off all the boxes. Is this fate? Like is this just how natural selection occurs? I even think spiritualy, I'm not a bad person I dont harm other people, I'm nice to everyone, so I question everyday: "why do I deserve this?".
I've went through entire high school without experiencing love because of my insecurity, I've never approached a girl or had a girl approach me ever and I always have this fear that I might actually die alone. I'm not even asking for girls, I just want to be able to walk anywhere without worrying if someone is judging me based on my skin and I just want to go out and feel confident. I see people in my school get acne for a couple months and then it clears up, despite that I still see them eating junk food and processed sugars while I avoid those and still have acne, what else do I possibly need to do for clear skin? I sometimes question why I'm even trying anymore, like why do I even try to eat healthy and do a good skincare routine and switch up my silk pillow cases if I'm still going to get acne, this is the type of stuff models do to have their skin looking above and beyond, but then you got me who does all this just to still have acne. I can't even focus on my other goals because of my skin struggles.
