ranierean
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He died before I had a chance to reconnect with him, I don't even have a good idea of how he looked or what his voice was like.
Me being sad over this is stupid because it's pretty obvious that he didn't care; he should've been the one agonizing over not getting to see me, not the other way around, duh.
Same goes for his side of my family and people in my life in general – I can't imagine him being all that different – I don't exist and no one wants to know me, so why bother?
Still, it's the countless “ifs” that pain me, maybe things could've gone differently? I was robbed of that chance too early, I don't get to know for sure and that makes me mad.
Me being sad over this is stupid because it's pretty obvious that he didn't care; he should've been the one agonizing over not getting to see me, not the other way around, duh.
Same goes for his side of my family and people in my life in general – I can't imagine him being all that different – I don't exist and no one wants to know me, so why bother?
Still, it's the countless “ifs” that pain me, maybe things could've gone differently? I was robbed of that chance too early, I don't get to know for sure and that makes me mad.