
YoSjay
Iron
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- Mar 13, 2025
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I’m so fucking chopped I’m js here to vent lately everyday the only thing on my mind is how bad I wanna rope in stuck in Ltn hell and I have 0 confidence or social skills my only friends are online I have extreme social anxiety I fucking hate my self so fucking much I don’t know why to do anymore I actually wanna die I don’t think that I can keep going anymore I can’t even have 1 conversation irl anymore with the amount of anxiety I have I’ve been bpd my whole life I’ve always been ugly and looked down upon my whole life I would be blamed and used by others just because I’m ugly different my elementary years and middle school years were the worst I would always overhear negative things said about me called weird ugly and fat now that I’ve lost weight people just see me as some freak who doesn’t speak to anyone the only light I have is coming home to my baby brother he is the only reason I haven’t roped and having a crush on someone makes it worse because I know deep down I will never find true love or be loved I just wanna feel wanted in the world but that feels like it’s too much to ask for atp I feel like if I were to rope the only people who would even remember me is my family I genuinely have no actually friends I’ve never told anyone any of this and everyday bp just makes it worse I constantly think about my looks and all of the things that ruin my face my birthday was 2 days ago and the only thing on my mind was how shit my under eye support is I genuinely don’t think I can ascend chads have it easy they don’t have a care about anything all they have to do is live and they get affection and validation just from breathing I’ve been single my entire life and I don’t know what to do anymore is there even someone out there for me there is no amount of jester maxing I can do that will save me or my blood line I am a waste of height too I’m over 6ft and un athletic I genuinely have no purpose in this fucking world I just wanna be saved once I get my money up and graduate hs imma js do every single plastic surgery that will help me ascend I can’t keep living like this