This life is so empty

[Mongrelcel]

Was searching for music, and came across this music video:



It's just random shots of a friend group on a vacation.
But god damn if it isn't some potent suicide fuel. It essentially is everything that I've always wanted, but was never able to get.

A whole group of people that value you, and want to spend time with you.
Carefree time doing fun things with your friends in a foreign country.
Experiences that you will remember for the rest of your life.

Imagine looking at a tape like this when you're 50 and reminiscing. About people that are long gone, girls, summer evenings just shooting the shit with the boys next to the sea, thrills of exploring a new country...

I'd like to keep going, but I can't - I literally cannot imagine what it's like. I don't know what kids of experiences you have on a trip like that. I just don't.
The short clips in the video are just an infinitely small glimpse into that kind of a life. A life that's actually worth living.

Unlike the empty existence we lead. Staring at a screen since childhood, throughout teens, and into out adult life. It's like living life on fast forward. You don't remember anything - why would you? Every day is just like the one before. To you, life is like a badly made, videogame with too little content - there really isn't anything out there. Just trying to get through another day, trying to keep coping, and trying to not let the cognitive dissonance of knowing what other people have to explode your head.

It must be insane to naturally have friends & live a life like that. To be liked and accepted for who you really are. Without having to gym for years, autistically trying to practice social interactions, without having to get surgery...
Just going through the motions of life and having it. It must be so beautiful to have this spontaneously happen to you.

To be worthy of these experiences. Isn't that what makes you human? The life you lead?

And then there's us. Locked out from the real world, like behind a thick glass. We can only watch the lives actual humans lead, through small windows like this video.

 

[Mongrelcel]

The idea of having a friendgroup is so alien to me. That such a large number of people would find you cool enough, interesting, pleasant to be around. That they would actually value you, and not think you're trash.

I can't help but think that there is just something inherent about me. That I was never supposed to have this, and never will.
The best parts that life has to offer.

 

[Deleted member 14323]

Br0 I was just drinking my cup of tea, you had to throw some deep shit at me huh?.!”’)

 

[Mongrelcel]

@AsGoodAsItGets @Vermilioncore @Amnesia @oatmeal @Edgar @lilhorizontal32

 

[n0rthface]

 

[Mongrelcel]

classic

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

Sad shit bro

 

[Deleted member 6573]

Think about it this way. There is more porn being created every minute then you have time to enjoy. Do you feel better now?

 

[Deleted member 4430]

The idea of having a friendgroup is so alien to me. That such a large number of people would find you cool enough, interesting, pleasant to be around. That they would actually value you, and not think you're trash.

the problem is that these people give you this feeling in return for something you have or you can give them (looks, status, validation, some of your ability) once you dont have it or they dont need it, you are for them as if you did not exist.

 

[ChristianChad]

Just get friends

 

[Mongrelcel]

the problem is that these people give you this feeling in return for something you have or you can give them (looks, status, validation, some of your ability) once you dont have it or they dont need it, you are for them as if you did not exist.

It's true.

Normal people never realize this, because they inherently have qualities like looks, or social skills. They develop it without any active intervention, without needing to consciously think about it.

But we, as subhumans, don't have this. If we want it, we need to actively develop it. And therefore we are keenly aware that if we were to lose it, we would be thrown away just like before

 

[subhuman incel]

dn read but i agree with everything you said

 

[metagross]

I can really relate to this.
I will never really have this either. Maybe it's just not meant to be for some of us autists.

 

[Bitch]

Your*

 

[Edgar]

Bro just wait 3 years when I come to Germany I will visit and hang out with you promise or earlier if I visit Czechia

 

[TsarTsar444]

Brutal how can we cope now?

 

[AlexAP]

This motivated me hard to use the next years to get a large friends group and travel the world for at least 5 years. London, Paris, Rome, Madrid, New York, LA, Rio, Mexico City, New Delhi, Dubai, Tokyo, Sydney, we will go everywhere and film it. Unforgettable memories for when I'm 80 and look back at my life.

You can join if you want.

 

[Mongrelcel]

Bro just wait 3 years when I come to Germany I will visit and hang out with you promise or earlier if I visit Czechia

we'll go on hair saloon grade meth fueled rampage across the europe

Brutal how can we cope now?

inject datura every day
keep yourself in a delirious state 24/7

This motivated me hard to use the next years to get a large friends group and travel the world for at least 5 years. London, Paris, Rome, Madrid, New York, LA, Rio, Mexico City, New Delhi, Dubai, Tokyo, Sydney, we will go everywhere and film it. Unforgettable memories for when I'm 80 and look back at my life.

You can join if you want.

I'm unironically going to do the same
I have literally 0 reason to stay where I am - only thing that's holding me from traveling where I want is the need to make cash for surgeries
saving up for plastic sugery while working low tier jobs traveling is not possible
also I need to learn the language, without speaking the language you won't be able to make any social contacts

 

[TsarTsar444]

we'll go on hair saloon grade meth fueled rampage across the europe


inject datura every day
keep yourself in a delirious state 24/7

I'm unironically going to do the same
I have literally 0 reason to stay where I am - only thing that's holding me from traveling where I want is the need to make cash for surgeries
saving up for plastic sugery while working low tier jobs traveling is not possible
also I need to learn the language, without speaking the language you won't be able to make any social contacts

Nah, just do heroin tbh, best pain killer for mental stuff

 

[AlexAP]

I'm unironically going to do the same
I have literally 0 reason to stay where I am - only thing that's holding me from traveling where I want is the need to make cash for surgeries
saving up for plastic sugery while working low tier jobs traveling is not possible
also I need to learn the language, without speaking the language you won't be able to make any social contacts

I want to make friends and travel with them, not making friends while traveling (this could happen too, but I want to start the trip with friends). They only need to speak English, so we can understand each other.

Traveling in Europe is actually not that expensive, so it would be possible for me. I want to do some other stuff first, but I hope I can make a world trip in 1-2 years.

 

[Mongrelcel]

Nah, just do heroin tbh, best pain killer for mental stuff

I'm going to chain-smoke DMT until I reach a higher level of consciousness

Then I will astral project into Macedonia and harras you because I'm jealous of your genetically low amphetamine tolerance

 

[TsarTsar444]

I'm going to chain-smoke DMT until I reach a higher level of consciousness

Then I will astral project into Macedonia and harras you because I'm jealous of your genetically low amphetamine tolerance

Never expected to hear something like this in my life. Existence is strange.

But thats why im cursed with shit phenidate tolerance

 

[Mongrelcel]

I want to start the trip with friends

why, traveling with friends will cut your freedom a lot
you will need to make a lot of compromises
also going on such a huge trip with a bunch of people you've just met could be quite awkward

I want to do some other stuff first

some hapa children?

I hope I can make a world trip in 1-2 years

just in time for my and @Edgar's "travels"

 

[Gengar]

Think about it this way. There is more porn being created every minute then you have time to enjoy. Do you feel better now?

this is the only reason i am still alive

 

[Deleted member 5180]

I feel the same way as you , but just because you are in a situation doesn’t mean it has to be like that the rest of your life

 

[Mongrelcel]

I feel the same way as you , but just because you are in a situation doesn’t mean it has to be like that the rest of your life

Location

 

[ifyouwannabemylover]

This motivated me hard to use the next years to get a large friends group and travel the world for at least 5 years. London, Paris, Rome, Madrid, New York, LA, Rio, Mexico City, New Delhi, Dubai, Tokyo, Sydney, we will go everywhere and film it. Unforgettable memories for when I'm 80 and look back at my life.

You can join if you want.

hmu once you get something going. I don't really have a clue what I'm gonna do after I'm fully ascended. and I'll be pretty much broke after it too tbh. crazy reality some of us live in.

what's the other stuff you gotta do first?

 

[Deleted member 14077]

bitch boy

 

[Deleted member 14077]

op rn

 

[AlexAP]

why, traveling with friends will cut your freedom a lot
you will need to make a lot of compromises
also going on such a huge trip with a bunch of people you've just met could be quite awkward

I don't mean like 15-20 people, but 4-5 or so would be cool. And if I already know some of them online, it will be like we already knew each other.

some hapa children?

I'm 99% sure I won't do this, so no.

I want to be fully looksmaxed when I do the trip, that will include a HT in Turkey and continue my gymmaxxing and start anti-agemaxxing, maybe also contacts.

just in time for my and @Edgar's "travels"

I hope so.

 

[AlexAP]

hmu once you get something going.

Ok.

what's the other stuff you gotta do first?

I want to make some money, get more social experience (NTmaxxing) and finish my looksmaxing plans.

 

[ifyouwannabemylover]

Ok.

I want to make some money, get more social experience (NTmaxxing) and finish my looksmaxing plans.

same here pretty much

gl brah

 

[Deleted member 275]

Just get friends bro, just get a girlfriend bro, just NTmaxx bro

 

[Lars]

Soon we all go clubbing in utrecht i promised that bro

 

[Deleted member 8244]

The idea of having a friendgroup is so alien to me. That such a large number of people would find you cool enough, interesting, pleasant to be around. That they would actually value you, and not think you're trash.

I can't help but think that there is just something inherent about me. That I was never supposed to have this, and never will.
The best parts that life has to offer.

I promise you you can have a friend group

 

[Need2Ascend]

No all of this for boneless manlets

Such a careless fun lifestyle is literally what I looksmax for

 

[Deleted member 5786]

depressed post for subnormies

 

[Lars]

But you are legit a nice guy atleast to me so i would be friends with you

 

[Deleted member 13332]

when this covid shit will end....

 

[Deleted member 4430]

But you are legit a nice guy atleast to me so i would be friends with you

brutal gaslighting and virtual signaling

 

[Lars]

brutal gaslighting and virtual signaling

No legit talked to him on discord

 

[Mongrelcel]

No legit talked to him on discord

 

[Lars]

jk

 

[Deleted member 15313]

you dont have to be jealous, friends are not a thing that comes very often, everyone wants something from you as long as they have a benefit of it, so you dont need to force your freedom to any1

 

[Deleted member 8244]

Access to this good of a life is chad and female only

 

[Mongrelcel]

Access to this good of a life is chad and female only View attachment 1331858

ngl all the men in the video are rather good looking

 

[Deleted member 8244]

ngl all the men in the video are rather good looking

Yeah it’s brootal, Chad and female only. This is also what Hollywood has portrayed forever so it makes sense

 

[coke]

The idea of having a friendgroup is so alien to me. That such a large number of people would find you cool enough, interesting, pleasant to be around. That they would actually value you, and not think you're trash.

I can't help but think that there is just something inherent about me. That I was never supposed to have this, and never will.
The best parts that life has to offer.

Man I wish you lived here in Scotland so I could take you out camping, skateboarding or snowboarding. This actually was sad to read. You responded to my thread on another post and I wondered what mindset you must be in to hyperfixate on such little things and to believe such nonsense, and this is it.

People really don't understand the mentally ill people they are affecting on this forum and those who are lonely/suffering. If you think this looks enjoyable, you were meant to have this. Nothing inherent about you, you've just maybe been dealt a bad social pack or bad living conditions. If you have hobbies, please pursue them. You'll meet people.

 

[Mongrelcel]

Man I wish you lived here in Scotland so I could take you out camping, skateboarding or snowboarding.

if you did, you'd find out that I'm awkward and boring
I'm 22 now, the development of my personality is finished, and I did not develop into someone who is charismatic or witty or funny
which is why I fixate on looks, because I hope they can compensate for my shit personality

If you think this looks enjoyable, you were meant to have this

lol
what kind of logic is that
if you want it, you deserve it?
that's not how this world works

Nothing inherent about you

there must have been something inherent about me when I became the loser of the class when I was a kid

If you have hobbies, please pursue them. You'll meet people

I don't really have hobbies, and even if I did pursue them, they are antisocial in nature
and even if I did meet people, I would fail to create any friendships or relationships
that ship has sailed, I'm not able to make friends anymore

 

[Adonis]

Suicide fuel