You can't afford to lose, it will shape your psychology for the rest of your life if you don't maxx in your youth.

[Danish_Retard]

Saw this video from a STEMcel, (great video btw)

Spoiler: video

When you lose your brain literally makes you act like a cuck, so if you have had a shitty childhood you NEED to win in your early adulthood to not have it shape the rest of your life.

Otherwise, you'll end up a KHHV McDonalds wagie that kills himself at 30

This is why steroids are based, despite the health risks, the health risks of your physiology thinking you're a loser are much worse than dying a year or two earlier.

And anything that influences neuroplasticity like psychedelics, also massively based, you need to rewire your brain.

I'm trying to get Buproprion (Wellbutrin) from my doctor to and I'm trying to convince a psychiatrist I have ADHD so I can get DNRI's/Stimulants.

I'll start SNRI's to see if I notice any benefits,

You should use everything to modulate your brain out of the hole it's dug itself into. Stimulants and psychedelics are particularly suited to this, psychedelics to rewire, stimulants to get the courage/motivation to make change.

MMA is probably a good thing to start too, despite the fact that you'll lose a lot in the start you should notice yourself getting stronger and stronger, and the average MMA club is filled with genetic rejects, the last club I trained at the average man was a 175cm curry.

 

[Danish_Retard]

This argument can also be used in support of GEOmaxxing, since winning (even if the environment is easier) is still winning and will shape your psychology.

It's probably also why ugly guys have such beta and simp personalities.

tags:
@MoggerGaston @TUSSELEIF @apocalypse @Preston @Witheredly90 @Ai Impact

 

[Deleted member 23115]

start by changing your avi

 

[Danish_Retard]

start by changing your avi

Too iconic, in the 3+ years I've used this site I've never changed it

 

[MoggerGaston]

Psychedelic drugs increase neuroplasticity of the brain, indeed perfect for trying to rewire it from past negative experiences.
Then need to combine it with stims like cocaine to make you feel like a winner, while your brain is being rewired.


Still tough as fuck to do though. Haven't had any success with it yet.
Being a loser in my childhood is fucking hard-coded in my brain now, it's so brutal.

 

[Deleted member 14693]

The fate of looksmaxxers son that have to do 10 different sports despite being a genetic dead end cause some retard on a autistic forum claimed it raises testosterone and HGH, by 0.5%

 

[AspiringMogger]

Biggest blackpill is compound pill. Most users here are abused dogs because of prior experiences; whether that’s poverty, social exclusion, being obese and later losing weight.

The masc pill and striving to out compete other men is something most users here lack cause we’ve become docile due to prior experiences as mentioned previously. Become a winner. Become Chad.

 

[Deleted member 21863]

Too iconic, in the 3+ years I've used this site I've never changed it

danish retard: light triad mode

 

[Dystopian]

You are either born a winner o not

 

[Deleted member 28962]

This is actually interesting asf, I kind of have a loser mentality at 15 (turning 16 soon) in what setting do you recommend I take acid in?

 

[Deleted member 21863]

What winning are we talking about in specific

just taking a bunch of drugs feeling high and crashing isn't gonna do shit or be sustainable and you're not going to achieve much short term

 

[Deleted member 21863]

Too iconic, in the 3+ years I've used this site I've never changed it

try this

 

[apocalypse]

my parents ruined my life

 

[apocalypse]

Good luck being a winner when you get abused at school then come home and get abused by parents and then cry yourself to sleep

 

[Deleted member 16501]

Failure does damage to your mind that is hard to turn around

I am turning around my decade long failure now. Have to take Weed gummies every night

 

[MoggerGaston]

Biggest blackpill is compound pill. Most users here are abused dogs because of prior experiences; whether that’s poverty, social exclusion, being obese and later losing weight.

The masc pill and striving to out compete other men is something most users here lack cause we’ve become docile due to prior experiences as mentioned previously. Become a winner. Become Chad.

And there was nothing you could've done to prevent that.

Most of us are already abused dogs by the time we are 16yo and finally start gaining real self-agency. Before that we were mostly slaves to our environment (and our genes of course).

Like being obese as a kid. Literally can't fucking prevent it when you have retarded parents. Nor did healthy-weight kids do anything to gain that privilege beyond being lucky to be born in a decent parents environment.

I went from subhuman to normie-looking, but my brain fails to adapt to this new situation and the possibilities for life quality that it gives.


I have recently started doing weekly magic mushrooms sessions and I feel it's helping. But it's a very slow proces and might not end up getting the results that I want.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Psychedelic drugs increase neuroplasticity of the brain, indeed perfect for trying to rewire it from past negative experiences.
Then need to combine it with stims like cocaine to make you feel like a winner, while your brain is being rewired.


Still tough as fuck to do though. Haven't had any success with it yet.
Being a loser in my childhood is fucking hard-coded in my brain now, it's so brutal.

Yeah, it probably gets harder to change the longer you've lived with this mentality enforced on you by your physiology.

Tho, I will also comment that you've made it your mission to get revenge on, or take as much for as little as possible from society, which are goals that are very hard to win.

Perhaps if you still have an interest in physics you should dedicate a larger amount of time to it, since you have the genetic base to excel.

The fate of looksmaxxers son that have to do 10 different sports despite being a genetic dead end cause some retard on a autistic forum claimed it raises testosterone and HGH, by 0.5%

I'll literally just inject HGH and test with my progeny, fuck all the pussy shit.

try this

View attachment 2471211

Actually looks decent lol

This is actually interesting asf, I kind of have a loser mentality at 15 (turning 16 soon) in what setting do you recommend I take acid in?

I'd recommend mushrooms first, they're much more studied. If you don't have access to a therapist or wise friend to do it with do it alone.

It's important you do it blindfolded, many studies show this, as it helps introspection instead of getting caught up in visuals.
Tho other psychedelics have shown therapeutic effects too, (not MDMA when done alone tho)

Good luck being a winner when you get abused at school then come home and get abused by parents and then cry yourself to sleep

Yeah bro, I know the feeling. I had a shitty childhood too, but that's why we gotta change it now, and why we need to rely on external methods to overcome this.

 

[Itsmelurking505]

Saw this video from a STEMcel, (great video btw)

Spoiler: video

When you lose your brain literally makes you act like a cuck, so if you have had a shitty childhood you NEED to win in your early adulthood to not have it shape the rest of your life.

Otherwise, you'll end up a KHHV McDonalds wagie that kills himself at 30
View attachment 2471126

This is why steroids are based, despite the health risks, the health risks of your physiology thinking you're a loser are much worse than dying a year or two earlier.

And anything that influences neuroplasticity like psychedelics, also massively based, you need to rewire your brain.

I'm trying to get Buproprion (Wellbutrin) from my doctor to and I'm trying to convince a psychiatrist I have ADHD so I can get DNRI's/Stimulants.

I'll start SNRI's to see if I notice any benefits,

You should use everything to modulate your brain out of the hole it's dug itself into. Stimulants and psychedelics are particularly suited to this, psychedelics to rewire, stimulants to get the courage/motivation to make change.

MMA is probably a good thing to start too, despite the fact that you'll lose a lot in the start you should notice yourself getting stronger and stronger, and the average MMA club is filled with genetic rejects, the last club I trained at the average man was a 175cm curry.

Well I just finished work today so I'm on a better path Its living with a mentally abusive mum having to come back to hers pay her rent it makes me want to say well fuck you I'm not going do anything I'm just going to play skyrim an watch porn everyday but yea im enjoying the new job

 

[Danish_Retard]

What winning are we talking about in specific

just taking a bunch of drugs feeling high and crashing isn't gonna do shit or be sustainable and you're not going to achieve much short term

Whatever you perceive as winning, the mind is quite smart/stupid. Take the example of the rats in the tube trying to push each other out, losing once should have no effect on the next results, yet it does. Winning, even with help made a difference.

Yet I know from other things I've read on neuroscience that it's really hard to trick the mind. Like you can't give yourself a placebo effect unless you actually believe.

I'd wager a lot on you having to actually believe that you've won, whether it be in intellectual, physical, dominance hierarchy or any other number of areas, but at the same time the mind isn't smart enough to distinguish between winning at fucking 155cm SEA goblins vs succeeding in your homeland, it's all just success to the mind I'd wager, it's clearly some extremely old systems in the brain, perhaops not that related to our newer social and reasoning systems.

 

[Deleted member 20370]

too late

 

[NewOneXY]

danish_retard i remember you back from 2020.

you are still here man ?

 

[AspiringMogger]

And there was nothing you could've done to prevent that.

Most of us are already abused dogs by the time we are 16yo and finally start gaining real self-agency. Before that we were mostly slaves to our environment (and our genes of course).

Like being obese as a kid. Literally can't fucking prevent it when you have retarded parents. Nor did healthy-weight kids do anything to gain that privilege beyond being lucky to be born in a decent parents environment.

I went from subhuman to normie-looking, but my brain fails to adapt to this new situation and the possibilities for life quality that it gives.


I have recently started doing weekly magic mushrooms sessions and I feel it's helping. But it's a very slow proces and might not end up getting the results that I want.

I wonder how much different life would’ve been if my parents weren’t poor. Reason I got obese as a youth was simply cause I had a single mom who was an immigrant here, working long hours and it was easier and cheaper to cook unhealthy food. It all coincided with me finding this shithole and getting my negative views reenforced. Brutal stuff.

Realistically I think most users here, even if incel, would be better off never finding this forum. I remember when I was sexless I wasn’t as miserable about not getting pussy as I am, while writing this post legit on the bus omw to a date. It’s truly over.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Biggest blackpill is compound pill. Most users here are abused dogs because of prior experiences; whether that’s poverty, social exclusion, being obese and later losing weight.

The masc pill and striving to out compete other men is something most users here lack cause we’ve become docile due to prior experiences as mentioned previously. Become a winner. Become Chad.

And there was nothing you could've done to prevent that.

Most of us are already abused dogs by the time we are 16yo and finally start gaining real self-agency. Before that we were mostly slaves to our environment (and our genes of course).

Like being obese as a kid. Literally can't fucking prevent it when you have retarded parents. Nor did healthy-weight kids do anything to gain that privilege beyond being lucky to be born in a decent parents environment.

I went from subhuman to normie-looking, but my brain fails to adapt to this new situation and the possibilities for life quality that it gives.


I have recently started doing weekly magic mushrooms sessions and I feel it's helping. But it's a very slow proces and might not end up getting the results that I want.

I grew up
Obese:
Autistic:
Poor:
Recessed:
Single feminist mother:

3 death sentences if I say so myself.

Your conclusion is correct @AspiringMogger , I think having taken on the role of a loser is what holds many back here, even if it would've been evolutionarily beneficient 10.000 years ago it's maladaptive, which is why we need change it with external compounds and modulate our environment if possible.

Personally, It's only very recently that I've begun getting proper angry if someone makes me feel inferior, where I've felt a strong drive to outcompete them.

And yeah, it's brutal, it's impossible to change, impossible to prevent. I too went from subhuman to normie looking, and my brain has never recovered either @MoggerGaston , but I did 10g shrooms and I felt better for some months. I need to do more.

But, even if you overcome your physiology, you still have the pain, sorrow and hate ending in resentment towards everyone who wronged you when you had no way to defend yourself. I have no solutions for this, journaling helps a bit...

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yeah, it probably gets harder to change the longer you've lived with this mentality enforced on you by your physiology.

Tho, I will also comment that you've made it your mission to get revenge on, or take as much for as little as possible from society, which are goals that are very hard to win.

Perhaps if you still have an interest in physics you should dedicate a larger amount of time to it, since you have the genetic base to excel.

Definitely gets harder the older you become. And yeah I understand my mindset isn't helping, but the origin of that mindset is my abused dog brain. The hormones, the thought patterns that lead to that mindset originate from my abused brain.

I know because I don't have it anymore when I chemically alter my brain's chemical structure with drugs. But then it goes back to normal and the thought patterns return.

I'd recommend mushrooms first, they're much more studied. If you don't have access to a therapist or wise friend to do it with do it alone.

It's important you do it blindfolded, many studies show this, as it helps introspection instead of getting caught up in visuals.
Tho other psychedelics have shown therapeutic effects too, (not MDMA when done alone tho)

Also recommend mushrooms over acid.
I've done mushrooms twice now. Once in a social/party environment. Once at home alone with music, not blind-folded.

The first felt entirely useless for mental-maxxing, can't recommend.

The second was amazing, it felt like I was visited by an angel and had all my traumas laid out in front of me, feeling pure love and acceptance for my past, wanting to create a better life for myself.

For me, doing MDMA alone also has a therapeutic effect. But again, in social/active environments I find that most drugs lose their therapeutic effects as you become too distracted by what happens around you.

 

[AspiringMogger]

I grew up
Obese:
Autistic:
Poor:
Recessed:
Single feminist mother:

3 death sentences if I say so myself.

Your conclusion is correct @AspiringMogger , I think having taken on the role of a loser is what holds many back here, even if it would've been evolutionarily beneficient 10.000 years ago it's maladaptive, which is why we need change it with external compounds and modulate our environment if possible.

Personally, It's only very recently that I've begun getting proper angry if someone makes me feel inferior, where I've felt a strong drive to outcompete them.

And yeah, it's brutal, it's impossible to change, impossible to prevent. I too went from subhuman to normie looking, and my brain has never recovered either @MoggerGaston , but I did 10g shrooms and I felt better for some months. I need to do more.

But, even if you overcome your physiology, you still have the pain, sorrow and hate ending in resentment towards everyone who wronged you when you had no way to defend yourself. I have no solutions for this, journaling helps a bit...

Heavy on the point about getting visibly angry and letting people know of your dissatisfaction, prior to the last two recent years I was somewhat of a people pleaser and confrontation-avoidant. Not in a cucked way but I wasn’t escalating on my terms I was being passive. I think a lot of forum users grew up that way as well.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Whatever you perceive as winning, the mind is quite smart/stupid. Take the example of the rats in the tube trying to push each other out, losing once should have no effect on the next results, yet it does. Winning, even with help made a difference.

Yet I know from other things I've read on neuroscience that it's really hard to trick the mind. Like you can't give yourself a placebo effect unless you actually believe.

I'd wager a lot on you having to actually believe that you've won, whether it be in intellectual, physical, dominance hierarchy or any other number of areas, but at the same time the mind isn't smart enough to distinguish between winning at fucking 155cm SEA goblins vs succeeding in your homeland, it's all just success to the mind I'd wager, it's clearly some extremely old systems in the brain, perhaops not that related to our newer social and reasoning systems.

Literally an important part of what makes the blackpill cancer for your mind honestly.

It increases expectations and makes what is considered 'winning' more external as opposed to just comparing it your own living experiences. Which is only good if that external expectation is easier to achieve, but often it isn't.

For example: When I lost my KHHV status at 23yo to that stacylite girl that I dated for a couple of months. I had expected it to make a MASSIVE impact on my psyche, confidence, and so on. I expected to feel like a winner, finally. And get rid of some of the loser mindset from my past.
But often all I felt was how 'behind' I still was for only experienced this stuff now at 23yo. And how insecure I felt knowing how much this 19yo girl mogged my social/romantic experiences.
I felt like an absolute fraud, an imposter; unable to appreciate my present situation, constantly fearing that I would go back to being the loser 'that I truly was'.

The human brain can be so fucking brutal.

 

[horizontallytall]

The fate of looksmaxxers son that have to do 10 different sports despite being a genetic dead end cause some retard on a autistic forum claimed it raises testosterone and HGH, by 0.5%

Bullshit. I gained hell lotta msucles by just doing extreme sprints and pullups ,pushups

 

[Danish_Retard]

too late

The point of the post is that it isn't too late. And more importantly, you're permitted to take drastic measures to change this, perhaps even NEED to.

danish_retard i remember you back from 2020.

you are still here man ?

Yeah bro, had some really brutal years. Dropped out of school in suicidal depression and extreme anxiety, spent the last 2 years fixing it and getting back to baseline. What was your old @?

I wonder how much different life would’ve been if my parents weren’t poor. Reason I got obese as a youth was simply cause I had a single mom who was an immigrant here, working long hours and it was easier and cheaper to cook unhealthy food. It all coincided with me finding this shithole and getting my negative views reenforced. Brutal stuff.

Realistically I think most users here, even if incel, would be better off never finding this forum. I remember when I was sexless I wasn’t as miserable about not getting pussy as I am, while writing this post legit on the bus omw to a date. It’s truly over.

Contrafactual thinking can be very dangerous, you end up focusing on the past instead of the future. It's perhaps one of the only areas where it's actually beneficial to just accept your situation and move on.

And I do agree, I was much happier before this forum. But I think the radical and extreme thinking can help your life more in the long run if you also adopt equally radical and extreme solutions from it.

 

[NewOneXY]

Yeah bro, had some really brutal years. Dropped out of school in suicidal depression and extreme anxiety, spent the last 2 years fixing it and getting back to baseline. What was your old @?

I am NewOne man, how can you forget me ?

I have anxiety as well

I live with it since childhood

 

[Deleted member 28722]

Saw this video from a STEMcel, (great video btw)

Spoiler: video

When you lose your brain literally makes you act like a cuck, so if you have had a shitty childhood you NEED to win in your early adulthood to not have it shape the rest of your life.

Otherwise, you'll end up a KHHV McDonalds wagie that kills himself at 30
View attachment 2471126

This is why steroids are based, despite the health risks, the health risks of your physiology thinking you're a loser are much worse than dying a year or two earlier.

And anything that influences neuroplasticity like psychedelics, also massively based, you need to rewire your brain.

I'm trying to get Buproprion (Wellbutrin) from my doctor to and I'm trying to convince a psychiatrist I have ADHD so I can get DNRI's/Stimulants.

I'll start SNRI's to see if I notice any benefits,

You should use everything to modulate your brain out of the hole it's dug itself into. Stimulants and psychedelics are particularly suited to this, psychedelics to rewire, stimulants to get the courage/motivation to make change.

MMA is probably a good thing to start too, despite the fact that you'll lose a lot in the start you should notice yourself getting stronger and stronger, and the average MMA club is filled with genetic rejects, the last club I trained at the average man was a 175cm curry.

175cm instantly means genetic reject? Jfl

 

[Deleted member 20370]

The point of the post is that it isn't too late. And more importantly, you're permitted to take drastic measures to change this, perhaps even NEED to.

i literally cant, i try everyday but it just ISNT WORKING

 

[MoggerGaston]

I wonder how much different life would’ve been if my parents weren’t poor. Reason I got obese as a youth was simply cause I had a single mom who was an immigrant here, working long hours and it was easier and cheaper to cook unhealthy food. It all coincided with me finding this shithole and getting my negative views reenforced. Brutal stuff.

Realistically I think most users here, even if incel, would be better off never finding this forum. I remember when I was sexless I wasn’t as miserable about not getting pussy as I am, while writing this post legit on the bus omw to a date. It’s truly over.

Very relatable. My parental/environmental situation was probably bottom 10% in the Netherlands. I have never got close to someone yet IRL who shared having an equally bad or worse childhood as I have had. But I think this is also largely because I got forced to study hard, ended up in highIQ academic social circles, which largely only have privileged+wealthy people in it.

Then I found this shithole and I could relate so much with all of the negativity, all the pain. Much more so than all of the social contact I've had IRL where I can't relate to these privileged fucks.

Also JFL @ the posting on here while being on the bus to a date.

I remember sitting in bed, on my phone, making posts on this forum. While I had the naked stacylite girlfriend sleeping in bed next to me, cuddled up to me.

so mentally ill. And I can't fucking seem to do anything about it.

 

[AspiringMogger]

Also JFL @ the posting on here while being on the bus to a date.

It’s to stay grounded JFL. I’m a romantic. I have to remember how ruthless female nature is.

 

[MoggerGaston]

It’s to stay grounded JFL. I’m a romantic. I have to remember how ruthless female nature is.

If we were better-looking in our youths, we would've never got to experience this 'ruthless female nature' as much as we did.
And as a result we would be more open to the idea of 'love', the 'good in people', etc. instead of looking out for betrayal.

 

[Chadelite]

no bro god has a plan for you bro Jesus was 5ft5 bro!

Be grateful you aren’t a 4ft tall guy bro, don’t get LL as Teramanlet bro a woman will come and fall onto ur lap when you least expect it bro! Trust me bro!

Jfl, i would actually post something good but I don’t want the TikTok zoomers and gen alpha to learn this

 

[Danish_Retard]

Definitely gets harder the older you become. And yeah I understand my mindset isn't helping, but the origin of that mindset is my abused dog brain. The hormones, the thought patterns that lead to that mindset originate from my abused brain.

I know because I don't have it anymore when I chemically alter my brain's chemical structure with drugs. But then it goes back to normal and the thought patterns return.

So you're constantly grasping for solace/redemption, yet it always slips through your hands?

At least you know it's possible. It may be possible to accept your situation and move on. Well that sounds like something a psych would say anyway,
rant:
I can't fucking move on from being so behind and different from my peers, every girl, even the nerdy loser girls I meet are fucking and partying.

I don't want to have meaningless sex, I just want a LTR, but every women is a worthless whore. Impossible to LTR them, so the only option I'm left with is meaningless sex, but it barely motivates me... Even when I was a literal redditor I was also viscerally disgusted by promiscuity...
rant end
But, I've kind of let go of my resentment towards others, I used to hate normies, like could watch them die and feel nothing, and now I can almost, almost, feel happiness when I see others happy. It came from processing all my emotions behind being an abused dog, lots of crying, lots of extreme anger, over 1,5 years. But it's possible.

Heavy on the point about getting visibly angry and letting people know of your dissatisfaction, prior to the last two recent years I was somewhat of a people pleaser and confrontation-avoidant. Not in a cucked way but I wasn’t escalating on my terms I was being passive. I think a lot of forum users grew up that way as well.

Well, as demonstrated in the video it's a positive feedback loop, if you lose once you lose more later, etc.

I relate to you on this, but I don't think it's easily changeable unless you change your whole self-perception and identity.

Literally an important part of what makes the blackpill cancer for your mind honestly.

It increases expectations and makes what is considered 'winning' more external as opposed to just comparing it your own living experiences. Which is only good if that external expectation is easier to achieve, but often it isn't.

For example: When I lost my KHHV status at 23yo to that stacylite girl that I dated for a couple of months. I had expected it to make a MASSIVE impact on my psyche, confidence, and so on. I expected to feel like a winner, finally. And get rid of some of the loser mindset from my past.
But often all I felt was how 'behind' I still was for only experienced this stuff now at 23yo. And how insecure I felt knowing how much this 19yo girl mogged my social/romantic experiences.
I felt like an absolute fraud, an imposter; unable to appreciate my present situation, constantly fearing that I would go back to being the loser 'that I truly was'.

The human brain can be so fucking brutal.

fuark man insights like this is why I post here instead of just in my journal.

Your theory and example are brutally on point. And honestly, what has helped me the most mentally is rediscovering my own intrinsic goals and motivations. It helps disconnect you from the brutal quantitative comparisons you can make to others.

Qualitative comparisons you can, if you're diligent enough, always show that they're useless and not that telling, but it's much harder with the ideals the blackpill preaches.

I also think your example is another example of how Buddhistic/cognitive psychology ideals of just accepting your past and present can be useful, if you thought, fuck yeah I'm fucking a stacylite, ergo I'm a fucking unkillable god you'd be in a much better position now.

I am NewOne man, how can you forget me ?

I have anxiety as well

I live with it since childhood

aHH man, always read your name as Newone, like Ne-wone, never made the connection to New-One lmao
You're the prettyboy that destroyed MakinItHappen right lol?

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Will rd l8r. Posting to remind myself.

 

[NewOneXY]

aHH man, always read your name as Newone, like Ne-wone, never made the connection to New-One lmao
You're the prettyboy that destroyed MakinItHappen right lol?

bro I was a legend on this site back then

I am not that pretty

Some people rated my youth pictures HTN-Chadlite

But I am old now, 30 years old

 

[MoggerGaston]

I grew up
Obese:
Autistic:
Poor:
Recessed:
Single feminist mother:

3 death sentences if I say so myself.

Your conclusion is correct @AspiringMogger , I think having taken on the role of a loser is what holds many back here, even if it would've been evolutionarily beneficient 10.000 years ago it's maladaptive, which is why we need change it with external compounds and modulate our environment if possible.

Personally, It's only very recently that I've begun getting proper angry if someone makes me feel inferior, where I've felt a strong drive to outcompete them.

And yeah, it's brutal, it's impossible to change, impossible to prevent. I too went from subhuman to normie looking, and my brain has never recovered either @MoggerGaston , but I did 10g shrooms and I felt better for some months. I need to do more.

But, even if you overcome your physiology, you still have the pain, sorrow and hate ending in resentment towards everyone who wronged you when you had no way to defend yourself. I have no solutions for this, journaling helps a bit...

I hate to admit it, but I feel, think and act like a submissive cuck IRL.
It's often only my low-trust facial appearance + above average size (brutal looks-pill) that make people automatically respect my presence and autonomy. I notice it a lot with people when they act more submissive to me than I would've expected them to. But it's based on my brain still believing I look as subhuman as I did in my childhood.

Sometimes people walk all over me and my mode of defence in those situations is to 'care as little as possible about life so it can't hurt you'. I pretend to not care about them disrespecting me. And that's basically extreme submission from my part.

Only at some point when they really get out of line, something primal triggers in me and I can get really confrontational and violent.
For example if the abuse becomes physical instead of just words/gestures, I can't handle that and I get violent.
I've had this one time when some guy stole a piece of clothing from me while I was wearing it at a dress-up party and taunted me with it afterwards. I went full berserk on this motherfucker and got kicked out of the party for it.

But it usually doesn't get that far. Usually I take all the abuse, the words, the gestures, take it all like a submissive cuck, pretending not to care.

 

[Chadelite]

I wonder how much different life would’ve been if my parents weren’t poor. Reason I got obese as a youth was simply cause I had a single mom who was an immigrant here, working long hours and it was easier and cheaper to cook unhealthy food. It all coincided with me finding this shithole and getting my negative views reenforced. Brutal stuff.

Realistically I think most users here, even if incel, would be better off never finding this forum. I remember when I was sexless I wasn’t as miserable about not getting pussy as I am, while writing this post legit on the bus omw to a date. It’s truly over.

Yh I wish I never joined this shithole

 

[Danish_Retard]

prior to the last two recent years I was somewhat of a people pleaser and confrontation-avoidant. Not in a cucked way but I wasn’t escalating on my terms I was being passive.

Well, as demonstrated in the video it's a positive feedback loop, if you lose once you lose more later, etc.

I relate to you on this, but I don't think it's easily changeable unless you change your whole self-perception and identity.

Actually, @AspiringMogger I've changed my mind on this since it's a positive feedback loop perhaps the starting move isn't to change your identity, but rather as you say, just standing more up for yourself, and that spirals into changing everything.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Saw this video from a STEMcel, (great video btw)

Spoiler: video

When you lose your brain literally makes you act like a cuck, so if you have had a shitty childhood you NEED to win in your early adulthood to not have it shape the rest of your life.

Otherwise, you'll end up a KHHV McDonalds wagie that kills himself at 30
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This is why steroids are based, despite the health risks, the health risks of your physiology thinking you're a loser are much worse than dying a year or two earlier.

And anything that influences neuroplasticity like psychedelics, also massively based, you need to rewire your brain.

I'm trying to get Buproprion (Wellbutrin) from my doctor to and I'm trying to convince a psychiatrist I have ADHD so I can get DNRI's/Stimulants.

I'll start SNRI's to see if I notice any benefits,

You should use everything to modulate your brain out of the hole it's dug itself into. Stimulants and psychedelics are particularly suited to this, psychedelics to rewire, stimulants to get the courage/motivation to make change.

MMA is probably a good thing to start too, despite the fact that you'll lose a lot in the start you should notice yourself getting stronger and stronger, and the average MMA club is filled with genetic rejects, the last club I trained at the average man was a 175cm curry.

I agree with everything you said here but don't fuck with SNRI class drugs (Serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors) I just know artificially fucking with serotonin always ends badly I've been addicted to adderall before but I've seen people who suck with anti depressants who are still effected years later. Its just much more dangerous to fuck with serotonin I've yet to see a case where anti depressants (basically drugs that increase serotine thereby decreasing depression and anxiety) long term worked they fucked up my ex gf for sure.

These drugs won't work forever maybe take them if your going to kys anyways. But when you invertible stop them you will have fucked up problems for years. Dopamine related drugs you can recover 90% within a month assuming you weren't abusing meth. Also don't take other anti anxiety meds like Benzos or Xanax. Jordan Peterson is still mentally fucked years later. Those class of drugs (alcohol is also in the class) are some of the only drugs where withdrawals actually can kill you. Anti depressants turn you into a walking zombie most people on them get fat low libido these drugs have a terrifying effect on not only the mind but the body.

But I relate to the thread before you rope try Geomaxxing and try maximizing your life 25 is probably where it gets hard to fundamentally change your life I got 4 years left and its terrifying. You can change at any age I believe god gives us the free will to change whenever we want. But our life choices compound and solidify more as we age while you still can change it becomes harder and harder with age.

 

[Deleted member 24444]

Unrelated question but where do you get shrooms?

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Yh I wish I never joined this shithole

I stumbled upon some incel type stuff at 13 so its not like I had much of a choice I was bound to end up here maybe it was destiny but I am finally using the advice here to better my life. In 3 months I have made more progress then the last 3 years combined

 

[Chadelite]

I stumbled upon some incel type stuff at 13 so its not like I had much of a choice I was bound to end up here maybe it was destiny but I am finally using the advice here to better my life. In 3 months I have made more progress then the last 3 years combined

Yh same for me

This forum has a few good points but most of it is bs

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Yh same for me

This forum has a few good points but most of it is bs

>Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

I always repeat this in my head. Looksmaxing on its face is fundamentally benevolent but fixating on things you cannot fix all day like height or your eye color is bad. Especially when you have not done all you can. Even if you were a truecel this would be bad you should find something better to do with your time then beating yourself up.

 

[MoggerGaston]

So you're constantly grasping for solace/redemption, yet it always slips through your hands?

I constantly believe that I need to compensate for my past.

To compensate for my past incel subhuman life, I need to become a chad slayer now and in the future.

And that basically sets me up for failure 100%. But I am unable to accept a 'normal' life. As I feel it would 'invalidate' all the suffering I have experienced in my past.

At least you know it's possible. It may be possible to accept your situation and move on. Well that sounds like something a psych would say anyway,
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I can't fucking move on from being so behind and different from my peers, every girl, even the nerdy loser girls I meet are fucking and partying.

Same here. I feel behind in every single way possible to my peers. And that doesn't help when I am trying to turn my life around, starting from a position where you are mogged by everyone around you.

Especially with women I notice how much this is a problem. Women have 0 RESPECT for guys that don't do well in life. They basically DEMAND you to do well in life, before they will socialize/interact with you.

With guys, I feel like my self-deprecating humor, my low social-status behavior, makes me more likeable. Guys seem to like my vibe, like my, what's basically a 'submissive attitude', and like to socialize with me. In stark contrast with women. But that also makes me not vibe with them at the same time because I don't like the vibe.

I don't want to have meaningless sex, I just want a LTR, but every women is a worthless whore. Impossible to LTR them, so the only option I'm left with is meaningless sex, but it barely motivates me... Even when I was a literal redditor I was also viscerally disgusted by promiscuity...
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But, I've kind of let go of my resentment towards others, I used to hate normies, like could watch them die and feel nothing, and now I can almost, almost, feel happiness when I see others happy. It came from processing all my emotions behind being an abused dog, lots of crying, lots of extreme anger, over 1,5 years. But it's possible.

I don't care about ONS either, but I find it impossible to form a healthy LTR. Partly because I have mental issues, partly because dating and getting to know young women you find attractive that find you attractive is hardcore difficult.

About normies, I've found myself to become increasingly indifferent to them, their opinions, their lives, everything. It means nothing to me anymore and it makes it difficult for me to socialize. Like when someone is telling me about themselves, I find myself just not caring AT ALL.

Increasingly at the parties/raves/social stuff I am doing, I hardly truly socialize anymore. Mostly just going through the gestures and behavior to seem 'normal' but not really caring.

fuark man insights like this is why I post here instead of just in my journal.

Your theory and example are brutally on point. And honestly, what has helped me the most mentally is rediscovering my own intrinsic goals and motivations. It helps disconnect you from the brutal quantitative comparisons you can make to others.

Qualitative comparisons you can, if you're diligent enough, always show that they're useless and not that telling, but it's much harder with the ideals the blackpill preaches.

I also think your example is another example of how Buddhistic/cognitive psychology ideals of just accepting your past and present can be useful, if you thought, fuck yeah I'm fucking a stacylite, ergo I'm a fucking unkillable god you'd be in a much better position now.

I find this almost impossible to do personally.

Whenever I think of 'improving my life' getting myself back together. I start getting goals like:

I need to study harder, I need to get a better job, I need to become wealthy and powerful, I need to workout more and be more lean, I need to be better-looking and get surgeries, I need to be more extroverted, I need to fuck better-looking women, I need to get better social-status.

Those are the only things I can really come up with. Which all just feels like this shallow uninteresting bullshit to me personally most of the time.

I miss having these passionate personal ambitions. Like wanting be an astronaut, having this hobby you really like, having this country/place you really want to visit, having this specific vision of something you can really see yourself doing/living.

I used to have visions, ideals of what my life should look like. That had nothing to do with social-status, wealth, popularity, as a kid. But I can't find those visions anymore. I somehow can't find my younger self anymore. I am stuck in these superficial garbage trash ideals of wanting to become a 'wealthy, popular, powerful, good-looking guy' and nothing more.
And it feels so plain and un-motivational, like it's been externally imposed on me to want this instead of intrinsically.

 

[Gonthar]

Why the fuck is he staying so close to the camera and makes those uncomfortable fast zooms, it's very creepy and unsettling...

 

[bloomercel]

For whoever has, to him more will be given, and he will have abundance; but whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken away from him.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

For whoever has, to him more will be given, and he will have abundance; but whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken away from him.

One of my favorite bible verses people acting like we invented the blackpill the blackpill has always existed for those willing to observe it.