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One year ago today I took 200ug of acid.
I can confidently say that my personality did after my trip. Before acid, I was shy. I had some social anxieties, I was soft spoken. I didn’t fully trust myself. After LSD, I am more confident, I have more of a IDGAF attitude, I trust myself 100%, and I basically don’t worry about the little things in life nor do I fear death.
Not fearing death:
This is gonna sound retarded to most of you/people who don’t know what I’m talking about but whatever.. So basically, my fear of death is nonexistent. That DOESNT mean I’m gonna do stupid shit like climb building and do parkour or be reckless with my life. I still care about living and want to live, but I’ve just come to the realization that death is truly inevitable and there’s no point in worrying about something that is going to happen regardless. It’s really freed my mind of a lot of petty things like worrying if I mess my order while ordering food or spilling my drink on myself. Like, for instance, some people I know, will freak the fuck out if they spill their drink or something. Like they just go into a panic and shit. I honestly try not to laugh because it’s so trivial and funny to me now. If I were to spill my drink, my heartbeat doesn’t race, I don’t get flustered or embarrassed; I just act as if nothing really happened. I am much more calm about things and it really helps in every aspect of life.
Trusting myself:
This is probably the best thing that I got from my trip. I 100% believe in myself. I 100% trust myself. I know my boundaries and limits. I can stay true to myself and it really helps me in more ways I can describe. I know myself very well. Essentially, I’m my own my best friend. I can trust myself with promises I make to myself. Before LSD, I could kinda trust myself, but this unlocked a part of me I didn’t even know existed. It’s by far the best thing I got from my trip and really helped me in life.
Other things:
Acid made me realize how insignificant things are in life, in a good way. I would now consider myself an optimistic nihilistic. It’s made me much more confident. All the sayings like “The spotlight isn’t on you.” “Don’t take it so seriously.” and shit like that really were internalized in me during and after the trip. It’s like I have a deeper meaning of what those sayings actually mean, it’s something I would only expect someone whose tripped to understand what Im talking about.
Emotions:
I can control my emotions a lot easier now. I am more of a logical thinker, but can think with my emotions when I want to. I don’t get mad at people (it’s harder to at least) because I can see where their anger is coming from. I don’t let people’s anger or hate get to me. It’s very easy to read people for the most part tbh.
Patterns in life:
I’ve identified patterns in my life and play them to my liking. I can tell when things are going to get rough or better. I don’t expect the good times to last nor the bad times. I’ve also found out the patterns on my life and why I am the way I am. It’s very interesting and fun because I am no longer in the passenger seat, I’m in the driver seat now.
More benefits:
Accepting things as they are is so much easier. I don’t try to fight it, I just let it happen and it works out for the most part.
It also changed my thought process. Instead of working from top to bottom or bottom to top. I can work from the inside out (understanding the goal and the beginning steps and basically “fill in the gaps”).
TL;DR Acid made me trust myself a lot more, gave me more confidence and took away my fear of death. I have much more control over my life.
Also: Music is extremely important. It influences your mood a lot. As Im typing this, I’m listening to the songs I was listening to when I was peaking and the songs really change my mood and thoughts. It’s crazy.
I can confidently say that my personality did after my trip. Before acid, I was shy. I had some social anxieties, I was soft spoken. I didn’t fully trust myself. After LSD, I am more confident, I have more of a IDGAF attitude, I trust myself 100%, and I basically don’t worry about the little things in life nor do I fear death.
Not fearing death:
This is gonna sound retarded to most of you/people who don’t know what I’m talking about but whatever.. So basically, my fear of death is nonexistent. That DOESNT mean I’m gonna do stupid shit like climb building and do parkour or be reckless with my life. I still care about living and want to live, but I’ve just come to the realization that death is truly inevitable and there’s no point in worrying about something that is going to happen regardless. It’s really freed my mind of a lot of petty things like worrying if I mess my order while ordering food or spilling my drink on myself. Like, for instance, some people I know, will freak the fuck out if they spill their drink or something. Like they just go into a panic and shit. I honestly try not to laugh because it’s so trivial and funny to me now. If I were to spill my drink, my heartbeat doesn’t race, I don’t get flustered or embarrassed; I just act as if nothing really happened. I am much more calm about things and it really helps in every aspect of life.
Trusting myself:
This is probably the best thing that I got from my trip. I 100% believe in myself. I 100% trust myself. I know my boundaries and limits. I can stay true to myself and it really helps me in more ways I can describe. I know myself very well. Essentially, I’m my own my best friend. I can trust myself with promises I make to myself. Before LSD, I could kinda trust myself, but this unlocked a part of me I didn’t even know existed. It’s by far the best thing I got from my trip and really helped me in life.
Other things:
Acid made me realize how insignificant things are in life, in a good way. I would now consider myself an optimistic nihilistic. It’s made me much more confident. All the sayings like “The spotlight isn’t on you.” “Don’t take it so seriously.” and shit like that really were internalized in me during and after the trip. It’s like I have a deeper meaning of what those sayings actually mean, it’s something I would only expect someone whose tripped to understand what Im talking about.
Emotions:
I can control my emotions a lot easier now. I am more of a logical thinker, but can think with my emotions when I want to. I don’t get mad at people (it’s harder to at least) because I can see where their anger is coming from. I don’t let people’s anger or hate get to me. It’s very easy to read people for the most part tbh.
Patterns in life:
I’ve identified patterns in my life and play them to my liking. I can tell when things are going to get rough or better. I don’t expect the good times to last nor the bad times. I’ve also found out the patterns on my life and why I am the way I am. It’s very interesting and fun because I am no longer in the passenger seat, I’m in the driver seat now.
More benefits:
Accepting things as they are is so much easier. I don’t try to fight it, I just let it happen and it works out for the most part.
It also changed my thought process. Instead of working from top to bottom or bottom to top. I can work from the inside out (understanding the goal and the beginning steps and basically “fill in the gaps”).
TL;DR Acid made me trust myself a lot more, gave me more confidence and took away my fear of death. I have much more control over my life.
Also: Music is extremely important. It influences your mood a lot. As Im typing this, I’m listening to the songs I was listening to when I was peaking and the songs really change my mood and thoughts. It’s crazy.
