How to stop feeling envy over Chad and missed experiences?

[Deleted member 117946]

Hispanic is better than Indian lol. There aren't many hispanics in the UK and apart from the low wage illegal immigrant stereotype they have in the US they aren't viewed as badly. Hispanics have some sex appeal in the US whereas Indians have negative sex appeal everywhere

yea I get its not as bad but sadly there's nothing you can do about it, Indians just have a bad rep. blame the jews for that

 

[Deleted member 119734]

yea I get its not as bad but sadly there's nothing you can do about it, Indians just have a bad rep. blame the jews for that

Nah blame the Indians. There are loads of Indian internationals at my uni and honestly I get why everyone hates Indians/brown people.

That's why I have to do everything to appear less ethnic. Fortunately I'm light brown so can pass as a mediterranean and born in the UK so have a British accent.

 

[curryascenderr]

I'm light brown so can pass as a mediterranean and born in the UK so have a British accent.

as you mentioned earlier colour does not equal pheno. the main differences between phenos is bones. If you do have a Caucasoid skull and lightskin why dont you just larp med then? I agree with you completely curry tax is brootal in England. That being said chad is a race of his own, just focus on ascension. Or try geomaxxing to poland

 

[axttt_]

That's the thing. My self-hatred makes me feel so worthless that I'm willing to be a cuck to beautiful white women. I would never in a trillion years even consider being a cuck to a non-white woman.

obsession with white women is the most ethnic trait oat

 

[axttt_]

I need to looksmax first. Just because I haven't made an attempt doesn't mean I will suddenly be successful if I try. I've played out the scenarios in my head of what will most likely happen if I do approach attractive white women and I just don't stand a chance compared to the hot guys they can get. I will looksmax first and then put myself out there.

so how can you complain and say ur thinking of roping when u havent properly even tried

 

[whitebitchslayer]

Impossible.

 

[chrishell]

You need to save up as much money as possible to spend on surgeries and race-frauding procedures.

 

[Axhar1]

glutathione + contacts + coloured hair + lipstick

 

[Deleted member 119734]

as you mentioned earlier colour does not equal pheno. the main differences between phenos is bones. If you do have a Caucasoid skull and lightskin why dont you just larp med then? I agree with you completely curry tax is brootal in England. That being said chad is a race of his own, just focus on ascension. Or try geomaxxing to poland

I already larp as med/algerian/moroccan

 

[Deleted member 119734]

obsession with white women is the most ethnic trait oat

Facts

 

[Deleted member 119734]

so how can you complain and say ur thinking of roping when u havent properly even tried

Depression can drag you to dark places. It's scary tbh how miserable you can get when your alone and your thoughts are always negative and there's constantly a small voice in the back of your head that says you're not good enough.

 

[Deleted member 119734]

You need to save up as much money as possible to spend on surgeries and race-frauding procedures.

Turning into Michael Jackson HEEHEE

 

[Deleted member 119734]

glutathione + contacts + coloured hair + lipstick

What is gluthathione? Is it even legit?

 

[doomd]

This is something I've been struggling with a lot and really need help with. I genuinely need advice about this.

For so long I've had a lot of resentment towards myself and my parents because I'm a shitskin 5'9 light brown British Indian guy. I've never had any resentment towards women because what they want is perfectly understandable - they want white chad. As they should. Why the fuck would a woman choose me over a white chad? She just shouldn't. It doesn't make sense. I am objectively inferior - and that's no fault of my own, it's just how I was unfortunately born.

Whenever I see white guys with pretty white women it's just a constant reminder of how inferior I am and how because I'm a fucking subhuman ethnic shitskin I'm not good enough for that. When I see white guys bringing white women over to hook up with in uni it's a constant reminder that if only I was white I too would also get attractive white women. I'm a decent looking guy objectively but the fact that I'm brown means I'll never get the hot blonde white women. How do I get over the envy I have towards white chads and the missed experiences because I'm brown? That hot white woman at a club went home with that attractive white chad she just met that night - I've missed out on that experience simply because I'm brown,

I've developed a lot of resentment towards my parents because I'm brown and I don't really talk to them anymore. I got really depressed in the past and was considering hanging myself because I was just constantly miserable over the fact that I'm a brown guy. I'm embarrassed to say there were times I would break down crying in my room thinking about everything and I just wasn't coping well. I'm doing better now by focusing on myself and thinking rationally about my predicament. The reality is my misery is 100% self-inflicted which is why I don't expect to receive any sympathy. I'm only upset over the fact that extremely attractive white women want nothing to do with me. There are women who do find me attractive but that just pisses me off because they are mediocre/average and it really humbles me and reminds me that I'm operating at such a low level.

I've developed so much hatred towards my parents and have been treating them badly and disrespecting them as a result, which is so sad because they've done so much for me. I know plenty of white guys and have been over to my mates' houses countless times when I was younger so I know what your average white British family is like, and my parents are a billion times more helpful. They've supported me financially so I don't need a part-time job in uni unlike many of my friends and they will always be there for me. And yet I still treat them like shit because of my extreme self-hatred towards my own race. I feel really guilty about how I've treated my parents tbh.

I stopped talking to my brown friends and my social circle is like 60% white males, 30% white females, 10% black males. I've completely discarded my close brown friends I've known for years throughout school as my self-hatred developed. Normally I stand-up for myself and when a non-white person tries to make a joke about me or disrespects me I get confrontational and aggressive to let them know I won't tolerate disrespect, but when white people make a joke/off-hand comment about me I just laugh along with them at my own expense.

I'm aware that white women would not want to be with someone that fetishises them so I've become a lot better at hiding my white worship. All the porn I watch is with white men fucking non-white women and it just makes me feel like a cuck. I've fallen so deep into self-hatred that even if the most beautiful white woman on the planet was madly in love with me and wanted to be with me, I would still want her to fuck superior white men on the side to cuck me. One of my main motivations for becoming super rich is to fund an amazing lifestyle for my future pretty white model wife to cuck me as she gets ran through by white chads.

I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm genuinely being serious and need help seeing myself as an equal human being. Social media doesn't help when you constantly see the racism non-white people face, especially brown Indians recently. Even on this forum you see it. Ethnic people are literally called 'deathnics' lol because being brown is seen as a fate worse than death. You see so many comments about how the average ethnic guy in the west is an unwanted undesirable virgin simply because of his race. The ethnics who do well have to do everything they can to desperately distance themselves from their brownness.

The fundamental reason why I hate myself so much is because it is objectively a fact that if I was a white guy I would do a lot better. A 7/10 brown guy is equivalent to a 5/10 white guy. You literally have to pay an ethnic tax for being brown. I literally need to become a top tier 9/10 brown man just to get the same white women that an above average 7/10 white guy can get. And even then I would face constant microaggressions for being that subhuman brown guy dating a white woman. She would constantly have to justify to all her friends and family why she chose to date a brown guy. We would constantly get looks in public as people would wonder "how the fuck did that shitskin get her"?!?!?!

When I have to do everything I can to look less brown and less Indian and lie about my ethnicity to be seen as more desirable, it's no fucking surprise why I hate myself so much.

Do you consider getting surgeries?

 

[normie_joe]

I'm decent looking and women think I'm not Indian which is a huge compliment. I have mid women into me but can't get the super hot ones. You say you get play but you don't get the hot blonde chicks do you? That's what I'm moaning about.

I couldn't give a fuck about mid women

You are complaining about top tier women not choosing you while simultaneously doing the same thing to women into you.

More self reflection is required for your case buddy.

 

[Deleted member 119734]

Do you consider getting surgeries?

Hair transplant after steroids and rhino yeah

 

[Deleted member 119734]

You are complaining about top tier women not choosing you while simultaneously doing the same thing to women into you.

More self reflection is required for your case buddy.

I'm self-aware enough to understand this, but I want to have my cake and eat it too.

 

[chicoishtn]

Light brown skin mainly and nose. Have a slightly wide bridge at the top of my nose so it's not super sharp. No big deal because rhino isn't that intense.

I actually look lighter than many white people that go get tans. If you've seen love island you can see all those 'white guys' with ridiculous tans lol. I'm slightly lighter than that.

what part of india are you from?

 

[Deleted member 119734]

what part of india are you from?

Idk I've never been there. Was born and raised in the UK.

 

[chicoishtn]

Idk I've never been there. Was born and raised in the UK.

no i mean ethincally. like what part of india is your lineage from?

 

[Deleted member 119734]

no i mean ethincally. like what part of india is your lineage from?

I don't fucking know lol. I didn't talk to my parents much out of resentment from being a brown Indian. I'm light brown and come from a christian family so idk which region. I can pass for pakistani/algerian/med/turkish.

 

[chicoishtn]

I don't fucking know lol. I didn't talk to my parents much out of resentment from being a brown Indian. I'm light brown and come from a christian family so idk which region. I can pass for pakistani/algerian/med/turkish.

you've resented your parents since birth? have you not talked to your parents about anything basic about who you are? wtf?

do you not even know what language your parents speak?

 

[Deleted member 119734]

you've resented your parents since birth? have you not talked to your parents about anything basic about who you are? wtf?

do you not even know what language your parents speak?

They speak English at home, but can speak Hindi. I've resented them since I was 14/15 and started to hate myself for being brown and different from all my white friends. Obviously I know I'm Indian and they are from different cities in India. They moved a lot around India because my grandparents set up businesses and were moving around the country a lot.

 

[chicoishtn]

They speak English at home, but can speak Hindi. I've resented them since I was 14/15 and started to hate myself for being brown and different from all my white friends. Obvious I know I'm Indian and they are from different cities in India. They moved a lot around India because my grandparents set up businesses and were moving around the country a lot.

ive seen all these threads from you and theyre concerning, but honestly they remind me of how i was myself when i got bped (specifically racepilled) at 14 lol. difference was i wasnt too self hating and knew a lot about my culture and stuff

honestly man, i wont deny that the racepill is brutal. but youre getting attention from women so why do you care? like real shit man lower your standards. stop watching porn because youre raising your own standards unrealistically.

IF THE AVERAGE WOMAN IS NOT HOT TO YOU, YOU EITHER HAVE ZERO TEST OR YOUR STANDARDS ARE ARTIFICALLY INFLATED HIGH BY PORN

but sure, you dont get white stacies. so fucking what? is that reason to kys? no ofc not.

looks/race/height are one component of happiness in life. theyre not all there is to be happy about. dont let the bp fool you into thinking otherwise.

can i ask why youre so self hating? did you get racepilled by itv back in the day like me? how old are you?

 

[TitusA]

This is something I've been struggling with a lot and really need help with. I genuinely need advice about this.

For so long I've had a lot of resentment towards myself and my parents because I'm a shitskin 5'9 light brown British Indian guy. I've never had any resentment towards women because what they want is perfectly understandable - they want white chad. As they should. Why the fuck would a woman choose me over a white chad? She just shouldn't. It doesn't make sense. I am objectively inferior - and that's no fault of my own, it's just how I was unfortunately born.

Whenever I see white guys with pretty white women it's just a constant reminder of how inferior I am and how because I'm a fucking subhuman ethnic shitskin I'm not good enough for that. When I see white guys bringing white women over to hook up with in uni it's a constant reminder that if only I was white I too would also get attractive white women. I'm a decent looking guy objectively but the fact that I'm brown means I'll never get the hot blonde white women. How do I get over the envy I have towards white chads and the missed experiences because I'm brown? That hot white woman at a club went home with that attractive white chad she just met that night - I've missed out on that experience simply because I'm brown,

I've developed a lot of resentment towards my parents because I'm brown and I don't really talk to them anymore. I got really depressed in the past and was considering hanging myself because I was just constantly miserable over the fact that I'm a brown guy. I'm embarrassed to say there were times I would break down crying in my room thinking about everything and I just wasn't coping well. I'm doing better now by focusing on myself and thinking rationally about my predicament. The reality is my misery is 100% self-inflicted which is why I don't expect to receive any sympathy. I'm only upset over the fact that extremely attractive white women want nothing to do with me. There are women who do find me attractive but that just pisses me off because they are mediocre/average and it really humbles me and reminds me that I'm operating at such a low level.

I've developed so much hatred towards my parents and have been treating them badly and disrespecting them as a result, which is so sad because they've done so much for me. I know plenty of white guys and have been over to my mates' houses countless times when I was younger so I know what your average white British family is like, and my parents are a billion times more helpful. They've supported me financially so I don't need a part-time job in uni unlike many of my friends and they will always be there for me. And yet I still treat them like shit because of my extreme self-hatred towards my own race. I feel really guilty about how I've treated my parents tbh.

I stopped talking to my brown friends and my social circle is like 60% white males, 30% white females, 10% black males. I've completely discarded my close brown friends I've known for years throughout school as my self-hatred developed. Normally I stand-up for myself and when a non-white person tries to make a joke about me or disrespects me I get confrontational and aggressive to let them know I won't tolerate disrespect, but when white people make a joke/off-hand comment about me I just laugh along with them at my own expense.

I'm aware that white women would not want to be with someone that fetishises them so I've become a lot better at hiding my white worship. All the porn I watch is with white men fucking non-white women and it just makes me feel like a cuck. I've fallen so deep into self-hatred that even if the most beautiful white woman on the planet was madly in love with me and wanted to be with me, I would still want her to fuck superior white men on the side to cuck me. One of my main motivations for becoming super rich is to fund an amazing lifestyle for my future pretty white model wife to cuck me as she gets ran through by white chads.

I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm genuinely being serious and need help seeing myself as an equal human being. Social media doesn't help when you constantly see the racism non-white people face, especially brown Indians recently. Even on this forum you see it. Ethnic people are literally called 'deathnics' lol because being brown is seen as a fate worse than death. You see so many comments about how the average ethnic guy in the west is an unwanted undesirable virgin simply because of his race. The ethnics who do well have to do everything they can to desperately distance themselves from their brownness.

The fundamental reason why I hate myself so much is because it is objectively a fact that if I was a white guy I would do a lot better. A 7/10 brown guy is equivalent to a 5/10 white guy. You literally have to pay an ethnic tax for being brown. I literally need to become a top tier 9/10 brown man just to get the same white women that an above average 7/10 white guy can get. And even then I would face constant microaggressions for being that subhuman brown guy dating a white woman. She would constantly have to justify to all her friends and family why she chose to date a brown guy. We would constantly get looks in public as people would wonder "how the fuck did that shitskin get her"?!?!?!

When I have to do everything I can to look less brown and less Indian and lie about my ethnicity to be seen as more desirable, it's no fucking surprise why I hate myself so much.

90% of white guys do terrible with women too so you're in the same situation as most people. U wouldn't suddenly be getting a bunch of good looking white girls if you woke up white tomorrow. Then even if you did you would get sick of dealing with the drama top girls come with nowadays.

If they remade the fake crazy matrix nowadays. Every girl above 8 would be in the danger zone.

 

[qazw]

This is something I've been struggling with a lot and really need help with. I genuinely need advice about this.

For so long I've had a lot of resentment towards myself and my parents because I'm a shitskin 5'9 light brown British Indian guy. I've never had any resentment towards women because what they want is perfectly understandable - they want white chad. As they should. Why the fuck would a woman choose me over a white chad? She just shouldn't. It doesn't make sense. I am objectively inferior - and that's no fault of my own, it's just how I was unfortunately born.

Whenever I see white guys with pretty white women it's just a constant reminder of how inferior I am and how because I'm a fucking subhuman ethnic shitskin I'm not good enough for that. When I see white guys bringing white women over to hook up with in uni it's a constant reminder that if only I was white I too would also get attractive white women. I'm a decent looking guy objectively but the fact that I'm brown means I'll never get the hot blonde white women. How do I get over the envy I have towards white chads and the missed experiences because I'm brown? That hot white woman at a club went home with that attractive white chad she just met that night - I've missed out on that experience simply because I'm brown,

I've developed a lot of resentment towards my parents because I'm brown and I don't really talk to them anymore. I got really depressed in the past and was considering hanging myself because I was just constantly miserable over the fact that I'm a brown guy. I'm embarrassed to say there were times I would break down crying in my room thinking about everything and I just wasn't coping well. I'm doing better now by focusing on myself and thinking rationally about my predicament. The reality is my misery is 100% self-inflicted which is why I don't expect to receive any sympathy. I'm only upset over the fact that extremely attractive white women want nothing to do with me. There are women who do find me attractive but that just pisses me off because they are mediocre/average and it really humbles me and reminds me that I'm operating at such a low level.

I've developed so much hatred towards my parents and have been treating them badly and disrespecting them as a result, which is so sad because they've done so much for me. I know plenty of white guys and have been over to my mates' houses countless times when I was younger so I know what your average white British family is like, and my parents are a billion times more helpful. They've supported me financially so I don't need a part-time job in uni unlike many of my friends and they will always be there for me. And yet I still treat them like shit because of my extreme self-hatred towards my own race. I feel really guilty about how I've treated my parents tbh.

I stopped talking to my brown friends and my social circle is like 60% white males, 30% white females, 10% black males. I've completely discarded my close brown friends I've known for years throughout school as my self-hatred developed. Normally I stand-up for myself and when a non-white person tries to make a joke about me or disrespects me I get confrontational and aggressive to let them know I won't tolerate disrespect, but when white people make a joke/off-hand comment about me I just laugh along with them at my own expense.

I'm aware that white women would not want to be with someone that fetishises them so I've become a lot better at hiding my white worship. All the porn I watch is with white men fucking non-white women and it just makes me feel like a cuck. I've fallen so deep into self-hatred that even if the most beautiful white woman on the planet was madly in love with me and wanted to be with me, I would still want her to fuck superior white men on the side to cuck me. One of my main motivations for becoming super rich is to fund an amazing lifestyle for my future pretty white model wife to cuck me as she gets ran through by white chads.

I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm genuinely being serious and need help seeing myself as an equal human being. Social media doesn't help when you constantly see the racism non-white people face, especially brown Indians recently. Even on this forum you see it. Ethnic people are literally called 'deathnics' lol because being brown is seen as a fate worse than death. You see so many comments about how the average ethnic guy in the west is an unwanted undesirable virgin simply because of his race. The ethnics who do well have to do everything they can to desperately distance themselves from their brownness.

The fundamental reason why I hate myself so much is because it is objectively a fact that if I was a white guy I would do a lot better. A 7/10 brown guy is equivalent to a 5/10 white guy. You literally have to pay an ethnic tax for being brown. I literally need to become a top tier 9/10 brown man just to get the same white women that an above average 7/10 white guy can get. And even then I would face constant microaggressions for being that subhuman brown guy dating a white woman. She would constantly have to justify to all her friends and family why she chose to date a brown guy. We would constantly get looks in public as people would wonder "how the fuck did that shitskin get her"?!?!?!

When I have to do everything I can to look less brown and less Indian and lie about my ethnicity to be seen as more desirable, it's no fucking surprise why I hate myself so much.

Move to India and get an arranged marriage

 

[chicoishtn]

90% of white guys do terrible with women too so you're in the same situation as most people. U wouldn't suddenly be getting a bunch of good looking white girls if you woke up white tomorrow. Then even if you did you would get sick of dealing with the drama top girls come with nowadays.

If they remade the fake crazy matrix nowadays. Every girl above 8 would be in the danger zone.

not just that, he said girls have liked him before so hes not doing terrible

 

[Deleted member 119734]

Move to India and get an arranged marriage

I would rather end my life than step foot in pajeetland

 

[Deleted member 119734]

ive seen all these threads from you and theyre concerning, but honestly they remind me of how i was myself when i got bped (specifically racepilled) at 14 lol. difference was i wasnt too self hating and knew a lot about my culture and stuff

honestly man, i wont deny that the racepill is brutal. but youre getting attention from women so why do you care? like real shit man lower your standards. stop watching porn because youre raising your own standards unrealistically.

IF THE AVERAGE WOMAN IS NOT HOT TO YOU, YOU EITHER HAVE ZERO TEST OR YOUR STANDARDS ARE ARTIFICALLY INFLATED HIGH BY PORN

but sure, you dont get white stacies. so fucking what? is that reason to kys? no ofc not.

looks/race/height are one component of happiness in life. theyre not all there is to be happy about. dont let the bp fool you into thinking otherwise.

can i ask why youre so self hating? did you get racepilled by itv back in the day like me? how old are you?

The worst part is my self-hatred developed from irl experiences. I'm not some incel loser like most guys on here who endlessly scroll incel forums and watch doomer videos and get depressed. I'm a popular guy with a large social circle, frequently go out to parties, and have a great social life. This is what makes it even more brutal to deal with because I'm seeing first how how white guys have it so much better. Early on I've heard at parties how women were always crushing after that tall, shy white guy and I had so many really attractive white women approach me at parties just to ask me about my white friends they liked.

I saw white guys bringing attractive white women back to their uni flats and those white guys weren't even that special - many of them were literally uglier than I am and a few of them were essentially just the white version of myself. Seeing this made me realise how something I did not choose to be (brown) had such a strong impact on how women saw me. I would search online things like "do women not like brown guys?" and "am I not good enough because I'm brown?" and I'd see endless posts from Indian/south asian guys and brown guys in general complaining that their ethnicity was holding them back despite being well put together.

If you go to the hinge subreddit and look at the profile reviews you will see countless posts from brown guys and east asian guys who are well put together and are decent looking yet they get literally 0 matches. The ones who do get matches are matched with scam profiles, onlyfans content sellers, and trans women. Whereas the white guys who post on there complaining about not getting women are overwhelmingly ugly as fuck. So essentially the white guys are ugly as fuck and obese and get the same results as well put together brown and asian men.

I'm not saying it's impossible to get women as a brown guy - I literally get loads of brown women into me and mid white chicks into me all the time. I'm just complaining that the women I want (7/10 white women) are not into me because I have to pay a race tax for being brown. My race is deemed inferior so I have to 'downgrade' when going for white women. Even if I was attracted to brown women, the super hot ones all go for white guys anyway lol.

It's reached the point where the juice isn't worth the squeeze and to get the women I want I literally have to become brown Bruce Wayne lmfao.

 

[Deleted member 119734]

90% of white guys do terrible with women too so you're in the same situation as most people. U wouldn't suddenly be getting a bunch of good looking white girls if you woke up white tomorrow. Then even if you did you would get sick of dealing with the drama top girls come with nowadays.

If they remade the fake crazy matrix nowadays. Every girl above 8 would be in the danger zone.

If I woke up white tomorrow I would 100% get my white looksmatch which would be a 7/10 white brunette chick. I'm more than happy with that.

 

[TiktokUser]

I would rather suck the cum out of white chad's cock than ever be seen with a fucking Indian woman

What about a black girl

 

[Deleted member 119734]

What about a black girl

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

 

[chicoishtn]

The worst part is my self-hatred developed from irl experiences. I'm not some incel loser like most guys on here who endlessly scroll incel forums and watch doomer videos and get depressed. I'm a popular guy with a large social circle, frequently go out to parties, and have a great social life. This is what makes it even more brutal to deal with because I'm seeing first how how white guys have it so much better. Early on I've heard at parties how women were always crushing after that tall, shy white guy and I had so many really attractive white women approach me at parties just to ask me about my white friends they liked.

I saw white guys bringing attractive white women back to their uni flats and those white guys weren't even that special - many of them were literally uglier than I am and a few of them were essentially just the white version of myself. Seeing this made me realise how something I did not choose to be (brown) had such a strong impact on how women saw me. I would search online things like "do women not like brown guys?" and "am I not good enough because I'm brown?" and I'd see endless posts from Indian/south asian guys and brown guys in general complaining that their ethnicity was holding them back despite being well put together.

If you go to the hinge subreddit and look at the profile reviews you will see countless posts from brown guys and east asian guys who are well put together and are decent looking yet they get literally 0 matches. The ones who do get matches are matched with scam profiles, onlyfans content sellers, and trans women. Whereas the white guys who post on there complaining about not getting women are overwhelmingly ugly as fuck. So essentially the white guys are ugly as fuck and obese and get the same results as well put together brown and asian men.

I'm not saying it's impossible to get women as a brown guy - I literally get loads of brown women into me and mid white chicks into me all the time. I'm just complaining that the women I want (7/10 white women) are not into me because I have to pay a race tax for being brown. My race is deemed inferior so I have to 'downgrade' when going for white women. Even if I was attracted to brown women, the super hot ones all go for white guys anyway lol.

It's reached the point where the juice isn't worth the squeeze and to get the women I want I literally have to become brown Bruce Wayne lmfao.

dude i dont want to diagnose you or prescribe something to you or whatever because i dont know you and im also not a psychiatrist but you admitted this yourself - you're self hating, especially if youre not into brown women who are below "super hot". like a 6/10 brown women doesnt cut it for you?

but im not even gonna lie, i kinda understand.

you admitted that you dont speak to your parents because you hate yourself for being brown. as a fellow brown guy who spent the first few years of my life in an overwhelmingly white majority area, i get it. i went home crying to my mom when i was like 4 because i hated my brown eyes while everyone else had colored eyes. at the time i wanted to be white. i get that its not the same because you're obviously not 4, but still.

at the age of 10, i later on moved to a more ethnically diverse area. i no longer stuck out for my skin color or anything. i became more self assured and learned a bit more about who i am from my parents. at some point i became damn near exclusively interested in brown women because my self assurance abt my identity was so high

later on, through the internet i got racepilled by saint itv at 14 (like one of those losers u mentioned lmao). at that point, i started to become self hating again just like the 4 year old me, and i almost entirely stopped liking brown women for a bit, and started mostly liking the western standard of "default" women - white women.

over the past few years since then, my self assurance in racial identity has gone thru ups and downs. right now im somewhat up, and i've noticed that somehow, my preference in women pretty much perfectly depends on my self assurance in racial identity (when im happy w myself, i tend to only like brown women; when im feeling down because of jbw and the racepill, especially those brutal studies, i tend to only like white women; right now, being in the middle, id be down for any type of woman).

real shit id advise you to reconnect with your parents, and learn more about who you are - learn cultural customs, learn your language, learn history. youre gonna feel a lot happier with yourself and more prideful even outside of dating, and youll open up a lot more to the brown women who are anyways interested in you.

i also heavily relate to the porn thing (possibly more than anybody on this forum; i can expand in dm if you want); please quit that as well.

gl with your self esteem issues boyo. i hope you can get past the propaganda shoved down our throats that only white women are hot, and i hope you can break out of the htb+ only mindset that porn has inflicted onto you. if you ever need to talk to someone who can heavily relate to both of those things you're saying, feel free to dm me

 

[Deleted member 119734]

dude i dont want to diagnose you or prescribe something to you or whatever because i dont know you and im also not a psychiatrist but you admitted this yourself - you're self hating, especially if youre not into brown women who are below "super hot". like a 6/10 brown women doesnt cut it for you?

but im not even gonna lie, i kinda understand.

you admitted that you dont speak to your parents because you hate yourself for being brown. as a fellow brown guy who spent the first few years of my life in an overwhelmingly white majority area, i get it. i went home crying to my mom when i was like 4 because i hated my brown eyes while everyone else had colored eyes. at the time i wanted to be white. i get that its not the same because you're obviously not 4, but still.

at the age of 10, i later on moved to a more ethnically diverse area. i no longer stuck out for my skin color or anything. i became more self assured and learned a bit more about who i am from my parents. at some point i became damn near exclusively interested in brown women because my self assurance abt my identity was so high

later on, through the internet i got racepilled by saint itv at 14 (like one of those losers u mentioned lmao). at that point, i started to become self hating again just like the 4 year old me, and i almost entirely stopped liking brown women for a bit, and started mostly liking the western standard of "default" women - white women.

over the past few years since then, my self assurance in racial identity has gone thru ups and downs. right now im somewhat up, and i've noticed that somehow, my preference in women pretty much perfectly depends on my self assurance in racial identity (when im happy w myself, i tend to only like brown women; when im feeling down because of jbw and the racepill, especially those brutal studies, i tend to only like white women; right now, being in the middle, id be down for any type of woman).

real shit id advise you to reconnect with your parents, and learn more about who you are - learn cultural customs, learn your language, learn history. youre gonna feel a lot happier with yourself and more prideful even outside of dating, and youll open up a lot more to the brown women who are anyways interested in you.

i also heavily relate to the porn thing (possibly more than anybody on this forum; i can expand in dm if you want); please quit that as well.

gl with your self esteem issues boyo. i hope you can get past the propaganda shoved down our throats that only white women are hot, and i hope you can break out of the htb+ only mindset that porn has inflicted onto you. if you ever need to talk to someone who can heavily relate to both of those things you're saying, feel free to dm me

I'm a really dedicated guy and focused on self-improvement. I just know that I'm going to get jacked after the steroids and better looking after the skin bleaching and when I earn more and get rich I will be able to get one of those hot white women that settles for me after being ran though my chad. But I will still be miserable because it won't be true love and I will still hate myself and the fact that I'm brown until my very last breath.

It sucks but at least if I get rich and jacked through steroids like mattdoesfitness I should be happy enough to not think about my race

 

[chicoishtn]

I'm a really dedicated guy and focused on self-improvement. I just know that I'm going to get jacked after the steroids and better looking after the skin bleaching and when I earn more and get rich I will be able to get one of those hot white women that settles for me after being ran though my chad. But I will still be miserable because it won't be true love and I will still hate myself and the fact that I'm brown until my very last breath.

It sucks but at least if I get rich and jacked through steroids like mattdoesfitness I should be happy enough to not think about my race

did u reply to the wrong post lol

also i hope you read my whole post even tho its long asf, i really do think its v important

 

[tonka T]

This is something I've been struggling with a lot and really need help with. I genuinely need advice about this.

For so long I've had a lot of resentment towards myself and my parents because I'm a shitskin 5'9 light brown British Indian guy. I've never had any resentment towards women because what they want is perfectly understandable - they want white chad. As they should. Why the fuck would a woman choose me over a white chad? She just shouldn't. It doesn't make sense. I am objectively inferior - and that's no fault of my own, it's just how I was unfortunately born.

Whenever I see white guys with pretty white women it's just a constant reminder of how inferior I am and how because I'm a fucking subhuman ethnic shitskin I'm not good enough for that. When I see white guys bringing white women over to hook up with in uni it's a constant reminder that if only I was white I too would also get attractive white women. I'm a decent looking guy objectively but the fact that I'm brown means I'll never get the hot blonde white women. How do I get over the envy I have towards white chads and the missed experiences because I'm brown? That hot white woman at a club went home with that attractive white chad she just met that night - I've missed out on that experience simply because I'm brown,

I've developed a lot of resentment towards my parents because I'm brown and I don't really talk to them anymore. I got really depressed in the past and was considering hanging myself because I was just constantly miserable over the fact that I'm a brown guy. I'm embarrassed to say there were times I would break down crying in my room thinking about everything and I just wasn't coping well. I'm doing better now by focusing on myself and thinking rationally about my predicament. The reality is my misery is 100% self-inflicted which is why I don't expect to receive any sympathy. I'm only upset over the fact that extremely attractive white women want nothing to do with me. There are women who do find me attractive but that just pisses me off because they are mediocre/average and it really humbles me and reminds me that I'm operating at such a low level.

I've developed so much hatred towards my parents and have been treating them badly and disrespecting them as a result, which is so sad because they've done so much for me. I know plenty of white guys and have been over to my mates' houses countless times when I was younger so I know what your average white British family is like, and my parents are a billion times more helpful. They've supported me financially so I don't need a part-time job in uni unlike many of my friends and they will always be there for me. And yet I still treat them like shit because of my extreme self-hatred towards my own race. I feel really guilty about how I've treated my parents tbh.

I stopped talking to my brown friends and my social circle is like 60% white males, 30% white females, 10% black males. I've completely discarded my close brown friends I've known for years throughout school as my self-hatred developed. Normally I stand-up for myself and when a non-white person tries to make a joke about me or disrespects me I get confrontational and aggressive to let them know I won't tolerate disrespect, but when white people make a joke/off-hand comment about me I just laugh along with them at my own expense.

I'm aware that white women would not want to be with someone that fetishises them so I've become a lot better at hiding my white worship. All the porn I watch is with white men fucking non-white women and it just makes me feel like a cuck. I've fallen so deep into self-hatred that even if the most beautiful white woman on the planet was madly in love with me and wanted to be with me, I would still want her to fuck superior white men on the side to cuck me. One of my main motivations for becoming super rich is to fund an amazing lifestyle for my future pretty white model wife to cuck me as she gets ran through by white chads.

I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm genuinely being serious and need help seeing myself as an equal human being. Social media doesn't help when you constantly see the racism non-white people face, especially brown Indians recently. Even on this forum you see it. Ethnic people are literally called 'deathnics' lol because being brown is seen as a fate worse than death. You see so many comments about how the average ethnic guy in the west is an unwanted undesirable virgin simply because of his race. The ethnics who do well have to do everything they can to desperately distance themselves from their brownness.

The fundamental reason why I hate myself so much is because it is objectively a fact that if I was a white guy I would do a lot better. A 7/10 brown guy is equivalent to a 5/10 white guy. You literally have to pay an ethnic tax for being brown. I literally need to become a top tier 9/10 brown man just to get the same white women that an above average 7/10 white guy can get. And even then I would face constant microaggressions for being that subhuman brown guy dating a white woman. She would constantly have to justify to all her friends and family why she chose to date a brown guy. We would constantly get looks in public as people would wonder "how the fuck did that shitskin get her"?!?!?!

When I have to do everything I can to look less brown and less Indian and lie about my ethnicity to be seen as more desirable, it's no fucking surprise why I hate myself so much.

It's all in your head, move on. Grow some balls bitch ass nigga

 

[Deleted member 119734]

did u reply to the wrong post lol

also i hope you read my whole post even tho its long asf, i really do think its v important

Yes I replied to your post. I read it all. I'm just saying my self-hatred is so intense I'd rather superficially improve to get a blonde white woman that settles with me for my money over a non white woman that genuinely love me.

 

[Deleted member 119734]

It's all in your head, move on. Grow some balls bitch ass nigga

Literally isn't/ Who do you think blonde 9/10 white women are dating?

 

[chicoishtn]

Yes I replied to your post. I read it all. I'm just saying my self-hatred is so intense I'd rather superficially improve to get a blonde white woman that settles with me for my money over a non white woman that genuinely love me.

alr good to hear that u read it. mb i was just confused bc at first glance it seemed unrelated to what i was saying lol

dude please try to learn more about who you are. youre not worse for being brown. im telling you, reconnect with your parents. figure out what part of india you are ancestrally from (if youve got a typical indian last name, dm it to me and ill find it out for u). learn more about that place online; i can help you get started if you want as im on the same journey myself. just please listen to me here; even if you end up sticking to your white women only policy, youll feel a lot more secure in yourself at least outside of dating

 

[Deleted member 119734]

alr good to hear that u read it. mb i was just confused bc at first glance it seemed unrelated to what i was saying lol

dude please try to learn more about who you are. youre not worse for being brown. im telling you, reconnect with your parents. figure out what part of india you are ancestrally from (if youve got a typical indian last name, dm it to me and ill find it out for u). learn more about that place online; i can help you get started if you want as im on the same journey myself. just please listen to me here; even if you end up sticking to your white women only policy, youll feel a lot more secure in yourself at least outside of dating

How am I supposed to feel good about being a fucking indian when you see all the shit online? All those fucking pajeet memes and the shitty stereotypes that have nothing to do with me? I'm not some stinky curry munching street shitting rapist and yet it seems all brown guys get stereotyped that way. It's unacceptable to be racist towards any other group of people except indian. The very same black lives matter white people are the ones who say super racist shit towards indians/brown people and it's socially acceptable to be racist to south asians. Identifying as south asian does me no good.

 

[chicoishtn]

How am I supposed to feel good about being a fucking indian when you see all the shit online? All those fucking pajeet memes and the shitty stereotypes that have nothing to do with me? I'm not some stinky curry munching street shitting rapist and yet it seems all brown guys get stereotyped that way. It's unacceptable to be racist towards any other group of people except indian. The very same black lives matter white people are the ones who say super racist shit towards indians/brown people and it's socially acceptable to be racist to south asians. Identifying as south asian does me no good.

Idgaf if you tell people ur south asian. and i cant really logically explain why u feel better when u learn more about who you are. but you do, so just please listen to me and try to learn about who you are. i can help u if you want; but if you insist on being a white man's cuck and refuse to do anything abt your mental health im gonna assume you're a larper and end the convo here

 

[Deleted member 119734]

Idgaf if you tell people ur south asian. and i cant really logically explain why u feel better when u learn more about who you are. but you do, so just please listen to me and try to learn about who you are. i can help u if you want; but if you insist on being a white man's cuck and refuse to do anything abt your mental health im gonna assume you're a larper and end the convo here

I obviously don't want to be a cuck. The ideal scenario would be to have a pretty blonde white woman that genuinely loves me. But my self-hatred has made me feel like I'm not worthy of true love from one.

 

[the_machinist_786]

ive seen all these threads from you and theyre concerning, but honestly they remind me of how i was myself when i got bped (specifically racepilled) at 14 lol. difference was i wasnt too self hating and knew a lot about my culture and stuff

honestly man, i wont deny that the racepill is brutal. but youre getting attention from women so why do you care? like real shit man lower your standards. stop watching porn because youre raising your own standards unrealistically.

IF THE AVERAGE WOMAN IS NOT HOT TO YOU, YOU EITHER HAVE ZERO TEST OR YOUR STANDARDS ARE ARTIFICALLY INFLATED HIGH BY PORN

but sure, you dont get white stacies. so fucking what? is that reason to kys? no ofc not.

looks/race/height are one component of happiness in life. theyre not all there is to be happy about. dont let the bp fool you into thinking otherwise.

can i ask why youre so self hating? did you get racepilled by itv back in the day like me? how old are you?

High IQ reply, mirin. Can you also tell a solution to killing standards being artificially insane due to porn or soft porn, over exposure to hot women in internet, same factors all part of one problem more or less, including fetishizing a particular group

 

[the_machinist_786]

The ideal scenario would be to have a pretty blonde white woman that genuinely loves me.

Try realism buddy. Having it as an option and being disciplined to achieve that standard is one thing but being hyper obsessed and having this or defeat mindset will make it worse for you in the longer run

 

[the_machinist_786]

How am I supposed to feel good about being a fucking indian when you see all the shit online? All those fucking pajeet memes and the shitty stereotypes that have nothing to do with me? I'm not some stinky curry munching street shitting rapist and yet it seems all brown guys get stereotyped that way. It's unacceptable to be racist towards any other group of people except indian. The very same black lives matter white people are the ones who say super racist shit towards indians/brown people and it's socially acceptable to be racist to south asians. Identifying as south asian does me no good.

The problem is your extremely retarded mindset. You let what the majority (falsely) pretends to think to affect yourself willingly even though you can't do shit to fix it. Accepting and observing what's happening is fine but diving into self hating and letting it destroy you is cucked

 

[Foreverbrad]

Reads like Reddit copy pasta.

Anyway I’m tall, white, and incel so fuck off and get an arranged marriage.

 

[Deleted member 119734]

Reads like Reddit copy pasta.

Anyway I’m tall, white, and incel so fuck off and get an arranged marriage.

Imagine being a tall white incel HAHAHAHAH jfc

 

[chicoishtn]

High IQ reply, mirin.

thanks mang

Can you also tell a solution to killing standards being artificially insane due to porn or soft porn, over exposure to hot women in internet, same factors all part of one problem more or less

hard to say tbh, but id recommend just staying away from normie social media. it just tends to be a coomfest designed to trap your brain into always seeing the hottest girls. when you get accustomed to a certain level of attractiveness in women that you see online, you see every woman irl as ugly comparatively.

its generic advice that someone like scamza would give out, but it is true that normie media is inundated with hot girls because thats the best way to keep up male retention rates.

tbh the more you interact with real women, the more you tend to like women in real life. this kinda is a parellel to my next point

including fetishizing a particular group

if i had to make a guess, the more you know about and interact with a particular demographic (as well as the more of a positive perception you build of it), the more you tend to be into their women. its not a 1:1 correlation, but i think theres some legitimacy to the claim

idk if u saw my other post talking about this, but as a brown guy myself ive experienced the most attraction to brown women when i had the most self confidence (meaning, i had the greatest positive perception); when i have low race-based self confidence, i am super into white girls.

i think the same thing happened with asians tbh; i think part of the reason asian women have become so desired in the last few decades is because general asian things like anime, boba, martial arts, etc. have become normalized and even popular in western culture since then.

so id guess if you want to stop fetishizing a particular group, you want to learn and understand at the deepest level that hey, maybe this group in particular isnt that special because all other demographics are pretty cool too in their own unique way, and try to engage as much as you can with all other groups of people (especially women) so that you start liking those groups (and therefore those women) as well. you almost want to forcibly build up a positive perception of other groups

might be a low iq theory tho idk. lmk if it ends up working for u

 

[NOCTURNALDEATH]

Just keep ascending thats all you can do and hopefully if you ascend hard enough youll find the one

 

[Celery]

White women see brown men as subhuman. I'll admit my depression and defeatist mindset has meant I've never actually used dating apps nor approached a hot white woman but that's because I have such low self-esteem I don't even feel good enough to talk to them. They will probably laugh to themselves and think why the fuck has a shitskin brown guy approached me? Where did he get the audacity?

I’m brown/Indian American and have fucked numerous white women. The last white chick I dated was a HTB White virgin from church. Surgerymaxx and get implants, gym maxx, and wear 3 inch lifts like I do. That or you can try filler also. Otherwise the next option is to go to Thailand or the Philippines where you’ll have more value and fuck girls there.