How to stop feeling envy over Chad and missed experiences?

[bradchadpitt]

I’m brown/Indian American and have fucked numerous white women. The last white chick I dated was a HTB White virgin from church. Surgerymaxx and get implants, gym maxx, and wear 3 inch lifts like I do. That or you can try filler also. Otherwise the next option is to go to Thailand or the Philippines where you’ll have more value and fuck girls there.

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[bradchadpitt]

I’m brown/Indian American and have fucked numerous white women. The last white chick I dated was a HTB White virgin from church. Surgerymaxx and get implants, gym maxx, and wear 3 inch lifts like I do. That or you can try filler also. Otherwise the next option is to go to Thailand or the Philippines where you’ll have more value and fuck girls there.

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[dark triad]

This is something I've been struggling with a lot and really need help with. I genuinely need advice about this.

For so long I've had a lot of resentment towards myself and my parents because I'm a shitskin 5'9 light brown British Indian guy. I've never had any resentment towards women because what they want is perfectly understandable - they want white chad. As they should. Why the fuck would a woman choose me over a white chad? She just shouldn't. It doesn't make sense. I am objectively inferior - and that's no fault of my own, it's just how I was unfortunately born.

Whenever I see white guys with pretty white women it's just a constant reminder of how inferior I am and how because I'm a fucking subhuman ethnic shitskin I'm not good enough for that. When I see white guys bringing white women over to hook up with in uni it's a constant reminder that if only I was white I too would also get attractive white women. I'm a decent looking guy objectively but the fact that I'm brown means I'll never get the hot blonde white women. How do I get over the envy I have towards white chads and the missed experiences because I'm brown? That hot white woman at a club went home with that attractive white chad she just met that night - I've missed out on that experience simply because I'm brown,

I've developed a lot of resentment towards my parents because I'm brown and I don't really talk to them anymore. I got really depressed in the past and was considering hanging myself because I was just constantly miserable over the fact that I'm a brown guy. I'm embarrassed to say there were times I would break down crying in my room thinking about everything and I just wasn't coping well. I'm doing better now by focusing on myself and thinking rationally about my predicament. The reality is my misery is 100% self-inflicted which is why I don't expect to receive any sympathy. I'm only upset over the fact that extremely attractive white women want nothing to do with me. There are women who do find me attractive but that just pisses me off because they are mediocre/average and it really humbles me and reminds me that I'm operating at such a low level.

I've developed so much hatred towards my parents and have been treating them badly and disrespecting them as a result, which is so sad because they've done so much for me. I know plenty of white guys and have been over to my mates' houses countless times when I was younger so I know what your average white British family is like, and my parents are a billion times more helpful. They've supported me financially so I don't need a part-time job in uni unlike many of my friends and they will always be there for me. And yet I still treat them like shit because of my extreme self-hatred towards my own race. I feel really guilty about how I've treated my parents tbh.

I stopped talking to my brown friends and my social circle is like 60% white males, 30% white females, 10% black males. I've completely discarded my close brown friends I've known for years throughout school as my self-hatred developed. Normally I stand-up for myself and when a non-white person tries to make a joke about me or disrespects me I get confrontational and aggressive to let them know I won't tolerate disrespect, but when white people make a joke/off-hand comment about me I just laugh along with them at my own expense.

I'm aware that white women would not want to be with someone that fetishises them so I've become a lot better at hiding my white worship. All the porn I watch is with white men fucking non-white women and it just makes me feel like a cuck. I've fallen so deep into self-hatred that even if the most beautiful white woman on the planet was madly in love with me and wanted to be with me, I would still want her to fuck superior white men on the side to cuck me. One of my main motivations for becoming super rich is to fund an amazing lifestyle for my future pretty white model wife to cuck me as she gets ran through by white chads.

I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm genuinely being serious and need help seeing myself as an equal human being. Social media doesn't help when you constantly see the racism non-white people face, especially brown Indians recently. Even on this forum you see it. Ethnic people are literally called 'deathnics' lol because being brown is seen as a fate worse than death. You see so many comments about how the average ethnic guy in the west is an unwanted undesirable virgin simply because of his race. The ethnics who do well have to do everything they can to desperately distance themselves from their brownness.

The fundamental reason why I hate myself so much is because it is objectively a fact that if I was a white guy I would do a lot better. A 7/10 brown guy is equivalent to a 5/10 white guy. You literally have to pay an ethnic tax for being brown. I literally need to become a top tier 9/10 brown man just to get the same white women that an above average 7/10 white guy can get. And even then I would face constant microaggressions for being that subhuman brown guy dating a white woman. She would constantly have to justify to all her friends and family why she chose to date a brown guy. We would constantly get looks in public as people would wonder "how the fuck did that shitskin get her"?!?!?!

When I have to do everything I can to look less brown and less Indian and lie about my ethnicity to be seen as more desirable, it's no fucking surprise why I hate myself so much.

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