Hunger

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I'm currently losing weight through caloric deficit. Hunger is an ever present companion. At times I get aggressive and have ravenous cravings. Sometimes I almost feel something akin to spiritual sentiment. This is strangely pleasant and euphoric; is this why so many religions promote fasting? Most of the time I'm thinking of what I'm going to eat next. There are enough thoughts of food in my head to fill up several cookbooks. So far I haven't failed and I don't see myself failing.

 

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At first >500 calorie deficit felt very hard. Now that I've adjusted I realise how I've been overeating before. I'm not fat but I am not lean. Naturally I have the appetite of a lion and temperament that loves all excess. Not being fat or chubby is not good enough. This was never about being good enough. It is about going further, beyond... now that this is possible it's only a matter of time.