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Are you ready for the most autistic thing I've ever done?
Context:
19 year old girl met off Tinder, she was quite direct with her messages complimenting my photos and body. She agreed to meet the same night we matched, and travelled 45 minutes to meet me. I was quite confident she was into me and either DTF or down for some intimacy.
We met for a walk, she was a bit taller than me but cute. I didn't really care and we started talking about life and shit like that. She responded well to light kino and actually initiated it herself a few times.
I felt my brain was quite slow that night and my game was very sloppy. I wasn't leading her well and wasn't really thinking about the path to take, which led us to having to stupidly change direction a few times and her actually suggesting to walk in a certain direction. Eye contact was strong and I assumed she would come back to mine.
My brain wasn't working and I stupidly suggested having some wine outside, then realized we would need to get glasses and that she might have to go too soon to take her back after the wine, so I actually changed my mind and said we should go to my place instead. It felt very sloppy and not natural. She said "I'm not coming back to yours, but I'm down to have a drink outside". At this point I felt like I had fucked up because I had suggested the drink outside to begin with, then ate my own words, and now she could sense I wasn't actually leading and was just winging it. The best course of action would have been to tell her something like "that's fine, but thinking about it again I'd really rather be inside but we can keep that for another night if you need to go".
Instead, I kept pushing and trying to convince her like an idiot. At one point she told me that if she came home with me she wouldn't be able to resist me and she didn't want to do that on the first date. I could have said something like "it doesn't sound like a bad thing at all, but I'm not in a hurry to get physical", instead I erroneously interpreted her words as LMR and tried to push her to come over again. She said "no" again and I... I tried to kiss her. I really don't know what I was thinking. I have never been so sloppy/autistic before.
I think I was so convinced she wanted to fuck me that I just could not compute why she wouldn't come back home with me and as a way of getting proof that she was into me I went for the kiss to actually get some proof that my assumptions were correct. I'm a fucking retarded autistic robot. Of course she rejected the kiss, and again I thought she was just shy and that she couldn't reject me as she was into me, so I tried to KISS HER AGAIN, this time grabbing her neck and pulling her in a bit.
She backed off and said something like "I have to go now, but I had fun on the walk. I hope you're not the kind of person that doesn't want to see me again if we didn't sleep on the first date" which made me think that she was keen to go on a second date. The day after I contacted her, and when she read my message she blocked me on WhatsApp. Then I went full autistic mode and messaged her, and she actually replied. Here's the cringeworthy spew that came out of my autistic coomer robot brain:
Me:
Her:
Me:
Her:
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Her:
Context:
19 year old girl met off Tinder, she was quite direct with her messages complimenting my photos and body. She agreed to meet the same night we matched, and travelled 45 minutes to meet me. I was quite confident she was into me and either DTF or down for some intimacy.
We met for a walk, she was a bit taller than me but cute. I didn't really care and we started talking about life and shit like that. She responded well to light kino and actually initiated it herself a few times.
I felt my brain was quite slow that night and my game was very sloppy. I wasn't leading her well and wasn't really thinking about the path to take, which led us to having to stupidly change direction a few times and her actually suggesting to walk in a certain direction. Eye contact was strong and I assumed she would come back to mine.
My brain wasn't working and I stupidly suggested having some wine outside, then realized we would need to get glasses and that she might have to go too soon to take her back after the wine, so I actually changed my mind and said we should go to my place instead. It felt very sloppy and not natural. She said "I'm not coming back to yours, but I'm down to have a drink outside". At this point I felt like I had fucked up because I had suggested the drink outside to begin with, then ate my own words, and now she could sense I wasn't actually leading and was just winging it. The best course of action would have been to tell her something like "that's fine, but thinking about it again I'd really rather be inside but we can keep that for another night if you need to go".
Instead, I kept pushing and trying to convince her like an idiot. At one point she told me that if she came home with me she wouldn't be able to resist me and she didn't want to do that on the first date. I could have said something like "it doesn't sound like a bad thing at all, but I'm not in a hurry to get physical", instead I erroneously interpreted her words as LMR and tried to push her to come over again. She said "no" again and I... I tried to kiss her. I really don't know what I was thinking. I have never been so sloppy/autistic before.
I think I was so convinced she wanted to fuck me that I just could not compute why she wouldn't come back home with me and as a way of getting proof that she was into me I went for the kiss to actually get some proof that my assumptions were correct. I'm a fucking retarded autistic robot. Of course she rejected the kiss, and again I thought she was just shy and that she couldn't reject me as she was into me, so I tried to KISS HER AGAIN, this time grabbing her neck and pulling her in a bit.
She backed off and said something like "I have to go now, but I had fun on the walk. I hope you're not the kind of person that doesn't want to see me again if we didn't sleep on the first date" which made me think that she was keen to go on a second date. The day after I contacted her, and when she read my message she blocked me on WhatsApp. Then I went full autistic mode and messaged her, and she actually replied. Here's the cringeworthy spew that came out of my autistic coomer robot brain:
Me:
Her:
Me:
Her:
Me:
Her: