My ego/pride is ruining my life, but without it, I don’t know who I am

[maxilofailo]

INCOMING RANT

for the past few years my ego and pride have grown to earth shattering levels
I believe that I was chosen by God (jehova) for a special purpose

To bring peace to the world through chaos and destruction suffering pain and death (in Roblox jfl)

I fully believe this now
How can I not
Knowing everything about BP lookism
It just confirmed these beliefs

I aspire to be characters such as Macbeth, Paul Atredis, Eren Yeager, Anakin Skywalker

Fallen Angels because that’s what I am
I always believe in God from childhood till now
I still believe in God
But with the BP knowledge and lookism
It’s as though he’s cursed me
He created me to be hated and to spread hate

I feel so much hate inside mysef
Hate for me hate for them hate for you
Hate for everyone and everything tbh

Anger and sadness are basically all I ever feel
And people have told me to humble myself
But I cant
Because if I throw away ego and pride
What will I have left?
I don’t know who I am without those things

I’m 18 but I’m at the edge of being ready to just throw it all away
I mean what else is there to live for anyway if I don’t have Tyrone level genes

Fucking over bro

 

[maxilofailo]

not a molecule

 

[Samsepioler]

Hey man.

Ward needs more based people like you

 

[maxilofailo]

Hey man.

Ward needs more based people like you

Are you trying to call me crazy?

 

[5.5psl]

Do lsd you'll be good. Ego will completely shatter

 

[Primalsplit]

Hey man.

Ward needs more based people like you

Let's all say hello to @maxilofailo

Hi @maxilofailo

 

[maxilofailo]

Do lsd you'll be good. Ego will completely shatter

I don’t even know if my ego shattering would be good

 

[Samsepioler]

Let's all say hello to @maxilofailo

Hi @maxilofailo Welcome to mumbai

 

[Pikabro]

Mental illness

 

[wsada]

Dawg thinks he's Vegeta

 

[blondepersonreal]

“I aspire to be eren yeager”