Please help me

[Jesus_ist_König]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

 

[sonic55555]

i have no idea

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

'm sorry you're going through this. What you're describe is not something I'd consider a typical side effect of ADHD alone, and it deserves prompt evaluation by a medical professional.
Some possibilities (not a diagnosis) include:

• A psychotic episode (or psychotic symptoms), which can involve hearing voices, seeing or sensing people who aren't there, feeling intensely paranoid, and having difficulty distinguishing what's real.
• A severe anxiety or panic episode with dissociation, where someone may freeze, stare, cry, make involuntary sounds, or feel detached from reality. However, this alone doesn't usually explain voices or vivid visions.
• A medication-related reaction. Stimulants like Vyvanse (called Elvanse in many countries) can, in some people, trigger psychotic symptoms, severe anxiety, or obsessive intrusive thoughts—even at prescribed doses. This is uncommon but well recognized. Guanfacine is much less likely to cause these symptoms by itself.
• Another psychiatric or neurological condition that needs assessment.

A few things stand out in what you wrote:

• Feeling like someone is around the corner wanting to kill you sounds like paranoid thinking or a hallucination/illusion.
• Wanting to talk to voices or imaginary people, even if the voices are silent, is something a clinician would want to know about.
• Biting your hand, collapsing to the floor, staring for long periods, and making meaningless sounds could happen during periods of overwhelming distress, but they also warrant medical evaluation.
• You also mention strong urges to do things that go completely against your beliefs. Those could be intrusive thoughts (which occur in conditions like OCD), but because they're happening alongside the other symptoms you listed, they shouldn't be assumed to be OCD without an assessment.

What I think would help​

• Contact the doctor who prescribes your ADHD medication as soon as possible (today if possible, or the next business day). Tell them exactly what you wrote here. If these symptoms started after starting or increasing Vyvanse/Elvanse, tell them that too.
• If this is happening right now, or if you think you might act on the urges, or the visions/voices become more convincing or frightening, go to the nearest emergency department or call your local emergency services immediately. This is something that should be assessed urgently.
• Until you've spoken with a clinician, try not to be alone if you're feeling very frightened or worried you might lose control. If there's someone you trust, let them know what's happening.

Can I ask two questions that would help narrow things down?

1. Did these episodes start before you began Vyvanse/Elvanse, or only after starting it or increasing the dose?
2. During these episodes, do you still know that the person behind the corner and the voices probably aren't real, or do they feel completely real at the time?

Even without those answers, I think the combination of paranoia, voices/imaginary people, extreme distress, and unusual behaviors is enough that you should be evaluated by a healthcare professional promptly rather than trying to manage it on your own.

 

[yyk117]

'm sorry you're going through this. What you're describe is not something I'd consider a typical side effect of ADHD alone, and it deserves prompt evaluation by a medical professional.
Some possibilities (not a diagnosis) include:

• A psychotic episode (or psychotic symptoms), which can involve hearing voices, seeing or sensing people who aren't there, feeling intensely paranoid, and having difficulty distinguishing what's real.
• A severe anxiety or panic episode with dissociation, where someone may freeze, stare, cry, make involuntary sounds, or feel detached from reality. However, this alone doesn't usually explain voices or vivid visions.
• A medication-related reaction. Stimulants like Vyvanse (called Elvanse in many countries) can, in some people, trigger psychotic symptoms, severe anxiety, or obsessive intrusive thoughts—even at prescribed doses. This is uncommon but well recognized. Guanfacine is much less likely to cause these symptoms by itself.
• Another psychiatric or neurological condition that needs assessment.

A few things stand out in what you wrote:

• Feeling like someone is around the corner wanting to kill you sounds like paranoid thinking or a hallucination/illusion.
• Wanting to talk to voices or imaginary people, even if the voices are silent, is something a clinician would want to know about.
• Biting your hand, collapsing to the floor, staring for long periods, and making meaningless sounds could happen during periods of overwhelming distress, but they also warrant medical evaluation.
• You also mention strong urges to do things that go completely against your beliefs. Those could be intrusive thoughts (which occur in conditions like OCD), but because they're happening alongside the other symptoms you listed, they shouldn't be assumed to be OCD without an assessment.

What I think would help​

• Contact the doctor who prescribes your ADHD medication as soon as possible (today if possible, or the next business day). Tell them exactly what you wrote here. If these symptoms started after starting or increasing Vyvanse/Elvanse, tell them that too.
• If this is happening right now, or if you think you might act on the urges, or the visions/voices become more convincing or frightening, go to the nearest emergency department or call your local emergency services immediately. This is something that should be assessed urgently.
• Until you've spoken with a clinician, try not to be alone if you're feeling very frightened or worried you might lose control. If there's someone you trust, let them know what's happening.

Can I ask two questions that would help narrow things down?

1. Did these episodes start before you began Vyvanse/Elvanse, or only after starting it or increasing the dose?
2. During these episodes, do you still know that the person behind the corner and the voices probably aren't real, or do they feel completely real at the time?

Even without those answers, I think the combination of paranoia, voices/imaginary people, extreme distress, and unusual behaviors is enough that you should be evaluated by a healthcare professional promptly rather than trying to manage it on your own.

if this is a joke you're a terrible person. if you're serious you are retarded because op also has access to chatgpt.

 

[iwannasleeponurlap]

if this is a joke you're a terrible person. if you're serious you are retarded because op also has access to chatgpt.

Ya but he didnt ask chatgpt. None of us know what to do

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

if this is a joke you're a terrible person. if you're serious you are retarded because op also has access to chatgpt.

Ya but he didnt ask chatgpt. None of us know what to do

Dude it’s either

Nothing
Psychosis
Panic attack
Psychosis + panic attack
Or I don’t know

I will write my psychologist

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

@Drib

 

[lenvoalt]

What happened to the dude bro
When I first joined, he was like normal now he’s like gone fully schizo

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

'm sorry you're going through this. What you're describe is not something I'd consider a typical side effect of ADHD alone, and it deserves prompt evaluation by a medical professional.
Some possibilities (not a diagnosis) include:

• A psychotic episode (or psychotic symptoms), which can involve hearing voices, seeing or sensing people who aren't there, feeling intensely paranoid, and having difficulty distinguishing what's real.
• A severe anxiety or panic episode with dissociation, where someone may freeze, stare, cry, make involuntary sounds, or feel detached from reality. However, this alone doesn't usually explain voices or vivid visions.
• A medication-related reaction. Stimulants like Vyvanse (called Elvanse in many countries) can, in some people, trigger psychotic symptoms, severe anxiety, or obsessive intrusive thoughts—even at prescribed doses. This is uncommon but well recognized. Guanfacine is much less likely to cause these symptoms by itself.
• Another psychiatric or neurological condition that needs assessment.

A few things stand out in what you wrote:

• Feeling like someone is around the corner wanting to kill you sounds like paranoid thinking or a hallucination/illusion.
• Wanting to talk to voices or imaginary people, even if the voices are silent, is something a clinician would want to know about.
• Biting your hand, collapsing to the floor, staring for long periods, and making meaningless sounds could happen during periods of overwhelming distress, but they also warrant medical evaluation.
• You also mention strong urges to do things that go completely against your beliefs. Those could be intrusive thoughts (which occur in conditions like OCD), but because they're happening alongside the other symptoms you listed, they shouldn't be assumed to be OCD without an assessment.

What I think would help​

• Contact the doctor who prescribes your ADHD medication as soon as possible (today if possible, or the next business day). Tell them exactly what you wrote here. If these symptoms started after starting or increasing Vyvanse/Elvanse, tell them that too.
• If this is happening right now, or if you think you might act on the urges, or the visions/voices become more convincing or frightening, go to the nearest emergency department or call your local emergency services immediately. This is something that should be assessed urgently.
• Until you've spoken with a clinician, try not to be alone if you're feeling very frightened or worried you might lose control. If there's someone you trust, let them know what's happening.

Can I ask two questions that would help narrow things down?

1. Did these episodes start before you began Vyvanse/Elvanse, or only after starting it or increasing the dose?
2. During these episodes, do you still know that the person behind the corner and the voices probably aren't real, or do they feel completely real at the time?

Even without those answers, I think the combination of paranoia, voices/imaginary people, extreme distress, and unusual behaviors is enough that you should be evaluated by a healthcare professional promptly rather than trying to manage it on your own.

if this is a joke you're a terrible person. if you're serious you are retarded because op also has access to chatgpt.

Okay if i tell it to my psychologist, there is no more a lower chance, the chances that I will get put in a ward are id say like 40%. If i tell it to her i doubt that there is a going back.

But I think i should tell her, its more rational to tell her and prevent me from sinning

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

What happened to the dude bro
When I first joined, he was like normal now he’s like gone fully schizo

dude read my february posts from feb 26
it was always there

 

[D69mo]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

Im not gonna help you jesus could tho

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Im not gonna help you jesus could tho

Yes I prayed and did the Jesus Prayer

 

[lenvoalt]

dude read my february posts from feb 26
it was always there

No, I was talking about back in like December 2025 when I first joined and we started talking
Also, don’t worry, I have the exact same things as you

 

[Drib]

I’m no expert but I’d say stick with ur plan and dumb down the extremity of ur side effects to her. Ask her what you should do if they continue to get worse (the state u are already in) or just talk to her in general

 

[D69mo]

Yes I prayed and did the Jesus Prayer

What did jesus tell you

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I’m no expert but I’d say stick with ur plan and dumb down the extremity of ur side effects to her. Ask her what you should do if they continue to get worse (the state u are already in) or just talk to her in general

Okay Im just afraid that I will get put in a psych ward.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

What did jesus tell you

he doesnt answer with words
I havent seen anything now

 

[D69mo]

he doesnt answer with words
I havent seen anything now

Then who are you praying to

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Im more calmer now but im still in that flow state mode.
Everything feels so wavy, and im staring, im not using my eyes as normal, they are open, wide open, and stare, they dont move, my head moves

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Then who are you praying to

The father. Just cuz he doesnt answer in words, doesnt mean that he wont help me, he works in secret so that the ones with a soft heart feel him. For example I prayed for my health situation to get better and today i feel much better

 

[yyk117]

Okay if i tell it to my psychologist, there is no more a lower chance, the chances that I will get put in a ward are id say like 40%. If i tell it to her i doubt that there is a going back.

But I think i should tell her, its more rational to tell her and prevent me from sinning

if you don't tell her there is a risk that you will do something that the feelings are telling you to. maybe wait till the next appointment if its not too far away.

 

[Don_and-idk]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

Bro i dont rlly underrstand what are the voices..?

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Bro i dont rlly underrstand what are the voices..?

The voices are currently secondary its more about this tsunami full of emotions hitting me, i dont know what it is.

I dont like ppl, so i started to talk to an imaginary friend i made and after some weeks everything became independent and I started to hear voices that i never created. At the end it turned out that they were larping to be nice to me and hated me and had evil plans against me

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

And now im as calm as if nothing has happened i dont get this shit anymore

 

[Don_and-idk]

The voices are currently secondary its more about this tsunami full of emotions hitting me, i dont know what it is.

I dont like ppl, so i started to talk to an imaginary friend i made and after some weeks everything became independent and I started to hear voices that i never created. At the end it turned out that they were larping to be nice to me and hated me and had evil plans against me

Damn i didnt know loneliness could cause this much of damage imo, i hope ur good bro

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Damn i didnt know loneliness could cause this much of damage imo, i hope ur good bro

Its weird. I like being alone, but sometimes i get lonely, but i dont seek human interaction whilst being lonely, so i tried to fix it.

 

[Don_and-idk]

Its weird. I like being alone, but sometimes i get lonely, but i dont seek human interaction whilst being lonely, so i tried to fix it.

Ahh so ur trying to get NT with vyvanse?

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Ahh so ur trying to get NT with vyvanse?

I will never become NT but im trying to minimize the effects.

 

[HexumReincarnated]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

If you are planning a massacre or something, don’t do it, bro.

Talk to your parents and get medicated.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

If you are planning a massacre or something, don’t do it, bro.

Im not

Talk to your parents and get medicated.

I did but they dont give that much of a fuck
but i wrote my psychologist

 

[HexumReincarnated]

And if you could put into a psych ward so be it’s not as bad as you think you just feel droopy for the first couple days that like you have oatmeal brain life is simple and you cannot hurt anybody.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

And if you could put into a psych ward so be it’s not as bad as you think you just feel droopy for the first couple days that like you have oatmeal brain life is simple and you cannot hurt anybody.

The thing is i already know the game, psychologist wont help me, only God can, i just need to get closer to God. Im afraid that the problem wont go away with a psych ward

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

And if you could put into a psych ward so be it’s not as bad as you think you just feel droopy for the first couple days that like you have oatmeal brain life is simple and you cannot hurt anybody.

bro i just i want to stop getting these waves, i want to have a simple boring day

 

[HexumReincarnated]

The thing is i already know the game, psychologist wont help me, only God can, i just need to get closer to God. Im afraid that the problem wont go away with a psych ward

There is no god man I was Catholic for 10 years up until two weeks ago when I realised I’m a slave in worshipping a Jew.

Praise the sun

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

There is no god man I was Catholic for 10 years up until two weeks ago when I realised I’m a slave in worshipping a Jew.

Praise the sun

I believe in Christ

 

[HexumReincarnated]

I believe in Christ

So did I bro I went to church on my own. Nobody in my family is religious. I got baptised by myself. I worship God went to church every Easter the whole day.

Until two weeks ago I realise there is no God and to just live your life to the fullest.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

@jdofh das war vorhin heute

 

[vigor]

I’m on 30 mg Vyvanse/Elvanse and 3 mg guanfacine and still this happens too me and has happened 5 minutes ago and now:

1. I get unbearably strong desires to do certain stuff that heavily goes against the law and my belief
2. I start to cry and fall on the ground and lay there
3. I stare at things for long periods of times
4. I start making sounds that have no meaning
5. I start to bite my hand
6. I get visions that behind the corner is standing someone that wants to kill me
7. I get desires to talk to one of the voices/imaginary ppl I know
8. The voices are silent and say nothing
9. I get really scared and really stressed

No I won’t elaborate on what that “certain stuff” is.

My question is if someone somehow knows what I’m experiencing. It really draining, I don’t want to have it. It comes and goes and comes.

just say what you think it might is or what could help with it
@iwannasleeponurlap @HexumReincarnated @yyk117 @Lamskiiii @sonic55555

I don’t think this is the vysanse, i take it and I get none of this
You seem to be psychotic/schizophrenic unfortunately
You haven’t really got many good options its just very bad luck. Either you go to a psych ward and get put on antipsychotics that might work and make you feel like a zombie, or you don’t and eventually ruin your life/do something horrible

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I don’t think this is the vysanse, i take it and I get none of this
You seem to be psychotic/schizophrenic unfortunately
You haven’t really got many good options its just very bad luck. Either you go to a psych ward and get put on antipsychotics that might work and make you feel like a zombie,

or you don’t and eventually ruin your life/do something horrible

im scared of that, i dont want that to happen, it would put me far away from God

 

[vigor]

im scared of that, i dont want that to happen, it would put me far away from God

If you want to try to battle this without antipsychotics your best bet is just devote yourself to religious asceticism
Do you have self control? Maybe become a monk or something, that kind of environment might be good for you if you could follow the rules

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I don’t think this is the vysanse, i take it and I get none of this
You seem to be psychotic/schizophrenic unfortunately

I always wanted that, I loved and love diagnoses, but now its not that funny anymore

You haven’t really got many good options its just very bad luck. Either you go to a psych ward and get put on antipsychotics that might work and make you feel like a zombie, or you don’t and eventually ruin your life/do something horrible

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

If you want to try to battle this without antipsychotics your best bet is just devote yourself to religious asceticism
Do you have self control? Maybe become a monk or something, that kind of environment might be good for you if you could follow the rules

My friend is becoming a monk this year he is around my age. but i think i should do smth more like math or physics, smth i have been called to. I believe in God and if I dont treat this stuff then i will do satanic stuff, i dont want to leave God. I dont know how to solve this, the only solution is God, i have been praying.

Psychologists are just a meme. Ive been in the game for 12 years

 

[vigor]

My friend is becoming a monk this year he is around my age. but i think i should do smth more like math or physics, smth i have been called to. I believe in God and if I dont treat this stuff then i will do satanic stuff, i dont want to leave God. I dont know how to solve this, the only solution is God, i have been praying.

Psychologists are just a meme. Ive been in the game for 12 years

I’m sorry dude but you are battling a disease and you aren’t going to be able to fight it within the freedom and chaos of a normal lifestyle

Either you’ll need some form of extreme structure like monasticism, or some form of pharmaceutical assistance

Otherwise your brain will play tricks on you and it will only get worse

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I’m sorry dude but you are battling a disease and you aren’t going to be able to fight it within the freedom and chaos of a normal lifestyle

Either you’ll need some form of extreme structure like monasticism, or some form of pharmaceutical assistance

Otherwise your brain will play tricks on you and it will only get worse

Okay okay but i havent been diagnosed yet. there might be a chance that its nothing and im just lying to myself and describing it way more vivic than it actually is, i would like to get a psychosis diagnosis, but i dont like having psychosis i just want that fucking title, it feels like an award, to be more exotic, but i dont actually want the illness.

okay dude fuck this im crying, is it really over if i have psychosis? arent there any successfull ppl with psychosis?

 

[vigor]

Okay okay but i havent been diagnosed yet. there might be a chance that its nothing and im just lying to myself and describing it way more vivic than it actually is, i would like to get a psychosis diagnosis, but i dont like having psychosis i just want that fucking title, it feels like an award, to be more exotic, but i dont actually want the illness

With all due respect dude I’ve seen a lot of your posts and you definitely have something real
Definitelt psychosis and probably paranoid schizophrenia among other things

okay dude fuck this im crying, is it really over if i have psychosis? arent there any successfull ppl with psychosis?

Most geniuses were mad. The thing is, you very much can achieve great things, greater even than most sane people by utilising your unique experience of the world that they just don’t get. The problem is that most of their lives ended in tragedy- suicide, violence, self harm premature death etc

Vincent Van Gogh, Isaac Newton, John Nash.. brilliance is rarely without madness

 

[vigor]

With all due respect dude I’ve seen a lot of your posts and you definitely have something real
Definitelt psychosis and probably paranoid schizophrenia among other things


Most geniuses were mad. The thing is, you very much can achieve great things, greater even than most sane people by utilising your unique experience of the world that they just don’t get. The problem is that most of their lives ended in tragedy- suicide, violence, self harm premature death etc

Vincent Van Gogh, Isaac Newton, John Nash.. brilliance is rarely without madness

semi-related but this made me cage

In Santa Monica, California, in 1954, while in his 20s, Nash was arrested for indecent exposure in a sting operation targeting gay men.[81]Although the charges were dropped, he was stripped of his top-secret security clearance and fired from RAND Corporation, where he had worked as a consultant.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

With all due respect dude I’ve seen a lot of your posts and you definitely have something real
Definitelt psychosis and probably paranoid schizophrenia among other things


Most geniuses were mad. The thing is, you very much can achieve great things, greater even than most sane people by utilising your unique experience of the world that they just don’t get. The problem is that most of their lives ended in tragedy- suicide, violence, self harm premature death etc

Vincent Van Gogh, Isaac Newton, John Nash.. brilliance is rarely without madness

My math teacher said that im extremely gifted in maths, then i go do a fucking iq test (professional one) and end up being average.

My math teacher said that because? i dont know why. My grades in math are really shit, i score average or below average because i dont do the school stuff, im 3 months behind but i think its pretty good to score average being 3 months behind, but my class aint the best in math i gotta say.

Anyways, why am i so far back in math? because of the absence of my adhd meds and the voices, now i take my adhd meds and the voices are gone but now i get these fucking monsters i see and panicking and what the fuck else. All this, all this has been absolutely raping my life and productivity. I dont know if you know Terry A. Davis, i like him a lot. Anyways he was severly schizo, yet managed to do stuff you need a whole microsoft, ubisoft, google team for to do. He wrote like 10k lines of code and was obsessed with coding templeOS.

I cant see that in myself. As i described above, this stuff doesnt turn me into fucking newton the other way around, it makes me LDAR. How am i supposed to do math when i need to be prepared to fight the home indruder that is one corner around inb4 i behead him.

And besides that i need to get this under control, its not in my interest to be in the fucking newspaper

Regarding what you said i see it, Terry A. Davis died from a train, obviously he committed suicide... RIP

I have been suicidal since 2025 because i took atomoxetine and its an cappa opioid agonist or smth and can induce depression, but dude its fucking waves. In the morning im in Ponyville and at night im in mexico getting my heart gored out

And then its hard to i dont know, to stay focused on smth and be productive. I even told my parents (only about the voices) and they still think that my grades are bad cuz of "laziness".

What would you do to make this become a superpower?
What did Newton have?

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

semi-related but this made me cage

In Santa Monica, California, in 1954, while in his 20s, Nash was arrested for indecent exposure in a sting operation targeting gay men.[81]Although the charges were dropped, he was stripped of his top-secret security clearance and fired from RAND Corporation, where he had worked as a consultant.

I dont get all of this who is this?

 

[vigor]

My math teacher said that im extremely gifted in maths, then i go do a fucking iq test (professional one) and end up being average.

My math teacher said that because? i dont know why. My grades in math are really shit, i score average or below average because i dont do the school stuff, im 3 months behind but i think its pretty good to score average being 3 months behind, but my class aint the best in math i gotta say.

Anyways, why am i so far back in math? because of the absence of my adhd meds and the voices, now i take my adhd meds and the voices are gone but now i get these fucking monsters i see and panicking and what the fuck else. All this, all this has been absolutely raping my life and productivity. I dont know if you know Terry A. Davis, i like him a lot. Anyways he was severly schizo, yet managed to do stuff you need a whole microsoft, ubisoft, google team for to do. He wrote like 10k lines of code and was obsessed with coding templeOS.

yeah i love terry he was the goat
sadly his life ended in tragedy too
very gifted man

but yeah with regards to your meds you’re in an unfortunate situation. drugs will interact weirdly with psychosis and stimulants can absolutely make it worse.

I cant see that in myself. As i described above, this stuff doesnt turn me into fucking newton the other way around, it makes me LDAR. How am i supposed to do math when i need to be prepared to fight the home indruder that is one corner around inb4 i behead him.

And besides that i need to get this under control, its not in my interest to be in the fucking newspaper

Regarding what you said i see it, Terry A. Davis died from a train, obviously he committed suicide... RIP

I have been suicidal since 2025 because i took atomoxetine and its an cappa opioid agonist or smth and can induce depression, but dude its fucking waves. In the morning im in Ponyville and at night im in mexico getting my heart gored out

And then its hard to i dont know, to stay focused on smth and be productive. I even told my parents (only about the voices) and they still think that my grades are bad cuz of "laziness".

What would you do to make this become a superpower?
What did Newton have?

Newton had bipolar, he had long periods of manic depression and then periods of insane productivity. Maybe not the same as being schizo but a lot of your symptoms do seem like mania which is common in psychosis.

Geniuses are often insane because psychosis in a way allows us to access cognitive abilities we normally don’t have access to. Unwavering motivation and productivity for days on end, abstract thought processes that hold solutions to mathematical problems, compulsions and inclinations that end up being prophetic etc

You really just need to point yourself in the right direction such that you use whatever periods of brilliance you get to create something wonderful, and have enough of a support network around you to stop yourself ruining your life when things get bad

 

[vigor]

I dont get all of this who is this?

John Nash, schizophrenic nobel prize winning mathematician