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So about 2-3 weeks ago I asked @vaninskybird a bunch of questions related to mbti tests and to try to guess my mbti type.
He got mad at me after I kept asking him a bunch of questions and did something pretty immature.
When I eventually got frustrated after he couldn't give me an answer, I just resorted to calling him stupid for wasting my time, but I should've realized then that the only reason he couldn't give me an answer was just because he didn't know me well enough.
It was wrong of me to do that and just not very fair at all, so for that I'm sorry.
Honestly, I'm simply trying to sift through all the noise trying to find -trying to remember- what my original purpose in life was, and what I really even wanted to do with my life in the very first place.
Because my life as it is right now is an assorted mix of all my various mistakes, ones I have yet to actually make right.
This is no different, just another one of my dozens upon dozens of mistakes weighing me down, so I knew I had to make this right and apologize.
Which is why a few days after that I tried to PM him to apologize because I realized I was in the wrong and he really just didn't know enough about me to make an accurate guess, but he put me on ignore and I'm not sure if he even got to see it.
I wanted to keep this private because it's really just between me and him, but a few days or maybe even a week after that I tried PMing two other people [@averagejoe and @6ft4] who I thought he'd be more receptive to hearing from to try to tell him this, but I never found out if anything really even came of that either.
Since this thread is more serious it lacks my usual flair and "style" so here's a TL;DR-
Look, I could've just forgotten about all of this thinking of it as being no more than another one of the many wastes of my time, and let this simmer only to potentially further grow into something ugly.
However, I decided not to ignore this simply because I recognize how I'd be a hypocrite in wanting to fix life's mistakes if I didn't actually try to do that, even with the small ones.
I really do want to hold myself more responsible for owing up to and fixing them.
I admitted what I did was wrong and apologized because I really meant it, but this now tells me that neither of them really even bothered to tell him, or they really did and @vaninskybird just doesn't care and still holds some petty grudge against me.
I don't want to start resorting to some petty e-drama like some aspie on reddit or holding some grudge with someone on a forum like this just because they called me names or some shit, but if that's what you really want then you can go ahead and do it by yourself because I'm not going to bark for you.
And if that's really the case here though then okay, he has that right and I'm not going to pursue this any further as then it really would be a just waste of both our time, and I don't have much of it left.
He got mad at me after I kept asking him a bunch of questions and did something pretty immature.
When I eventually got frustrated after he couldn't give me an answer, I just resorted to calling him stupid for wasting my time, but I should've realized then that the only reason he couldn't give me an answer was just because he didn't know me well enough.
It was wrong of me to do that and just not very fair at all, so for that I'm sorry.
Honestly, I'm simply trying to sift through all the noise trying to find -trying to remember- what my original purpose in life was, and what I really even wanted to do with my life in the very first place.
Because my life as it is right now is an assorted mix of all my various mistakes, ones I have yet to actually make right.
This is no different, just another one of my dozens upon dozens of mistakes weighing me down, so I knew I had to make this right and apologize.
Which is why a few days after that I tried to PM him to apologize because I realized I was in the wrong and he really just didn't know enough about me to make an accurate guess, but he put me on ignore and I'm not sure if he even got to see it.
I'm not usually good at saying sorry, or really even expressing the way I feel appropriately, but I know I should when I do something wrong.
I'm sorry for being rude to you the other day and unnecessarily annoying, I got really carried away and impatient with you when I should've known better.
You told me multiple times you didn't know enough about me to give me an accurate guess for my type yet I kept insisting and it was wrong for me to do that.
I should also focus on more productive things than just starting random shit with niggas on this forum tbh ngl.
I wanted to keep this private because it's really just between me and him, but a few days or maybe even a week after that I tried PMing two other people [@averagejoe and @6ft4] who I thought he'd be more receptive to hearing from to try to tell him this, but I never found out if anything really even came of that either.
He got mad at me while back when I asked him a bunch of questions related to mbti tests and called him stupid when I got frustrated after he couldn't give me an answer, but the only reason he couldn't was just because he didn't know me well enough.
A few days after that I tried to PM him to apologize because I realized I was in the wrong and he really just didn't know, but he put me on ignore and I'm not sure if he even got to see it.
I just wanted to apologize because what I did clearly wasn't right and goes against my own beliefs.
I also don't want to get sucked into some petty edrama on a forum as toxic and addictive as this when I can just focus on actually looksmaxing instead.
Since this thread is more serious it lacks my usual flair and "style" so here's a TL;DR-
Look, I could've just forgotten about all of this thinking of it as being no more than another one of the many wastes of my time, and let this simmer only to potentially further grow into something ugly.
However, I decided not to ignore this simply because I recognize how I'd be a hypocrite in wanting to fix life's mistakes if I didn't actually try to do that, even with the small ones.
I really do want to hold myself more responsible for owing up to and fixing them.
I admitted what I did was wrong and apologized because I really meant it, but this now tells me that neither of them really even bothered to tell him, or they really did and @vaninskybird just doesn't care and still holds some petty grudge against me.
I don't want to start resorting to some petty e-drama like some aspie on reddit or holding some grudge with someone on a forum like this just because they called me names or some shit, but if that's what you really want then you can go ahead and do it by yourself because I'm not going to bark for you.
And if that's really the case here though then okay, he has that right and I'm not going to pursue this any further as then it really would be a just waste of both our time, and I don't have much of it left.