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Kraken
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I’m a nerd girl and my boyfriend is a loud gregarious party animal. He is funny, handsome and charming.
He cheated on me with another party girl and I’m devastated. He said he wanted to get married and spend the rest of his life with me. He pushed commitment.
Then I found out he was cheating.
At this point the pain is so bad I don’t want to experience any more. I don’t want to live with the worries and the triggers of his infidelity. I also don’t want to leave the man I love so much.
I know he wants to have sex with other women. I don’t want him to feel controlled. If I’m gone he’ll be able to sleep with anyone guilt-free.
I’m not a valuable person. I’m a back up/throwaway woman. I don’t matter and shouldn’t have been born. This is why none of my relationships worked out.
I’d also like to add that no one cares. My friends, family, therapist are tired of hearing about it. It doesn’t matter. I don’t matter.
He cheated on me with another party girl and I’m devastated. He said he wanted to get married and spend the rest of his life with me. He pushed commitment.
Then I found out he was cheating.
At this point the pain is so bad I don’t want to experience any more. I don’t want to live with the worries and the triggers of his infidelity. I also don’t want to leave the man I love so much.
I know he wants to have sex with other women. I don’t want him to feel controlled. If I’m gone he’ll be able to sleep with anyone guilt-free.
I’m not a valuable person. I’m a back up/throwaway woman. I don’t matter and shouldn’t have been born. This is why none of my relationships worked out.
I’d also like to add that no one cares. My friends, family, therapist are tired of hearing about it. It doesn’t matter. I don’t matter.