Might kill myself someday

[Gengar]

why don't you get a wageslave job and betabuxx for some used up LTB so you can at least spend your old age with someone? Better than to kill yourself alone, there are trucel tier guys and fat living in villages just spending their lives away with their wife, working on the garden and shit.

I don’t have a degree yet. Ideally, I want to spend my time with someone but I also don’t want children. And in my culture, women all want children. They’re basically brainwashed. Now, you can argue to get with someone who’s already had children but she will always think of her lovers before me, especially her first. That’s why I can’t go for anyone. And I’m too unattractive to be anyone’s first choice. I wanted to adopt an orphan, but raising a child by myself is going to have bad consequences for the child. They need both a mother figure and a father figure. I can’t provide them a mother figure, so it’s best to leave that alone. I could go for a pet, but pets die and I don’t want to cry every few years because my pet died. I’m a really sensitive person.

 

[Gengar]

how old are you?

I’m 27, I turn 28 by the end of this year, God-willing.

 

[JuicyCircleSack]

I don't have a reason to stay.

 

[robtical]

It is not bad to suicide if done considering all the options and coming to conclusion you do not want to put in effort or live the life of the options available. Majority of world is alive due to hope and not being able to take their own life.

 

[gigaslayer]

What are we supposed to tell you my friend

This is the last place you want to vent to about suicidal depressive thoughts

I hope something touches you emotionally and you are awakened and find a new purpose in life in the near future


But this place is a black hole of hope and positivity

Get out of here give your modship to someone else

It’s time to move on

 

[Gengar]

Stay closer to allah namaz everyday.

I don’t have the drive. Plus, I don’t believe God wants anything to do with me. Furthermore, I am in a constant state of janaba. Fapping is a good cope but having to do ghusl constantly is not possible for me. As I said.. I lack the drive. I just don’t see the point.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I'm not suicidal or anything. Far from it, actually. Just looking at this realistically. It just seems like an inevitable reality. I'm not talking anytime soon, I'm talking years from now. Decades, maybe. By that time, though, I will have been forgotten by people here, so that's good for two reasons. It means no one can feel bad for me nor can anyone celebrate it. I'll be forgotten in real life too, because I'm planning on moving to a new city someday, somewhere I've never been before.

I'm not the kind of person to talk about this stuff in real life. I'll just laugh, smile, make jokes you think aren't even funny. Or I'll be completely quiet. So I would never consider going into therapy or even talking to my friends about this. I just don't want any help. It's kind of funny because I'm often the guy who does help others. But I'm fine with that, I like helping others. I just don't like getting help in return. I don't know why, but I'm the same with gifts. I like giving them, but I don't want any myself. It's weird. I'm weird.

Serious replies only, I will be deleting troll posts. I never do this normally in my threads. Feel free to shitpost in the meantime, though, because I'll be making some chai first and then I'm gonna chill in the backyard and drink my chai in isolation. Then I gotta do some garden work since I haven't done it in a long while. I did a bit of it yesterday, but there was a wasp and I noped out.

c'mon bhai, y the depressed mood. I been lurking around here for years and see you in almost every thread, so I can vouch for the fact that you really do like helping others. At the end of the day, we all gonna die anyways. Life is short so stop worrying about useless things. Live a good life, and we'll get what we deserve in the afterlife. Instead of worrying about shi like canthal tilt and what not, stay true to Allah and find yourself a wife. I mean, we should be thanking Him that we are even alive. Life is a gift so appreciate and live it fully, if you are truly wise. I am no person to give advise, but think of the bounties you been given twice, if not thrice.


And I've always wanted to tell you, I'm the uglier pakistani version of adrien brody as well.

 

[Gengar]

What are we supposed to tell you my friend

This is the last place you want to vent to about suicidal depressive thoughts

I hope something touches you emotionally and you are awakened and find a new purpose in life in the near future


But this place is a black hole of hope and positivity

Get out of here give your modship to someone else

It’s time to move on

Just wanted to start a discussion of some sort, I suppose. Thanks for the well wishes though, much appreciated. As for being here, well, I like it here. I have been here far too long to get out now. Haha.

 

[Gengar]

i will never rope and when i'm about to die i will tobe and ask for allah forgiveness then say ashahdo allah etc, just in case 72 virgin JB in heaven is real.

Mirin sigma grind.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

I’m 27, I turn 28 by the end of this year, God-willing.

Sounds terrible. Im sorry for that bro. Do you have a job? A career or any means of supporting yourself financially? Do you have anyone to talk IRL like a friend or acquaintance?

 

[Gengar]

Hopefully mi have made my mind so much dependent on heught that i think if i reach my desired height i will never get depressed . I mean the only thing u do all day is stretching and breaking my back all day and sprinting 8 kilometers and in last 1.5 years i have spend every day in this room in a city alone and have not talked to anyone .my mind will be released from this cage after 1.5 years . I reached 5'11 from 5'6.5 it gives me immense dopamine and i think it will last forever if i reach my desired 6'3 . I wrote all this to say that if u reach an seemingly impossible goal then the dopamine and memory lasts really really long. I drink like 4 glasses of chai really gived good dopamine for whole day work . My whole life since last 2 years have revolved around height.

I feel you, man. I spend most of my time alone in my room. That’s because I’ve been NEETing for a long time. I’m going to college in two weeks or so, though, so that’s going to change. I’d rather stay at home though but I need an income to take care of myself haha. I also have memory problems, by the way. I only drink one cup of chai a day. I love chai. Just drank it in my backyard hours ago! Did some gardening work and damnit I started sweating. Most I’ve worked in a long time.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I don’t have the drive. Plus, I don’t believe God wants anything to do with me. Furthermore, I am in a constant state of janaba. Fapping is a good cope but having to do ghusl constantly is not possible for me. As I said.. I lack the drive. I just don’t see the point.

قُلۡ يَٰعِبَادِيَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَسۡرَفُواْ عَلَىٰٓ أَنفُسِهِمۡ لَا تَقۡنَطُواْ مِن رَّحۡمَةِ ٱللَّهِۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَغۡفِرُ ٱلذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًاۚ إِنَّهُۥ هُوَ ٱلۡغَفُورُ ٱلرَّحِيمُ
Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allāh. Indeed, Allāh forgives all sins.Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."

39:53

 

[gigaslayer]

Just wanted to start a discussion of some sort, I suppose. Thanks for the well wishes though, much appreciated. As for being here, well, I like it here. I have been here far too long to get out now. Haha.

No

Don’t like it here
Do not enjoy this place
It is most likely responsible for where you are
This is Stockholm Syndrome

The only way your life can change at this point is a violent and abrupt awakening

You need to be moved by force

Something out of your will

Please leave

I’m being serious

 

[Gengar]

Sounds terrible. Im sorry for that bro. Do you have a job? A career or any means of supporting yourself financially? Do you have anyone to talk IRL like a friend or acquaintance?

I don’t have a job. Or a career. Or an income. I don’t even have a degree. But I’m going to college in two weeks or so, I’ll get student loans. I do have friends to talk to, but I don’t like talking about myself the way I spoke here. Call it a toxic mindset, I suppose.

 

[robtical]

I don’t have a degree yet. Ideally, I want to spend my time with someone but I also don’t want children. And in my culture, women all want children. They’re basically brainwashed. Now, you can argue to get with someone who’s already had children but she will always think of her lovers before me, especially her first. That’s why I can’t go for anyone. And I’m too unattractive to be anyone’s first choice. I wanted to adopt an orphan, but raising a child by myself is going to have bad consequences for the child. They need both a mother figure and a father figure. I can’t provide them a mother figure, so it’s best to leave that alone. I could go for a pet, but pets die and I don’t want to cry every few years because my pet died. I’m a really sensitive person.

Use your foreign pakistani card to get a wife from pakistan. Adopt an orphan and raise it. Right now, people are legit trying to run away from pakistan. You can be hope for some foid.

 

[Gengar]

Dont kill yourself I think about it too sometimes allot actually just believe it will get better try to socialize maybe lose some weight talk with girls you can always send me in pm if you need somebody to talk with bhai

Thank you for the nice words brother. As for girls, they don’t like me since I’m facially unattractive. It sucks to hear you think about it yourself, I want to say you shouldn’t do that anymore. Sounds hypocritical coming from me but I like you, my friend, and I want to see you do well in life.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

i will never rope and when i'm about to die i will tobe and ask for allah forgiveness then say ashahdo allah etc, just in case 72 virgin JB in heaven is real.

I'm gonna return to being a hard core believer. Life has been shit ever since I started drifting away.

 

[Gengar]

So are you saying you wanna kkys coz you're bored and you feel your future is bleak? I can resonate with that 100%, the bleak future part. Shit's painful af.

Sounds about right. My future is bleak. I can’t say I’m bored, I’m rarely bored — if ever. I always find a nice way to pass the time. Whether it’s through listening to music, watching a tv show or a movie or fapping haha.

 

[Unhuman]

I don’t have a degree yet. Ideally, I want to spend my time with someone but I also don’t want children. And in my culture, women all want children. They’re basically brainwashed. Now, you can argue to get with someone who’s already had children but she will always think of her lovers before me, especially her first. That’s why I can’t go for anyone. And I’m too unattractive to be anyone’s first choice. I wanted to adopt an orphan, but raising a child by myself is going to have bad consequences for the child. They need both a mother figure and a father figure. I can’t provide them a mother figure, so it’s best to leave that alone. I could go for a pet, but pets die and I don’t want to cry every few years because my pet died. I’m a really sensitive person.

Why can’t you convince a woman from your culture to adopt a child?

 

[Greycel Slayer]

Hopefully mi have made my mind so much dependent on heught that i think if i reach my desired height i will never get depressed . I mean the only thing u do all day is stretching and breaking my back all day and sprinting 8 kilometers and in last 1.5 years i have spend every day in this room in a city alone and have not talked to anyone .my mind will be released from this cage after 1.5 years . I reached 5'11 from 5'6.5 it gives me immense dopamine and i think it will last forever if i reach my desired 6'3 . I wrote all this to say that if u reach an seemingly impossible goal then the dopamine and memory lasts really really long. I drink like 4 glasses of chai really gived good dopamine for whole day work . My whole life since last 2 years have revolved around height.

I feel u bro, how old r u? If ur below 18, you'll most likelly make it.

 

[Gengar]

I’m not gonna try and stop u from roping because ur situation is really bad and it’s bluepilled af to try and stop you. But in the meanwhile copemax with as much food, video games, etc. as possible and enjoy ur life to the fullest. Make sure u use up all ur money and even take a loan and spend it on things u enjoy. Take as much as possible before going, fuck the bank jews they can’t do shit after u rope.

Thanks man! Yeah I’m copemaxxing hard haha, that’s why I listen to music all the time. Or fap every night. Helps a lot too. I’m actually in a lot of debt but I plan to pay it back. I would feel bad if I didn’t.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

I don’t have a job. Or a career. Or an income. I don’t even have a degree. But I’m going to college in two weeks or so, I’ll get student loans. I do have friends to talk to, but I don’t like talking about myself the way I spoke here. Call it a toxic mindset, I suppose.

Look ur 27 but dont be discouraged from entering college, u will be in the minority in terms of age gap. There r also 30 year olds still in academia doing a phd. You should never consider quitting college in the meantime tho. Surely there might be brutal experiences but its for ur own good. You should meret new buddies in college aside from ur curtrent friends. im pretty sure u will exchange many similar topics together. Good luck w tha, sounds hard to go through but im pretty sure u will adapt tho. Also have you ever visited a professional and whats ur relationship with parents?

 

[Gengar]

Why can’t you convince a woman from your culture to adopt a child?

They get brainwashed from an early age. The rare few women who do not want children have been sexually abused and as awful as it is to say, people like that bring their own issues with them, baggage. That’s not a good combination when the other person (me) has some issues too (such as OCD).

 

[Gengar]

Yea life is kinda meaningless without a religion.

Very true.

 

[Gengar]

at least enjoy your life while time of you roping comes, or make a kid, they are pretty good at maintaining you alive

I don’t want children. This world is full of suffering. I want to end the cycle, not contribute to it. But if I had a child, I would never consider roping. I’m definitely going to enjoy living my life as much as I can. Music is a really good way to pass the time for me.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I used to be depressed. I’m empty these days. I don’t care about myself enough to live just for me.

read quran bro

 

[Gengar]

Haram

That’s true. But if one doesn’t pray, he will go to jahannam anyway. It makes no difference.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I don’t want children. This world is full of suffering. I want to end the cycle, not contribute to it. But if I had a child, I would never consider roping. I’m definitely going to enjoy living my life as much as I can. Music is a really good way to pass the time for me.

Why don't you want children? I mean teach em mewing at the age of 1, they'll become moggers jfl

 

[Gengar]

read quran bro

I have, it inspires me. But often it also saddens me as it details the kind of things I will be subjected to after death.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

I don’t want children. This world is full of suffering. I want to end the cycle, not contribute to it. But if I had a child, I would never consider roping. I’m definitely going to enjoy living my life as much as I can. Music is a really good way to pass the time for me.

u should travel around the world bro imagine

 

[Gengar]

Why don't you want children? I mean teach em mewing at the age of 1, they'll become moggers jfl

It says so in the post you’re quoting. I want to save them from any kind of harm. By not having them, I can do that in the best way possible.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

That’s true. But if one doesn’t pray, he will go to jahannam anyway. It makes no difference.

start praying man. I been lazy on my prayers and life instantly became shit.

 

[Gengar]

idk there are other options althought the ones users above recommend are bluepilled af and worse than kys

you can destine the rest of your life for things like doing risky activities which nobody else would do because most people think they have something to lose, offer yourself for scientifical advances, become gay and experience how cocks feel, go er with me etc. killing yourself is not funny at all and wouldn't recommend it to you

Haha. I wish I was gay, women are incredibly mean in my experience. Gay guys seem nicer as people.

 

[Gengar]

start praying man. I been lazy on my prayers and life instantly became shit.

If I pray or not, it makes no difference. I have had phases where I prayed five times a day. Nothing changed. I wish I was like others who felt instantly better and whatnot.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I don’t have a degree yet. Ideally, I want to spend my time with someone but I also don’t want children. And in my culture, women all want children. They’re basically brainwashed. Now, you can argue to get with someone who’s already had children but she will always think of her lovers before me, especially her first. That’s why I can’t go for anyone. And I’m too unattractive to be anyone’s first choice. I wanted to adopt an orphan, but raising a child by myself is going to have bad consequences for the child. They need both a mother figure and a father figure. I can’t provide them a mother figure, so it’s best to leave that alone. I could go for a pet, but pets die and I don’t want to cry every few years because my pet died. I’m a really sensitive person.

Bro start feeding orphans. Become a soldier of Allah and start making a difference. Walk on the path Islam has laid for you

 

[Gengar]

Have you thought about buying a dog or a cat? This cured many peoples depression

I love dogs. But it’s not compatible with my OCD. I have the germaphobic kind of OCD. And they walk outside on the streets with their paws. If I could carry them in a bag for the rest of their lives, I’d definitely get one. I’m not a fan of cats personally, though I do have a video of petting one. Wanna see it? It’s a nice cat. I just need to find a way to upload it here.

 

[Gengar]

Ill prolly kms at 35 simply because i dont see the point of life. I relate to u a lot bhai

If I have a piece of advice, it’d be to tell you to avoid just that. Sucks to hear you can relate. I wish you didn’t.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

If I pray or not, it makes no difference. I have had phases where I prayed five times a day. Nothing changed. I wish I was like others who felt instantly better and whatnot.

Bro do you wish to talk in private? Do you have discord or something?

 

[Gengar]

Same, that's what i think too. I won't rope today, i won't rope tomorrow but will probably do it in the far future. I see nothing good in the future.

This. That’s exactly what I’m saying here. I hope you get to live life until you reach your natural exit. This world needs a cockologist.

 

[Gengar]

Bro do you wish to talk in private? Do you have discord or something?

I do. It’s Michael Myers#0661. But I am fine, thank you for the offer but there’s no need for us to talk — because I pretty much said whatever I wanted to say here already. Though you can add me if you want to anyway!

 

[exo]

I WILL kill myself eventually. Going out on your own terms mogs all other death causes in terms of peacefulness

 

[Gengar]

Bro save some money we can have a tour in india together next year or a year after the upcoming

I would love to come, bhai. I’m definitely going to save up money for this.

 

[Gengar]

least nihilistic looksmaxxer

I don’t looksmax.

 

[Gengar]

Given that you are Muslim, you should know this is very haram. That will send you straight to Jahanam. By killing yourself you are destroying Allah's creation which is an insult to the will of Allah.

That’s true, but I also don’t pray and that’s also haram - in fact, not praying means not fulfilling one of the five pillars of Islam. Since I don’t pray, I’m going to hell anyway. By killing myself someday, if that ever happens, I am just speeding up that process. That’s my mindset. I get where you’re coming from though.

 

[Unhuman]

I don’t want children. This world is full of suffering. I want to end the cycle, not contribute to it. But if I had a child, I would never consider roping. I’m definitely going to enjoy living my life as much as I can. Music is a really good way to pass the time for me.

Very strong antinatalism vibes here.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I do. It’s Michael Myers#0661. But I am fine, thank you for the offer but there’s no need for us to talk — because I pretty much said whatever I wanted to say here already. Though you can add me if you want to anyway!

No brother. The thing is...I want to talk to you
You do not understand bro...I been lurking around here for quite a while and I would always see your posts. Reading and spotting your posts really made me cheer up for some reason. I would have that "I know this guy" moment everytime. I really didn't think I could ever talk to you like this

 

[aspiringexcel]

If I have a piece of advice, it’d be to tell you to avoid just that. Sucks to hear you can relate. I wish you didn’t.

Dont see the point of life in the far future* shouldve mentioned that JFL.

I am actually quite happy at my life even tho i am a subhuman, but i also know ill rope in 20-30 years.

 

[Gengar]

I know I will for sure. If tragedy strikes a loved one, I’m not strong enough to withstand the pain. I’ll take myself out of this life. Angus cloud type shit innjt

Aw man. Why do you think I was even depressed to begin with? I hope you never feel the loss of losing a loved one unexpectedly. It was never about girls for me. Though I did fall for a girl who had the same thing happen to her. But she ended up rejecting me. Liked her for many years. That was when I was at my lowest point in life. She’s engaged/married now. It’s like a heartbreak in a heartbreak. Inception type of shit innit.

 

[optimisticzoomer]

I often think how I may get euthanised age 60+
By that age I should've done most things I want to, and if I haven't, they probably won't happen, or I'll be too old to enjoy it properly.
But this depends if I have a partner or whatever I suppose, I mean I want that one day but none of my potential life plans include that possibility
Idk I think it's pointless to rope until you're at least past the median age of death of humans before medicine, around 40 or so. I think once you reach that age you can kind of say you completed life biologically

 

[JuicyCircleSack]

Meanwhile these chads enjoy their life