Might kill myself someday

[Greycel Slayer]

Yeah, I think I will be the butt of jokes, some people would be glad and celebrate. And then I’ll fade into obscurity whenever this forum gets shut down someday (by the admins’ choice).

daym bro, I wanna meet u now

 

[Gengar]

The face of depression. The worst part is, once you start having these thoughts they do not go away. They just fester and amplify with time. What you're thinking now to be a distant concept that you might engage with in the future, down the line, but definitely not now can soon become an all-consuming thought... At least that's how I felt at my lowest point in life, but we are all different.

I get it. I feel the same way you’re describing here. I don’t know if I consider myself to be depressed, though. Maybe I am. But I don’t feel that way, if that makes sense? Just contemplating life, I guess.

 

[Deleted member 3105]

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[Gengar]

You must create your own reason to live, no matter how arduous it may seem. Some were given a reason to live from the beginning and didn't need to seek one. You can create a reason out of anything, it can be as abstract as a dream or an archetype.

I don’t have any dreams to chase. You’re right about creating my own reason to live. But at the same time, I don’t care about myself to live. If I live, it’s gotta be for someone else. Whether it’s a person or an animal, I don’t mind. I would never abandon a person or a pet. That’d be my anchor. I like mice and rats but they die every two years. I don’t wanna get sad over all of them.

 

[Gengar]

nigga ofc life doesn't have a meaning the ONLY thing that matters in life is living bro once ur finished ur finished eternally y end ur already stupid insignificantly short life

Good point. But I think if the outcome is the same it doesn’t matter. The outcome being hell.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

Just eat kaddu sharif for sunnat.

bro what?

 

[Gengar]

Just eat kaddu sharif for sunnat.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

I don’t have any dreams to chase. You’re right about creating my own reason to live. But at the same time, I don’t care about myself to live. If I live, it’s gotta be for someone else. Whether it’s a person or an animal, I don’t mind. I would never abandon a person or a pet. That’d be my anchor. I like mice and rats but they die every two years. I don’t wanna get sad over all of them.

Live for Allah and his prophet bro. Maybe we could be the army that expels jews out of Jerusalem

 

[DR. NICKGA]

I don't have a reason to stay.

then find a reason to stay
don"t go kys, without you the forum will be shit bhai

 

[Greycel Slayer]

Good point. But I think if the outcome is the same it doesn’t matter. The outcome being hell.

Why not change that outcome?

 

[It'snotover]

Let’s hope you and I won’t do it but my future is honestly very bleak the way things are going right now. I don’t understand why people want kids. This world is a bad place. Bad things will happen one way or the other. But to these people, the world is “beautiful.” I think it’s just a coping mechanism so they don’t end up feeling suicidal.

Well said, let's hope we don't but tbh at least you got some god to believe in fratello, while even if I tried in the last months to become more religious i still don't fully believe in it, because God is something you feel not believe. And yeah, like i said we won't have a good future, with nations going against other and people getting more degenerated day by day. People want childrens for selfish reasons, they want to fulfill their biologic necessity even though they are doing more harm than good by bringing a new person into this world.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

then find a reason to stay
don"t go kys, without you the forum will be shit bhai

He shouldn't be worried about the forum bro. I mean it's cool but having this forum as your sole reason to exist is brutal

 

[Pikabro]

i will never rope and when i'm about to die i will tobe and ask for allah forgiveness then say ashahdo allah etc, just in case 72 virgin JB in heaven is real.

Imbecile you know repentance on the death bed isn’t accepted? Jfl if it was that easy

 

[Gengar]

I get that, you like giving but u dont like receiving, i think it s a male imperative bevause it feels like you owe someone, or like you re underneath them, meanwhile women love receiving.

Definetely go to uni and get a job if you think it s worth it, also keep looksmaxxing and workout possibly, working out saved me and gave me hope, im not good looking but i get so much dopamine when flexing in front of the mirror.

Im a big lurker and although u dont know me i have seen you throughout the years, i wish you the best in life bhai.

Thanks for the nice words bhai, you’re the second person who’s mentioned that they’ve been lurking and seen my post. I feel honored.

That’s an interesting theory, by the way! But I don’t think it applies to me. Simply because I don’t have an ego. Sounds strange but I attach no value to myself.

I remember when I got rejected by this girl I liked but I was still in touch with her brothers and I would bring them food during the month of Ramadan. And I did my best to stay away from said girl so I always texted one of the guys that I’d be the one ringing the door bell so their sister could keep away from me.

I was fine with these things because I really cared about them. But then shortly after, they found out I liked their sister (I was the one who told one of them, due to my honesty) and two days later, they chimped out so hard, causing a massive scene.

I haven’t spoken to them since. Had they handled it better, like having a civilized conservation with me instead, I would still be caring for them. But after that? No. That’s enough. A line has to be drawn somewhere. I was honestly disappointed/saddened by their extreme reaction, especially since I only had good intentions.

And finally, yes, I’m definitely going to college. My family wants me to do that plus I need to be able to support myself instead of relying on governmental support.

@Greycel Slayer And yes, the girl and her brothers were Pakistanis too.

 

[Artbreeder Is Law]

 

[Greycel Slayer]

Well said, let's hope we don't but tbh at least you got some god to believe in fratello, while even if I tried in the last months to become more religious i still don't fully believe in it, because God is something you feel not believe. And yeah, like i said we won't have a good future, with nations going against other and people getting more degenerated day by day. People want childrens for selfish reason, they want to fulfill their biologic necessity even though they are doing more harm than good by bringing a new person into this world.

I mean yea it's only gonna get worst. World War 3 is inevitable and after that shi is gonna go downhill and day of judgement will begin. Bro...your view of the world is pretty fucked. Life isn't all about fucking women. Having children is a good thing, bringing a human being into this world is a beautiful thing. Constant exposure to the top 1% of men has led us to forget what an average human looks like. Our children are gonna b just fine. Give them a chance to live

 

[Gengar]

People in pakistan are suffering from crazy inflation. They are trying to do their best to leave the country. Educated ones are first ones to leave pakistan. Girls are hoeing themselves on street to get by. Mum's jump into lake with their kids to suicide. Dad's run away cuz family expense is burden. You surely don't think you cannot be hope for a family? Sure she may never love you for your looks. But she will stay because you gave her a life she could wish for. Even simped for if you send some money to her family in pakistan to get by. At end of day its transactional but its also hope.

The biggest problem is I don’t want children and they do want children, not just the woman but her parents too. So I will get rejected by most - if not - all families. Some may end up the way you’re describing it but many of them still have honor and not having children is somehow seen as honorless. I think it’s backwards to think like that but that’s the majority opinion and nothing I can change. That’s why I’m so screwed.

 

[Gengar]

Same, I was never been able to sleep on flights, still went to Japan

You went to Japan? Mirin hard. The flight is crazy long from Europe. Longest I flew was 7 hours but from Europe to Japan is like 13 hours. Crazy!

 

[Gengar]

I didn't even read your post i just relage go ur title

Oh, right! Haha.

 

[robtical]

Thanks for the nice words bhai, you’re the second person who’s mentioned that they’ve been lurking and seen my post. I feel honored.

That’s an interesting theory, by the way! But I don’t think it applies to me. Simply because I don’t have an ego. Sounds strange but I attach no value to myself.

I remember when I got rejected by this girl I liked but I was still in touch with her brothers and I would bring them food during the month of Ramadan. And I did my best to stay away from said girl so I always texted one of the guys that I’d be the one ringing the door bell so their sister could keep away from me.

I was fine with these things because I really cared about them. But then shortly after, they found out I liked their sister (I was the one who told one of them, due to my honesty) and two days later, they chimped out so hard, causing a massive scene.

I haven’t spoken to them since. Had they handled it better, like having a civilized conservation with me instead, I would still be caring for them. But after that? No. That’s enough. A line has to be drawn somewhere. I was honestly disappointed/saddened by their extreme reaction, especially since I only had good intentions.

And finally, yes, I’m definitely going to college. My family wants me to do that plus I need to be able to support myself instead of relying on governmental support.

@Greycel Slayer And yes, the girl and her brothers were Pakistanis too.

chimped out? how?

 

[Gengar]

Well I have learned alot of things but I have always had the "doomer" mindset, so I remain a loser. Like many of the members here, I don't apply any of the things I learn. It's like watching a bunch of motivational vids on YT but not doing shit afterwards.

Bro I've seen so many descent looking pakistani women with unattractive men. I'm sure you've applied some of the things that you learned from here, unless you also have a doomer mindset. I haven't seen you but I can almost gurantee that you aren't below 5/10 irl rating. You can easily find a GL wife bro, if you try to get your life in order.

And yeah brother, that jewish nose makes me adrien brody's ugly pakistani cousin LOL

Now Adrien Brody has not one but TWO ugly Pakistani cousins.

And yeah, but those men unironically look better than I do, hence why some women are interested in them. I’m fugly, especially to Pakistani women.

Can relate to learning but not applying stuff in real life, by the way. Take me for example. I am on .org, but I don’t even looksmax. JFL.

 

[khvirgin]

You went to Japan? Mirin hard. The flight is crazy long from Europe. Longest I flew was 7 hours but from Europe to Japan is like 13 hours. Crazy!

I went to sleep as soon i got to the hotel, like two hours because I had a dinner with some people but yeah the flight is tragic for someone that can't sleep, I watched 3 movies back to back and then got bored

Next year we are going to Japan together

 

[robtical]

The biggest problem is I don’t want children and they do want children, not just the woman but her parents too. So I will get rejected by most - if not - all families. Some may end up the way you’re describing it but many of them still have honor and not having children is somehow seen as honorless. I think it’s backwards to think like that but that’s the majority opinion and nothing I can change. That’s why I’m so screwed.

When they need money and are starving for food, everything is on your terms.

 

[Gengar]

Look bro, judging from what u said u have one really natural special thing, thats charisma. Seems like these guys at your college missed you, which indicates your worth as a person. Ikr it sounds bluepilled asf but you must have a great persona irl which many love. And yup japan is really good, would prefer going to it over china, the people are friendly but as a foreigner u nered to know a bit about their culture

I guess I don’t see myself that way. I see myself in negative terms only. Easily replaceable, for instance. I’m actually studying Japanese! Because I like Japanese horror movies so much and Japanese music. Or should I say.. 私は日本語を勉強しています！

 

[Gengar]

If you gave me a gift, and I decided to throw it on the ground in front of you and stomped all over it while cussing and insulting you, how would you feel?

I would feel sad you responded that way and I would never give you a gift again. I’d give it to someone who accepts it. I don’t want a “thank you” in return. Just accepting it is enough for me.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

The biggest problem is I don’t want children and they do want children, not just the woman but her parents too. So I will get rejected by most - if not - all families. Some may end up the way you’re describing it but many of them still have honor and not having children is somehow seen as honorless. I think it’s backwards to think like that but that’s the majority opinion and nothing I can change. That’s why I’m so screwed.

You said you don't want children because you don't want them to end up looking like you, if I'm not mistaken.
My question is...what are you basing your inferiority in terms of looks off of? Are you trying to compare yourself to sollubhai and then getting these types of thoughts or...is it something else?

 

[Gengar]

Jfled for the last part, not for you being rejected and being at your lowest point btw

I low-key wanted to keep the mood lighter so I threw a joke at the end.

 

[Gengar]

daym bro, I wanna meet u now

Come to the Netherlands, bhai! Or if you live in Pakistan, I’ll visit you there, in sha Allah.

 

[Gengar]

Boy do I have a good website for you! It is run by one of your buddies!

S*********S******.com

I’m already on there. Since May 2021.

 

[It'snotover]

I mean yea it's only gonna get worst. World War 3 is inevitable and after that shi is gonna go downhill and day of judgement will begin

Unfortunately for us that's how things will go in max 10 years

Bro...your view of the world is pretty fucked. Life

Probably true ngl, or maybe I am just pessimistic, the thing is i don't see nothing good in our feature with all the shit is going on in Europe.

Life isn't all about fucking women

Never said that bro, I don't even care honestly and i am happy with my current life and copes, just don't see a reason to keep living in a far feature where i would remain alone, just like true cel posted same fucking reason, i just see a bleak feature.

Having children is a good thing, bringing a human being into this world is a beautiful thing. Constant exposure to the top 1% of men has led us to forget what an average human looks like. Our children are gonna b just fine. Give them a chance to live

I am not talking about looks but more about the quality of life of a child in the modern world, I would make a children or more only if i would become rich for obvious reasons

 

[Gengar]

Live for Allah and his prophet bro. Maybe we could be the army that expels jews out of Jerusalem

It’s so much easier said than done. I can live for God and the Seal of Prophets if there’s a reason for me to live. But I need a concrete reason, and that’s an abstract reason. Those are two different things, sadly.

 

[Pikabro]

Lol. You got a point. But I feel like I’m going to hell anyway, I mean… I barely pray. I don’t have the energy.

Make wudhu as quickly as possible and do it regularly even when you aren’t praying so it’s a reflex to you. Start off by making sure you at least pray all 5 then do it on time and with more focus.

I struggle with doing it on time and with khushoo

 

[Gengar]

then find a reason to stay
don"t go kys, without you the forum will be shit bhai

I mean, by the time that happens (or maybe not at all, hopefully, but I dunno how realistic that is), the forum wouldn’t exist. I mean.. for example, do you think this forum would still be up in.. let’s say, 2043? 2053?

 

[Gengar]

Why not change that outcome?

It’s out of my control, brother.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

I guess I don’t see myself that way. I see myself in negative terms only. Easily replaceable, for instance. I’m actually studying Japanese! Because I like Japanese horror movies so much and Japanese music. Or should I say.. 私は日本語を勉強しています！

Dont devalue urself like that smh. that self defeatist mindset is what deludes ur mindset for the worst.

 

[Gengar]

Well said, let's hope we don't but tbh at least you got some god to believe in fratello, while even if I tried in the last months to become more religious i still don't fully believe in it, because God is something you feel not believe. And yeah, like i said we won't have a good future, with nations going against other and people getting more degenerated day by day. People want childrens for selfish reasons, they want to fulfill their biologic necessity even though they are doing more harm than good by bringing a new person into this world.

To be fair, I don’t “feel” God but I do believe, and my beliefs are steady as a rock. I think you can still be religious, fratello. I agree wholeheartedly. People only want children because they’re selfish. Why not adopt the many orphans of this world? They need parents too. I’d adopt, but being an only father is a bad thing for a child. They need a mother AND a father. Not just one or the other.

 

[incelconspiracy]

Don't kill yourself until you've tried some boy pussy.

 

[Gengar]

chimped out? how?

Like, yelling at me, cursing me. One of them went completely psycho, I don’t know what the fuck he did but he kept tapping the front steps in front of the house? Like what the fuck was that.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

Come to the Netherlands, bhai! Or if you live in Pakistan, I’ll visit you there, in sha Allah.

I'm in America bro
I've heard everyone in Netherlands is a giant. I am only 5'8, I will look like your son next to you.

 

[Gengar]

I went to sleep as soon i got to the hotel, like two hours because I had a dinner with some people but yeah the flight is tragic for someone that can't sleep, I watched 3 movies back to back and then got bored

Next year we are going to Japan together

Awesome, man! Have fun in Japan! You’re going with your gf, right?

Haha yeah I watched two movies back-to-back but the flight was shorter as well. I usually normally never get bored but the plane is a different story.

 

[Gengar]

When they need money and are starving for food, everything is on your terms.

You know how overzealous religious people can get in the subcontinent. They expect children to come. That’s basically an unspoken rule. I can’t fulfil that desire of theirs.

 

[Gengar]

You said you don't want children because you don't want them to end up looking like you, if I'm not mistaken.
My question is...what are you basing your inferiority in terms of looks off of? Are you trying to compare yourself to sollubhai and then getting these types of thoughts or...is it something else?

No, I don’t want kids because this world is a bad place. It’s not beautiful..

 

[khvirgin]

Awesome, man! Have fun in Japan! You’re going with your gf, right?

Haha yeah I watched two movies back-to-back but the flight was shorter as well. I usually normally never get bored but the plane is a different story.

Bro I went 4 months ago

I even made a thread
Anyway next spring we are going to tokyo, deal?

 

[Gengar]

Never said that bro, I don't even care honestly and i am happy with my current life and copes, just don't see a reason to keep living in a far feature where i would remain alone, just like true cel posted same fucking reason, i just see a bleak feature.

Fuaaaaark.

 

[robtical]

Boy do I have a good website for you! It is run by one of your buddies!

S*********S******.com

pm me the site

 

[Gengar]

Make wudhu as quickly as possible and do it regularly even when you aren’t praying so it’s a reflex to you. Start off by making sure you at least pray all 5 then do it on time and with more focus.

I struggle with doing it on time and with khushoo

Yeah, ghusl is the most difficult to do. During Ramadan I can do it more often, but since lately I only do it for jummah every Thursday. It sounds too much high energy for me to pull it off, but in the past I’ve been able to do it, so it’s not impossible.

 

[Gengar]

Dont devalue urself like that smh. that self defeatist mindset is what deludes ur mindset for the worst.

I get it haha. You got a point. But I’ve been doing it for so long, it’s second-nature. I guess I like the sense of humility it brings.

 

[Gengar]

Don't kill yourself until you've tried some boy pussy.

Mirin the quick edit.

 

[Gengar]

I'm in America bro
I've heard everyone in Netherlands is a giant. I am only 5'8, I will look like your son next to you.

Come to the Netherlands someday. I am too scared to fly over the ocean, JFL. And I’m only 5’10”, below average here.

 

[Gengar]

Bro I went 4 months ago

I even made a thread
Anyway next spring we are going to tokyo, deal?

What the fuck? I need to see the thread. I’ll go and find it after I have responded to everyone else.

Oh shoot, you meant you and I? Why not. By that time, I’ll have enough money.

All the squishy squishy women will jump on your dick and say “ewww!” About me.