Might kill myself someday

[Greycel Slayer]

Aw man. Why do you think I was even depressed to begin with? I hope you never feel the loss of losing a loved one unexpectedly. It was never about girls for me. Though I did fall for a girl who had the same thing happen to her. But she ended up rejecting me. Liked her for many years. That was when I was at my lowest point in life. She’s engaged/married now. It’s like a heartbreak in a heartbreak. Inception type of shit innit.

I feel you bro. There is still a lot of life ahead. 28 isn't old at all. You've got 40 years ahead of you in sha Allah

 

[Gengar]

Bhai don’t u mean a lot to people here unironically jfl

I do? I certainly don’t feel that way. Maybe it’s because I’m a moderator. I wonder if it would still be the same if I wasn’t. I guess it might, to some degree. I remember arguing with @Nibba often because I underrated him and when some guys on here were being rude to me, he stuck up for me. I have massive respect for that guy. He’s a total giga chad in my eyes now.

 

[Gengar]

Think about your family bhai

I am, bhai. At the same time, I don’t think they actually love me though.

 

[Gengar]

You could get remembered here.

Like Schery6. May he rest in peace.

 

[It'snotover]

This. That’s exactly what I’m saying here. I hope you get to live life until you reach your natural exit. This world needs a cockologist.

I hope the same for you bhai, but I feel like the world has gone to too much shit between the war in Europe and the future economic crises we will see, I really can't feel nothing but a very bad sensation about the future, adding that i am not chad so i do not want kids i don't have any purpose on this earth. Same for the friends part, I have 10 times more friends online than irl, one more reason to kms in the far future, nobody could talk bad about me cause no one will remember me. I truly hope you won't though.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

I do? I certainly don’t feel that way. Maybe it’s because I’m a moderator. I wonder if it would still be the same if I wasn’t. I guess it might, to some degree. I remember arguing with @Nibba often because I underrated him and when some guys on here were being rude to me, he stuck up for me. I have massive respect for that guy. He’s a total giga chad in my eyes now.

do u think when u hypothetically rope people would make fun of u here and forget u?

 

[Deleted member 27987]

I don't have a reason to stay.

It‘s haram. They will fuck your ass in hell. Stay

 

[Gengar]

why? because you're ugly?

Ha. I wish it were that simple. Just been through a lot. Couple that with hiding it for more than half a decade from everyone else, bottling it up inside and you end up like me. So if you ever face a tragedy, I urge you to share it with people. Whether it’s your friends or a therapist. I never did and pretended I didn’t know what depression was like. I LARPed so much I even asked my friends to tell me what depression felt like since “I had no idea.” Lmfao.

 

[Gengar]

Bhai why don't u just feel gratitude for existing and this gift God has given you? To experience the lowest of lows and the highest of highs, to be able to bear witness to the greatness of God, don't let a few mm of bone stop you from being grateful for possessing a spirit and soul. Think on the bright side, atleast u r not turk.

JFL at the last part. Anyway, I don’t feel like God loves me. My face isn’t the reason I might someday.

 

[Gengar]

You've spoke to me about religion brother and as for me fear of god has kept me from roping countless times. You and I both know suicide is majorly haram, and to risk eternal suffering for short suffering on earth is foolish. I hope you feel better bhai, I know it's really bluepilled to say but I really do hope you find the right woman for you. You seem like you truly have a great heart and I hope your misfortunes end soon. God bless brother, and I hope you have a better life starting soon.

Thank you for your nice words, brother. I appreciate it a lot. May God bless you.

 

[Gengar]

Bro is scared of a wasp

It looked agitated.

 

[BongMog]

I am, bhai. At the same time, I don’t think they actually love me though.

Think about your mom atleast, only person on earth to love you unconditionally, you gotta live for her

 

[Gengar]

What is a good age to rope?

The age is irrelevant. I think it’s about the right life circumstances. In this context, the right life circumstances are the worst ones. Completely alone, having no one, no reason to live, et cetera. That’s when it’s the right time. For me, anyway. Right now I still got things to do. Go to college, get a degree, work a job. It’s not the right time yet, but that could change any moment. God knows best.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Same. I have nothing here in this world. I have a lot of Weltschmerz knowing what life could be, but how it never gets close to it.

Weltschmerz is a literary concept describing the feeling experienced by an individual who believes that reality can never satisfy the expectations of the mind, resulting in "a mood of weariness or sadness about life arising from the acute awareness of evil and suffering".

 

[Gengar]

I really really want you to live. Hit me up in the discord server crody, I don’t want you to die.

Thank you brother. I appreciate it a lot.

 

[Deleted member 14693]

Speeding up the process, basically. If I’m destined for hell anyway due my lack of prayers, then it doesn’t make a difference if I do it. That’s how I see it.

Im not a expert on islam but I think will all other sins you will rot in hell for a long time but eventually get to haeven but with suicide you will land in hell for eternity

 

[Gengar]

It is not bad to suicide if done considering all the options and coming to conclusion you do not want to put in effort or live the life of the options available. Majority of world is alive due to hope and not being able to take their own life.

Yep, I agree with you. Plus fear. Fear holds many back. Fear of the unknown.

 

[Deleted member 22623]

The face of depression. The worst part is, once you start having these thoughts they do not go away. They just fester and amplify with time. What you're thinking now to be a distant concept that you might engage with in the future, down the line, but definitely not now can soon become an all-consuming thought... At least that's how I felt at my lowest point in life, but we are all different.

 

[Deleted member 23314]

You must create your own reason to live, no matter how arduous it may seem. Some were given a reason to live from the beginning and didn't need to seek one. You can create a reason out of anything, it can be as abstract as a dream or an archetype.

 

[TDTaykurso]

nigga ofc life doesn't have a meaning the ONLY thing that matters in life is living bro once ur finished ur finished eternally y end ur already stupid insignificantly short life

 

[robtical]

That’s true, but I also don’t pray and that’s also haram - in fact, not praying means not fulfilling one of the five pillars of Islam. Since I don’t pray, I’m going to hell anyway. By killing myself someday, if that ever happens, I am just speeding up that process. That’s my mindset. I get where you’re coming from though.

Just eat kaddu sharif for sunnat.

 

[Gengar]

c'mon bhai, y the depressed mood. I been lurking around here for years and see you in almost every thread, so I can vouch for the fact that you really do like helping others. At the end of the day, we all gonna die anyways. Life is short so stop worrying about useless things. Live a good life, and we'll get what we deserve in the afterlife. Instead of worrying about shi like canthal tilt and what not, stay true to Allah and find yourself a wife. I mean, we should be thanking Him that we are even alive. Life is a gift so appreciate and live it fully, if you are truly wise. I am no person to give advise, but think of the bounties you been given twice, if not thrice.


And I've always wanted to tell you, I'm the uglier pakistani version of adrien brody as well.

You’ve been learning here for years? Wow, that’s cool. Welcome aboard, man! I don’t know why the depressed mood, I wasn’t feeling depressed when I wrote this. I was reflecting on it, feeling nothing but emptiness. I think emptiness is a great feeling, sincerely. It stops you from feeling sad. As for finding a wife, I dunno… I’m facially unattractive. I tried going for one, but she rejected me and treated me harshly. That was awful. I’m over it now though, alhamdullilah. She was also Pakistani. And mirin! I thought I was the only ugly Pakistani version of Adrien Brody. Good to know you’re like me in that regard. Gonna hit you up in PMs though because I like asking Pakistanis on here where they are from, et cetera. Expect a PM soon.

 

[Gengar]

قُلۡ يَٰعِبَادِيَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَسۡرَفُواْ عَلَىٰٓ أَنفُسِهِمۡ لَا تَقۡنَطُواْ مِن رَّحۡمَةِ ٱللَّهِۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَغۡفِرُ ٱلذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًاۚ إِنَّهُۥ هُوَ ٱلۡغَفُورُ ٱلرَّحِيمُ
Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allāh. Indeed, Allāh forgives all sins.Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."

39:53

All sins except for roping, sadly.

 

[Gengar]

No

Don’t like it here
Do not enjoy this place
It is most likely responsible for where you are
This is Stockholm Syndrome

The only way your life can change at this point is a violent and abrupt awakening

You need to be moved by force

Something out of your will

Please leave

I’m being serious

I’m going to college and stop NEETing! I started posting here when I was a NEET. I don’t think I can leave. Plus I have grown fond of the people that are here. It is not possible for me. Thanks for the advice though.

 

[Gengar]

Use your foreign pakistani card to get a wife from pakistan. Adopt an orphan and raise it. Right now, people are legit trying to run away from pakistan. You can be hope for some foid.

I wish it were that easy, man. I am facially unattractive and these days they care a lot more about face than money. Many people want to get out but they also tend to be feminists, so they’re not my type. Plus they are self-hating often.

 

[HOLYFUARK]

I get that, you like giving but u dont like receiving, i think it s a male imperative bevause it feels like you owe someone, or like you re underneath them, meanwhile women love receiving.

Definetely go to uni and get a job if you think it s worth it, also keep looksmaxxing and workout possibly, working out saved me and gave me hope, im not good looking but i get so much dopamine when flexing in front of the mirror.

Im a big lurker and although u dont know me i have seen you throughout the years, i wish you the best in life bhai.

 

[robtical]

I wish it were that easy, man. I am facially unattractive and these days they care a lot more about face than money. Many people want to get out but they also tend to be feminists, so they’re not my type. Plus they are self-hating often.

People in pakistan are suffering from crazy inflation. They are trying to do their best to leave the country. Educated ones are first ones to leave pakistan. Girls are hoeing themselves on street to get by. Mum's jump into lake with their kids to suicide. Dad's run away cuz family expense is burden. You surely don't think you cannot be hope for a family? Sure she may never love you for your looks. But she will stay because you gave her a life she could wish for. Even simped for if you send some money to her family in pakistan to get by. At end of day its transactional but its also hope.

 

[Gengar]

Look ur 27 but dont be discouraged from entering college, u will be in the minority in terms of age gap. There r also 30 year olds still in academia doing a phd. You should never consider quitting college in the meantime tho. Surely there might be brutal experiences but its for ur own good. You should meret new buddies in college aside from ur curtrent friends. im pretty sure u will exchange many similar topics together. Good luck w tha, sounds hard to go through but im pretty sure u will adapt tho. Also have you ever visited a professional and whats ur relationship with parents?

Thanks for your encouragement. I appreciate it a lot. I anticipate to be the oldest person in class, but I won’t let that deter me from studying. I was studying at a community college last year and despite being the oldest, most of the guys in my class liked me. When I went on a vacation, one of them kept saying how they were gonna miss me. And when I came back, they told me how they missed me a few times and that they’re glad I’m back. Another guy when he saw me the first time got up to give me a hug haha. So I think the age won’t be an issue, though that guy was the oldest after me with a five year age gap and the first guy a ten year age gap. Cool guys. I hope they’re doing well.

And no, I haven’t visited a professional. I won’t be able to talk about these kind of things as I’m not that kind of person. My relationship with my family is great, but most of them are on the older side. Everyone who knows me has good things to say.

One of my relatives in Pakistan even said to someone (I wasn’t there) “I don’t like people from overseas, but TRUE_CEL is really nice.” That was nice to hear.

 

[Gengar]

u should travel around the world bro imagine

I’m not a fan of traveling. I don’t sleep on flights so I’m often awake for 48 hours whenever I fly a long distance. I do want to visit Japan someday! And China.

 

[Deleted member 33275]

Bro is scared of a wasp

White anglo saxon protestant

 

[Gengar]

I WILL kill myself eventually. Going out on your own terms mogs all other death causes in terms of peacefulness

It sucks to hear there’s a lot of people who can relate and feel the same way. I honestly wish you guys didn’t.

 

[khvirgin]

I’m not a fan of traveling. I don’t sleep on flights so I’m often awake for 48 hours whenever I fly a long distance. I do want to visit Japan someday! And China.

Same, I was never been able to sleep on flights, still went to Japan

 

[Gengar]

Very strong antinatalism vibes here.

Based.

 

[Gengar]

No brother. The thing is...I want to talk to you
You do not understand bro...I been lurking around here for quite a while and I would always see your posts. Reading and spotting your posts really made me cheer up for some reason. I would have that "I know this guy" moment everytime. I really didn't think I could ever talk to you like this

Oh, my bad! Sure, add me on discord and I’ll accept your request when I’m done replying to everyone here. And aw that sounds nice haha, I feel really humbled. Thanks!

 

[exo]

It sucks to hear there’s a lot of people who can relate and feel the same way. I honestly wish you guys didn’t.

I didn't even read your post i just relage go ur title

 

[Gengar]

Dont see the point of life in the far future* shouldve mentioned that JFL.

I am actually quite happy at my life even tho i am a subhuman, but i also know ill rope in 20-30 years.

Man, this is sad. I wish you didn’t feel that way. But I totally get it. If anyone knows what you’re saying, it’s me. I don’t know how many years it’s gonna take. I hope it never happens in my case. But you never know. And I hope it never happens in your case either.

 

[Greycel Slayer]

You’ve been learning here for years? Wow, that’s cool. Welcome aboard, man! I don’t know why the depressed mood, I wasn’t feeling depressed when I wrote this. I was reflecting on it, feeling nothing but emptiness. I think emptiness is a great feeling, sincerely. It stops you from feeling sad. As for finding a wife, I dunno… I’m facially unattractive. I tried going for one, but she rejected me and treated me harshly. That was awful. I’m over it now though, alhamdullilah. She was also Pakistani. And mirin! I thought I was the only ugly Pakistani version of Adrien Brody. Good to know you’re like me in that regard. Gonna hit you up in PMs though because I like asking Pakistanis on here where they are from, et cetera. Expect a PM soon.

Well I have learned alot of things but I have always had the "doomer" mindset, so I remain a loser. Like many of the members here, I don't apply any of the things I learn. It's like watching a bunch of motivational vids on YT but not doing shit afterwards.

Bro I've seen so many descent looking pakistani women with unattractive men. I'm sure you've applied some of the things that you learned from here, unless you also have a doomer mindset. I haven't seen you but I can almost gurantee that you aren't below 5/10 irl rating. You can easily find a GL wife bro, if you try to get your life in order.

And yeah brother, that jewish nose makes me adrien brody's ugly pakistani cousin LOL

 

[Deleted member 31155]

Thanks for your encouragement. I appreciate it a lot. I anticipate to be the oldest person in class, but I won’t let that deter me from studying. I was studying at a community college last year and despite being the oldest, most of the guys in my class liked me. When I went on a vacation, one of them kept saying how they were gonna miss me. And when I came back, they told me how they missed me a few times and that they’re glad I’m back. Another guy when he saw me the first time got up to give me a hug haha. So I think the age won’t be an issue, though that guy was the oldest after me with a five year age gap and the first guy a ten year age gap. Cool guys. I hope they’re doing well.

And no, I haven’t visited a professional. I won’t be able to talk about these kind of things as I’m not that kind of person. My relationship with my family is great, but most of them are on the older side. Everyone who knows me has good things to say.

One of my relatives in Pakistan even said to someone (I wasn’t there) “I don’t like people from overseas, but TRUE_CEL is really nice.” That was nice to hear.

Look bro, judging from what u said u have one really natural special thing, thats charisma. Seems like these guys at your college missed you, which indicates your worth as a person. Ikr it sounds bluepilled asf but you must have a great persona irl which many love. And yup japan is really good, would prefer going to it over china, the people are friendly but as a foreigner u nered to know a bit about their culture

 

[Greycel Slayer]

All sins except for roping, sadly.

If you gave me a gift, and I decided to throw it on the ground in front of you and stomped all over it while cussing and insulting you, how would you feel?

 

[Gengar]

I often think how I may get euthanised age 60+
By that age I should've done most things I want to, and if I haven't, they probably won't happen, or I'll be too old to enjoy it properly.
But this depends if I have a partner or whatever I suppose, I mean I want that one day but none of my potential life plans include that possibility
Idk I think it's pointless to rope until you're at least past the median age of death of humans before medicine, around 40 or so. I think once you reach that age you can kind of say you completed life biologically

Well, I think I’ll probably be in my late 40s, 50s or 60s by that time. I don’t know. But I get what you mean. If I had a partner I’d definitely not rope because that’s a reason to live but I have a hard time getting attracted to someone. So I have no idea if I will ever find someone. Looks alone don’t do it for me.

 

[Gengar]

Meanwhile these chads enjoy their life

I’m glad to see Sallubhai is enjoying his life.

 

[Gengar]

I feel you bro. There is still a lot of life ahead. 28 isn't old at all. You've got 40 years ahead of you in sha Allah

In Sha Allah. I do feel old at 27 though. Like a grandpa.

 

[Gengar]

I hope the same for you bhai, but I feel like the world has gone to too much shit between the war in Europe and the future economic crises we will see, I really can't feel nothing but a very bad sensation about the future, adding that i am not chad so i do not want kids i don't have any purpose on this earth. Same for the friends part, I have 10 times more friends online than irl, one more reason to kms in the far future, nobody could talk bad about me cause no one will remember me. I truly hope you won't though.

Let’s hope you and I won’t do it but my future is honestly very bleak the way things are going right now. I don’t understand why people want kids. This world is a bad place. Bad things will happen one way or the other. But to these people, the world is “beautiful.” I think it’s just a coping mechanism so they don’t end up feeling suicidal.

 

[Gengar]

do u think when u hypothetically rope people would make fun of u here and forget u?

Yeah, I think I will be the butt of jokes, some people would be glad and celebrate. And then I’ll fade into obscurity whenever this forum gets shut down someday (by the admins’ choice).

 

[Gengar]

It‘s haram. They will fuck your ass in hell. Stay

That’s true. But as I said to others, I don’t pray so I’ll go to hell anyway. I’d just be speeding up the process.

 

[Deleted member 31155]

Yeah, I think I will be the butt of jokes, some people would be glad and celebrate. And then I’ll fade into obscurity whenever this forum gets shut down someday (by the admins’ choice).

i dont think u will be made fun of by legitimate users except the newcomers. i think ur image here is pretty good to be made fun of

 

[Gengar]

Think about your mom atleast, only person on earth to love you unconditionally, you gotta live for her

I understand what you’re saying, although for now I have no intentions of ending it. I’m talking about in the future when the people I care about have already passed away and I am still a lonely piece of crap. That’s what I had in mind when I created this thread. Considering everything, this is a real possibility. That’s why.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Aw man. Why do you think I was even depressed to begin with? I hope you never feel the loss of losing a loved one unexpectedly. It was never about girls for me. Though I did fall for a girl who had the same thing happen to her. But she ended up rejecting me. Liked her for many years. That was when I was at my lowest point in life. She’s engaged/married now. It’s like a heartbreak in a heartbreak. Inception type of shit innit.

Jfled for the last part, not for you being rejected and being at your lowest point btw

 

[Gengar]

Same. I have nothing here in this world. I have a lot of Weltschmerz knowing what life could be, but how it never gets close to it.

Weltschmerz is a literary concept describing the feeling experienced by an individual who believes that reality can never satisfy the expectations of the mind, resulting in "a mood of weariness or sadness about life arising from the acute awareness of evil and suffering".

I guess I can relate to that in a way, actually. And damn, I didn’t know you felt that way.. I guess doing drugs should have been a sign. Most people do it to escape reality, after all.

 

[Gengar]

Im not a expert on islam but I think will all other sins you will rot in hell for a long time but eventually get to haeven but with suicide you will land in hell for eternity

That is correct. I’m impressed by your knowledge. I just think I’ll be there forever as well. Even if it’s not true. But it’s hard to shake off. Maybe it’s the devil’s whispers.