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I wish I didn't have an email for bad news sometimes (a school email). I got a very, very tight schedule filled with shit that I want to do for my own mind with my spare time on my fucking day, because every day, is MY FUCKING DAY. I usually lurk the internet on a second tab behind my zoom and google classes and have both my mic and camera turned off (unless it's physical education of course, in which they put some shitty livestream with our PE teacher who always records it during the weekends).
If I don't wanna play on my laptop or my console, then I go to the park and start playing basketball or tennis. If not, I start walking around in circles talking to old people. If I don't wanna do that either, I go to my rooftop and play ping pong with my brother, whom is always up for it for some reason but he also has a lot of time on his hands. If I don't want to do any of the things I previously mentioned, then I go to the parking lot beneath my apartment and start looking around for coins on the floor. I've found 26 pennies and dimes in the last two months, people can't hold their pocket it seems.
There's like four teenagers out of a million boomers on my whole condo and most of them i'm actually sure aren't teenagers just college kids who have zero things I could relate to. As for school, one of my friends is sick (not covid gladly) and another one is on vacation without his vidya or contacts so i'm not seeing them for the next month at all. This one lazy but cute Becky with sad eyebags is very clingy and always facetiming me after 11:00 telling me the same trivia about some movie she saw at the cinema or museum, etc.
I don't want to go to real school again. I don't want it and I don't need it. In our online version we have an entire custom made website with modules and shit that I works perfectly and I know what to upload to get peak marks and when to do it, but it has no relation to my actual school since i'm barely finished with high school and this is supposedly a "prep system" even though I still haven't qualified. My driving school, guess what? Closed too.
I don't want to socialize with a bunch of unknown low tier normie niggas whom i've only interacted via videocalls and chats. My brain opens up new paths everytime I meet new groups of people as a whole, and this includes teachers, so I purposedly force myself to see everyone as NPCs whom I should NEVER maker eye contact with unless they're close friends/family member or if they're a girl I like.
They're putting cameras all over the classrooms and cafeteria, high quality ones too, so I can't do anything aside from school related shit on our monitors and personal devices.
How am I supposed to furfill my brain's need for dopamine rushes?
EDIT: Tbh what else should I do, should I plan a vacation somewhere too?
If I don't wanna play on my laptop or my console, then I go to the park and start playing basketball or tennis. If not, I start walking around in circles talking to old people. If I don't wanna do that either, I go to my rooftop and play ping pong with my brother, whom is always up for it for some reason but he also has a lot of time on his hands. If I don't want to do any of the things I previously mentioned, then I go to the parking lot beneath my apartment and start looking around for coins on the floor. I've found 26 pennies and dimes in the last two months, people can't hold their pocket it seems.
There's like four teenagers out of a million boomers on my whole condo and most of them i'm actually sure aren't teenagers just college kids who have zero things I could relate to. As for school, one of my friends is sick (not covid gladly) and another one is on vacation without his vidya or contacts so i'm not seeing them for the next month at all. This one lazy but cute Becky with sad eyebags is very clingy and always facetiming me after 11:00 telling me the same trivia about some movie she saw at the cinema or museum, etc.
I don't want to go to real school again. I don't want it and I don't need it. In our online version we have an entire custom made website with modules and shit that I works perfectly and I know what to upload to get peak marks and when to do it, but it has no relation to my actual school since i'm barely finished with high school and this is supposedly a "prep system" even though I still haven't qualified. My driving school, guess what? Closed too.
I don't want to socialize with a bunch of unknown low tier normie niggas whom i've only interacted via videocalls and chats. My brain opens up new paths everytime I meet new groups of people as a whole, and this includes teachers, so I purposedly force myself to see everyone as NPCs whom I should NEVER maker eye contact with unless they're close friends/family member or if they're a girl I like.
They're putting cameras all over the classrooms and cafeteria, high quality ones too, so I can't do anything aside from school related shit on our monitors and personal devices.
How am I supposed to furfill my brain's need for dopamine rushes?
EDIT: Tbh what else should I do, should I plan a vacation somewhere too?
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