I’m tired man. I finally understand how a girl would make no difference in my life.

[edgemaxx]

schizoid activities

 

[the BULL]

2024 Is ER year inshallah

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Genuinely read this and will effortpost

You're right that "ascending" won't do shit to heal the abused dog pain and You're actually on the right track

I realized this, that things wouldn't "get better" as normies say but it became the catalyst for my freedom

I had an intense bout of existential dread over the past month, and I realized the only thing I can do atp is stop giving a fuck, stop taking myself seriously and start seeing life basically as a big joke. Now I'm at peace

I recently read the book Stephen Steppenwolf by Herman Hesse, which is about an abused dog(or wolf) who goes on a journey of self discovery, long story short he ends up losing his oneitis and everything he does fails. End of the book he's back at the same place he started with nothing to show but self discovery. Alot of people hate it. Why read a book about a guy that doesn't accomplish anything concrete. But why live a life like that? The only way to go forward for us is finding some meaning in marching our journeys to the end even if there's no event horizon where we find healing(there isn't)

This isn't inspirational or uplifting but it's worked for me. And as a fellow abused dog. I hope you find some value in this

i did.

I always appreciate your replies, please keep it in mind.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

I hope you make it out of this rut bro

thanks man.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Roping is never the solution

ER?

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

2024 Is ER year inshallah

inshallah the 2025 years eve will be a big kaboom

 

[anhedonia16]

Sound track to the thread


I can’t understand how people manage to talk to another person for whole days.

I usually don’t talk at all, you might not understand so let me say it again:
I go days without opening my mouth, not talking to anyone.
I actually thought that liking a girl and messaging her would help, but even tho i haven’t experienced it other than with girls on dating apps, i really get bored quickly of them.

The moment i jerk off, i stop checking messages at all. That says a lot about me and made me understand one crucial factor about my self:
I don’t care about social connections or love, my body just feels the need to release cum every now and then to feel complete.

I always knew it, my mom always told me i was an heartless monster, and so my friends i used to have.

I’m actually just a heartless demon, i don’t care about my family neither. If they were to die tomorrow i would shake it off after a couple of minutes to plan my next move to survive on my own.

I’m pretty sure this has been due to my upbringing: i’ve been bullied for my skin color and ethnicity since i was 5 years old. I needed to put up fights to defend my self, and that only made it seem worse to my teachers since they already thought I was aggressive because of me being arab.

I’ve always been alone since i was born, i was born because my brother wanted a brother. My mom and dad didn’t actually want me as they were planning on having only 1 child. That’s probably why i’m ignored and hated rn.

I hate them too, i don’t like them at all.
They made it always seem like i deserved to be bullied by them, that i deserved to be treated like shit.

One crucial event was my first love i had at the young age of 12.

She brutally rejected me for being short and fat.

My best friend at that time told me he was gonna help me, until i found out he was trying to hook up with her the whole time.

That left a scar so deep into my heart that i genuinely felt less love for everyone, then i got rejected another time, and another time again, and another, and another….

They left nothing into me, i’m just an empty shell of the human i was.

I have nothing left to live for realistically.

I cope by thinking that i’ll ascend and make money to make everyone and my family regret abandoning me.
In reality, no one will care. My family will probably leave me be and the girls and fake friends i used to have will have found their true love by then and they won’t even remember who i was.

I’m pushing through 1 last year of my life, 2024 will be the end of it all finally.

I tried so hard until now, i lost 20kg of weight and went from fat to shredded.
I became more intelligent and read a lot of books, i trained and became stronger mentally and physically.
I endured the pain of rejection and approached girls and became more NT and less inhibited, after the covid raped my inhibition and NTness.

I went from no one, to no one.

People still look at me but they see nothing behind my eyes. Those black deep eyes, a girl once told me it was like i wasn’t looking at her while we held eye contact.

“it’s like you are looking past me, at something else”

Idk what these eyes can actually see, but what i see is nothingness.

I will never have a kid, and if i will, that means i’ll be the most ruthless monster ever.
I don’t want anyone else to feel what i feel.

You guys always laugh at me for being 24/7 online, while this is the only place i can talk even tho my mouth is still closed.

I’m truly alone, and connections and people only fade away after a matter of time and they don’t matter.

I hope i’ll speak to god once i’ll die, i want to ask him why did he want me to live this way.
Why didn’t he help me when i needed it.

I can’t cry anymore, nothing is left in me other than hate for this world.

Why did i turn this way, that’s what i’m wondering. I just wanted to be an astronaut when i was a kid, and go to the moon and explore space.

While now i just wanna hang from a cord lifeless.

Thanks for reading, this was just some venting. It’ll be here once i’ll do the deed.

Pseudo.

Dr

 

[Deleted member 23359]

Dnrd

Be a real man and bottle your feelings until you go ER

 

[funkyflamingo]

dont lose hope nigga theres worst people out there like look at my pfp

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Dnrd

Be a real man and bottle your feelings until you go ER

already doing it blud

 

[Deleted member 23359]

already doing it blud

Go ER with me December 27th

 

[longjohnmong]

I finally understand how a girl would make no difference in my life.

cope

 

[funkyflamingo]

ive seen some mogger arabs after ascending just stop wanking ur dick nigga
unironically suggest watching hamza

 

[DildoFaggins]

Don't kill yourself brah. You can still fuck escorts and do drugs and die in your late 30's or something. I'd also recommend that you look into orthodox christianity., it would bring you peace.

 

[DildoFaggins]

ive seen some mogger arabs after ascending just stop wanking ur dick nigga
unironically suggest watching hamza

JoinedOct 15, 2023Posts596Reputation487

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Go ER with me December 27th

2025 tho, i’m giving it a last shot in 2024.

Crazy low inhib tho to put the date too, feds here are already planning your assassination.

 

[Samiscool234]

Sound track to the thread


I can’t understand how people manage to talk to another person for whole days.

I usually don’t talk at all, you might not understand so let me say it again:
I go days without opening my mouth, not talking to anyone.
I actually thought that liking a girl and messaging her would help, but even tho i haven’t experienced it other than with girls on dating apps, i really get bored quickly of them.

The moment i jerk off, i stop checking messages at all. That says a lot about me and made me understand one crucial factor about my self:
I don’t care about social connections or love, my body just feels the need to release cum every now and then to feel complete.

I always knew it, my mom always told me i was an heartless monster, and so my friends i used to have.

I’m actually just a heartless demon, i don’t care about my family neither. If they were to die tomorrow i would shake it off after a couple of minutes to plan my next move to survive on my own.

I’m pretty sure this has been due to my upbringing: i’ve been bullied for my skin color and ethnicity since i was 5 years old. I needed to put up fights to defend my self, and that only made it seem worse to my teachers since they already thought I was aggressive because of me being arab.

I’ve always been alone since i was born, i was born because my brother wanted a brother. My mom and dad didn’t actually want me as they were planning on having only 1 child. That’s probably why i’m ignored and hated rn.

I hate them too, i don’t like them at all.
They made it always seem like i deserved to be bullied by them, that i deserved to be treated like shit.

One crucial event was my first love i had at the young age of 12.

She brutally rejected me for being short and fat.

My best friend at that time told me he was gonna help me, until i found out he was trying to hook up with her the whole time.

That left a scar so deep into my heart that i genuinely felt less love for everyone, then i got rejected another time, and another time again, and another, and another….

They left nothing into me, i’m just an empty shell of the human i was.

I have nothing left to live for realistically.

I cope by thinking that i’ll ascend and make money to make everyone and my family regret abandoning me.
In reality, no one will care. My family will probably leave me be and the girls and fake friends i used to have will have found their true love by then and they won’t even remember who i was.

I’m pushing through 1 last year of my life, 2024 will be the end of it all finally.

I tried so hard until now, i lost 20kg of weight and went from fat to shredded.
I became more intelligent and read a lot of books, i trained and became stronger mentally and physically.
I endured the pain of rejection and approached girls and became more NT and less inhibited, after the covid raped my inhibition and NTness.

I went from no one, to no one.

People still look at me but they see nothing behind my eyes. Those black deep eyes, a girl once told me it was like i wasn’t looking at her while we held eye contact.

“it’s like you are looking past me, at something else”

Idk what these eyes can actually see, but what i see is nothingness.

I will never have a kid, and if i will, that means i’ll be the most ruthless monster ever.
I don’t want anyone else to feel what i feel.

You guys always laugh at me for being 24/7 online, while this is the only place i can talk even tho my mouth is still closed.

I’m truly alone, and connections and people only fade away after a matter of time and they don’t matter.

I hope i’ll speak to god once i’ll die, i want to ask him why did he want me to live this way.
Why didn’t he help me when i needed it.

I can’t cry anymore, nothing is left in me other than hate for this world.

Why did i turn this way, that’s what i’m wondering. I just wanted to be an astronaut when i was a kid, and go to the moon and explore space.

While now i just wanna hang from a cord lifeless.

Thanks for reading, this was just some venting. It’ll be here once i’ll do the deed.

Pseudo.

Bro added a soundtrack to his thread

 

[funkyflamingo]

JoinedOct 15, 2023Posts596Reputation487

thank you for reminding me that I do not live on a website unlike you

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

cope

the only one cupping is you boyo

 

[Deleted member 28927]

fire ost​

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

ive seen some mogger arabs after ascending just stop wanking ur dick nigga
unironically suggest watching hamza

im not bad looking, and i already had my hamza phase.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

Don't kill yourself brah. You can still fuck escorts and do drugs and die in your late 30's or something. I'd also recommend that you look into orthodox christianity., it would bring you peace.

i would probably go ER with @the BULL

 

[AspiringMogger]

There is meaning in struggle. You might enjoy watching this

 

[longjohnmong]

the only one cupping is you boyo

cope

 

[funkyflamingo]

im not bad looking, and i already had my hamza phase.

stop wanking and find fulfillment outside the internet I highly suggest you delete your account and get off this disgusting website

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

There is meaning in struggle. You might enjoy watching this

i did, but what’s the meaning.

At the end, you die alone as gojo said.

No meaning working and wagon all your life to make some jew billionaire richer

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

stop wanking and find fulfillment outside the internet I highly suggest you delete your account and get off this disgusting website

i probably will once i stop working 12h a day and actually live out my youth.

 

[nissan]

relatable that's why im an alcoholic

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

cope

This is you btw

 

[funkyflamingo]

i probably will once i stop working 12h a day and actually live out my youth.

im assuming you are in your early 20's there is a light at the end of the tunnel even if you cannot see it

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

relatable that's why im an alcoholic

how old are you and how much you drink a day?

 

[DildoFaggins]

2025 tho, i’m giving it a last shot in 2024.

Crazy low inhib tho to put the date too, feds here are already planning your assassination.

fuck I regret posting in this thread.

(I want all the potential government agencies looking through these posts in the future to know that I in no way associate myself with incel ideology or domestic terrorism, all posts done here by me are completely satirical and I condemn any and all acts of violence or hatred.*)

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

im assuming you are in your early 20's there is a light at the end of the tunnel even if you cannot see it

im 19

 

[AspiringMogger]

i did, but what’s the meaning.

At the end, you die alone as gojo said.

No meaning working and wagon all your life to make some jew billionaire richer

You find meaning in whatever you want. If you’ve concluded roping is the solution, be my guest. It’s just a waste of evolution in my opinion though

 

[nissan]

how old are you and how much you drink a day?

15 and i drink from 3pm-1am most times after school with friends

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

I in no way associate myself with incel ideology or domestic terrorism, all posts done here by me are completely satirical and I condemn any and all acts of violence or hatred.

I don’t.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

You find meaning in whatever you want. If you’ve concluded roping is the solution, be my guest. It’s just a waste of evolution in my opinion though

natural selection imo. I’m 5’6, i’m subhuman height wise and not that facially good looking.

I deserve to die

 

[funkyflamingo]

im 19

if you truly want to become better youll delete your account the instant you read this, if you do not you are consciously making a decision to be a incel

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

15 and i drink from 3pm-1am most times after school with friends

you got friends blud, you ain’t an alcoholic

 

[Deleted member 47552]

@PseudoMaxxer I read it all, and I'm very sorry.
Leave the site for good, find God PROPERLY, live your life and don't look back bhai.
You're only 19, there's light at the end of the tunnel, remember that.

 

[nissan]

you got friends blud, you ain’t an alcoholic

just cuz u got friends don't mean they're good for you

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

if you truly want to become better youll delete your account the instant you read this, if you do not you are consciously making a decision to be a incel

you are probably right.

But as i said, this is the only place i can talk with somebody.
Not even my family talks to me.

 

[funkyflamingo]

@PseudoMaxxer I read it all, and I'm very sorry.
Leave the site for good, find God PROPERLY, live your life and don't look back bhai.
You're only 19, there's light at the end of the tunnel, remember that.

exactly word for word what I said lol

 

[funkyflamingo]

you are probably right.

But as i said, this is the only place i can talk with somebody.
Not even my family talks to me.

not pobably I AM right and you are coping by not deleting

 

[Deleted member 47552]

you are probably right.

But as i said, this is the only place i can talk with somebody.
Not even my family talks to me.

No joke just leave and start afresh.
Become a bloody gypsy ffs, just do SOMETHING.

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

not pobably I AM right and you are coping by not deleting

i AM completely ALONE. I DONT TALK TO NO ONE, I HAVE NO FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY DISOWNED ME.

IF I DONT POST HERE ILL GO INSANE

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

No joke just leave and start afresh.
Become a bloody gypsy ffs, just do SOMETHING.

a preset work 12 h a day, what can i do more than this? I looksmaxx and eat healthy and i’m in great shape.

I tried anything, i approached girls too many many times

 

[funkyflamingo]

i AM completely ALONE. I DONT TALK TO NO ONE, I HAVE NO FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY DISOWNED ME.

IF I DONT POST HERE ILL GO INSANE

you came up with an excuse to why you cannot delete your account in 10 seconds, you posting here is a very cheap rip off having friends and you can make friends

 

[whiteislandpill]

ER?

Jokes aside you really shouldn't do it but you probably know this

 

[Deleted member 47552]

a preset work 12 h a day, what can i do more than this? I looksmaxx and eat healthy and i’m in great shape.

I tried anything, i approached girls too many many times

Maybe girls don't matter dude, being serious.
Stop working like a dog, go somewhere new, start a new chapter.