DwayneWhite55
I'm 39 and stfu about Asia
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Since I have been questioned that I'm a 39 year old bum and should have a degree I will tell you what happened. And how brutal life can be. I've only learned by making the mistakes but once you are fucked it's about impossible to get out of it.
Story-
So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.
Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.
I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.
That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.
My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.
They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.
At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.
Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.
Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.
I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.
I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.
I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.
It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.
Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.
Story-
So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.
Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.
I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.
That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.
My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.
They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.
At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.
Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.
Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.
I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.
I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.
I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.
It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.
Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.